'85: "We Are The (Couch) World..."

i don't understand the smoke process.sorry

so i need to shorten my jeans .i have to say that i am only 4 ft 8in tall and for the most part i have loved being short but i hate having to shorten all my cloths. i would love to be able to buy something and just wear it . when i was a lot thinner i use to be able to buy kids size 16 and wear them but that isn't going to happen now lol

I was not trying to be mean about smoking - just sharing smoking info I found out. And it is good I found it out because I was fully going to just stuff some casings and throw them in the smoker with little regard to how stuffing dense meat into a non permeable casing and keeping a low temperature would create a perfect environment for food poisoning to take place. Good thing I read some books before going off and killing my friends accidentally.

I always have to roll up my jeans. I think denim is very hard to get a needle through to shorten. I can hem my own khakis, but denim I just roll.

In a few days, I will be on a plane going somewhere warm all by my lonesome.

My T thinks it will do me good. I think I'll feel okay while I'm gone. I think I might not return home... Not to this weather :P

Oh I am such an idiot. I am SUCH an idiot. I.am.such.an.IDIOT.

i truly is a perfect storm for food poisoning . when i was in school before my life exploded i took some sewing classes to learn how to sew because i know i was going to spend my life shortening things lol

i hope it is a fun relaxing trip and not work

this is probably not the truth . you ok?

I had a good productive T session and I think he was feeling really pleased with me, and then he asked me something and I lied without thinking, and now I texted him to say that I told him a lie (without specifying what it was) and now I feel that I screwed up, and he was feeling pleased with me and now he isn't any longer. Gah. I don't want him to think ill of me.

I can't make my toddler stop screaming. I need to be on that plane RIGHT NOW O.O

I hope you'll have a good trip, NowhereUSA. I do love travelling alone.

Thanks Mast.

It's a mental health trip. A friend invited me and my husband was like, "Well, it's cheaper than the hospital" (I've been feeling really bad). So off I go.

Yeah... I get this. Toddler screams by day... Baby screams at bed time. Oh the screaming. It's just a phase... It's just a phase... It's just a phase...

It's hard because toddlers are like extremes. There are these moments of effusive adorableness like when he did a touchdown dance (he didn't understand why we were whooping and shouting and excited, but man he wanted to be in on it).

Then there the holy terror moments.

Exactly. My toddler is content and the cutest thing one minute... The next she is screaming in such a high pitch that only dogs could hear her. lol. She has recently started throwing herself on the floor to have a fit now too. Sigh.

My oldest would throw a silent fit. He'd go limp on the floor and just lay there. It was hilarious because it meant he stopped whatever it was I wanted and he wasn't being noisy. Other times, it made it easy for me to pick him up and pop him in his crib.

This second one is a screamer though. I feel like I have to relearn parenting.

it is so hard to not say something if you feel that someone is just outright lying about there experiences . how is doing that helpful to yourself. i have no idea if someone is lying or not .just how would doing something that help them

Yes, I know. I just don't want to be sucked into that whole spiral of negativity. Maybe selfish of me, but I truly don't think I can make anything better. Makes me a bit mad on behalf of the people who trust the person, though.

lol! That sounds much easier.

I'm still learning lol my toddler is my oldest.

I just avoid it. I'd likely say the wrong thing anyways.

I don't think one ever really learns given the different dispositions and personalities. What works with one, fails with the other.

i need a voice of reason so bad i am reactive so badly these days i have no filter and say things i don't want to become who i don't want to .someone to help me feel empathy

(((granite)))
Sometimes it is best - at least for me - to just stay away, not read the threads, because it's hard not to be reactive.

Thank you for asking about me before. You are a good friend.

omg mast i hope you didn't think it was you i was referring to .it was not at all. i did have a thought about your lie to your T . i have lied to my T by not saying things or when asked saying the wrong info because i was not ready to deal with it . i have told small lies and then told her i lied because i was scared or not ready .she accepts this. i bet your T would also .he is a good guy

I did not think you meant me, not at all!

And yes, my T is a good guy. That's why I want him to like me.