Couch 78: Put your feet up and stay a while

I'm supposed to meet up with the psychologist on Monday (finally!) and I think I've decided to tell her about it if the whole thing is still bothering me by then. I just worry that she'll misunderstand.

Good decision, I think, neutrino. I'm sorry things are hard, but it is good that you are finally getting to see a psychologist. How was the summer research programme? I know you found it hard at first, but did it get better?

Aaa, that sounds so rough. I'm sorry. It's good to see you back, though. When are you seeing your T again?

I have left the UK for Ireland. Back home in a week, unless the Icelandic volcano stops the air traffic. And back to T in a week, too.

What do you all do for anger?? I am irrationally really really really angry.. nothing hugely horrible happened, just a few annoying things and I am ready to take someone's head off.. Ugh, hate anger!!!

I really want to go to Ireland, I feel in love with Ireland and Irish culture both past and present, while taking a Yeats/Joyce class in college!

I ride my bike, punch a pillow, I try to do something repetitive with a rhythm.

It's the robots that will get us in the end. Not the I,Robot-types but the nanobots.

When i first saw this i just saw Wagner and thought this is too intellectual for me, but she is really funny. "He nagged her into a coma" Sounds like my ex-FIL. Hehe.

Was at the supermarket today and couldn't believe that the Halloween candy was already out.

I thought that line was funny too

Two things:
1. Exercise
2. Try to work out what I'm angry about. It's generally something I'm aware of, but think is no big deal.

That caught my eye too - some decorations or something. I did notice some trees turning last week, a few leaves here and there. But it was hot and humid today - like summer saying, im not done yet! - and then it stormed.

One of my long time favorites. And a sentiment I could/can relate to. Thanks for sharing.

I saw that same thing during a car trip on Saturday.

I have segued into youtube P.D.Q Bach

At home, I go into my bedroom and scream as loud as I can into a pillow. So far no one in my family has ever heard me do this so I guess a pillow muffles it pretty good. Cuz I scream loud.

If I get stupid-angry at work for no good reason, I have a mini-sandtray on my desk with some little rocks in it, I hold one of the rocks closed in my hand and picture putting my anger into the rock, then put it back in the sandtray and cover it with sand. Sounds silly but you know what, it works sometimes!!

Yes, I'm really looking forward to finally seeing the psychologists again, though I'm quite worried about what's going to happen when the assessment is over (which should be pretty soon). Not sure what kind of help I'll get and if I'm going to be seeing these therapists or if I'll get a new one. Anyway, the summer research programme was quite okay, thanks. I found it hard pretty much all the time due to social issues and anxiety but I learned a lot and it was nice spending so much time in the lab.

How's your summer been? You enjoying your time in the UK/Ireland? I used to live in England (lived there for two years). I miss it sometimes.

I am so fed up. I need to do something. I need to make changes.

Just had a meeting with the Boss after her loooong holidays. At the beginning she asked: first name, are you happy? (which in her case is a rhetorical question like: how are you? And you're supposed to say: good, thank you, and you?). Thus, I responded with a smile: "as always" and the Boss: "great!" so I didn't lie, right? The Boss just has no idea that I am as always unhappy

Go for it! You mentioned before about your friends being frustrated about you not making changes. I would bet if you really start making the changes, your friends will be incredibly supportive.

Dentist appointment tomorrow hopefully I will sleep OK

Wow you remembered that post! Thank you.

so what changes do you want to work on A3

Why so serious?

I am such a worthless waste of space. I will go to T next week and tell him that I'm not even going to try any longer.

I read an article in Nature about programmable metal using DNA as a template and that night had a nightmare about nanobots being used to alter the DNA of everything.