'85: "We Are The (Couch) World..."

my bff posted something like that to me the other day

It fits with my other favorite mantra:

Not my circus; not my monkeys!

Personally, I would try it anyways. Set aside the anxiety about closeness and give it a go.

I recently did an exercise with my T in which I had to close my eyes for an extended period of time (20 minutes). I did manage to close my eyes and keep them shut. It was hard, but I'm glad I did it.

the monkeys are running amuck and my mind wants to scream . I am reactive and I need to gain control.

AAAAAAAACCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!

Okay, I feel better.

i need to care about myself enough not to become that person i hate

I adore driving but I know how hard it is for some people.

i find driving for the most part relaxing and i enjoy it a lot . unless i need to get some place and i am late (can you say road rage on steroids)

I am often late except to court or to teach.
Driving as activity I do find relaxing and fun. I would like to drive a race car some day.

In certain Native American tribes, there is a way of stopping inappropriate conduct by others by simply turning their backs and absolutely ignoring the person behaving improperly. I am adopting that as my interaction method on here. Not only is it not my monkey, I refuse to give that monkey even a dribble of the attention it is so desperately seeking. I really think giving it any attention right now is just adding fuel to the fire.

Yes, that is an idea I also employ sometimes. Not necessarily here always, but with some in my real life. Here I do try to refrain from engaging with what I find annoying. But there is sometimes an urge, like for me when I find myself watching tv evangelists or fox news, that makes some of the engagement fun even where I completely disagree.

I am not sure why more people don't so that MKAC..

omg i am trying

I would guess because different things upset different people. I can disagree with some people but not get all worked up about whatever their deal is. So engaging with them has no emotional pull on me. Others make me want to reach through the computer and bash them into cement (I do not recommend actually trying to do this - just describing the feeling - and I used the word feeling in a sentence - yea me) - we just don't all have the same response to the same exhibition or description of issues.

When it gets super challenging for me, I usually put the person on my block list and try to exercise the self discipline required to not read their threads when offline.

i have T on Tuesday and i don't know if i should tell her about the mess i caused these last two weeks and how i blew a huge part of my life up. i am humiliated and ashamed of it. don't know how to tell her . i bet ill show up and not say a word and be happy with that

That ballgame is still not over with - I thought it would be by now.

almost stop at 10

Nope, and I still have a house of people. I'd love to go to bed and read for a bit. I probably can. They aren't really my guests; they are guests of my sons. Not too long left though.

"Apart. I'm trying to make a new life without you in it."

Instead of typing "LIAR!", type, "Are you absolutely certain that's what really happened?"

No one is born knowing how to drive.

The expert
at anything
was once
a beginner.

The game may be over for some but I still have 6 more seasons to go....

Pardon? You have to watch football for 6 more years or the superbowl 6 more times?

Damn my first cold of the season. I was hoping for zero. I sound like I'm holding my nose while talking, makes me sound terribly funny, glad you all aren't subjected to it!

Have a good night couchies see you tomorrow if I can breathe at work long enough to peek in.

Colds do suck. I hope it does not last long.