[jbug]

I am seeing Steve tomorrow after a break for about a week and half due to me having surgery and not being able to drive until yesterday. Well I have been in daily contact with him via voicemail. He's only in his office 2xs a week the rest of the time he's out in the field..he does therapy at people's houses too. Anyway I am very nervous about tomorrow. I have a lot to say and don't know if I'll be able to say it. Tonight I know I need to write it down so I don't forget it.

I am so scared that we won't be able to get everything in cuz I only see him for 30 minutes. He only does 30 minute sessions so he can fit everyone in. I see him twice a week though so I end up seeing him for an hour.

Does anyone else get scared right before seeing their T?

Jbug

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janniebug said:

Does anyone else get scared right before seeing their T?

Jbug

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Jannie, lately I have been opening up more and more to my-- so I've been feeling each week, as if it is the 1st session. I get butterflies in my stomach. Sometimes I feel nauseas. I become overwhelmed at the amount of things I need to tell him. Above all, my attachment to him scares the hell out of me, so of course I get nervous before I see him. And each week, I become more vulnerable-- more walls come down. It seems that the more the relationship progresses, and the longer I see him, the more nervous I get.

It's a good idea that you are going to write things down. At at least you get to see him 2x per week. Just organize your thoughts, try to prioritize what you want to tell him most, and then just let things unfold from there! Good luck. It is totally normal to get nervous before a session.

[lauren_helene]

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Does anyone else get scared right before seeing their T?

Jbug

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Oh yes I do. I was shaking today I was so nervous. But it was because I need to be assertive about what I felt about T without being aggressive.

My sessions are 45 minutes. Whatever happened to the hour therapy used to be I wonder??

[sunrise]

Jannie, my sessions are 50 minutes. I don't get scared, although especially the 1st and 2nd times with this T, I was so nervous I thought I might toss my cookies in the waiting room. I do highly anticipate my sessions and get excited and revved up for them. Almost as if I were going on a date with someone I really like while I am still in the infatuation phase of the relationship.

I always have way too much I want to talk to T about. We could never get everything in that is on my list. I am getting better at knowing how much we can really cover in 50 minutes. I try to bring only 1 or 2 things to each session and not get too disappointed if we cover less than I had hoped.

Good luck! I have 2 topics for my session later today. I am hoping hoping hoping I can do them both.

[lauren_helene]

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I always have way too much I want to talk to T about. We could never get everything in that is on my list. I am getting better at knowing how much we can really cover in 50 minutes. I try to bring only 1 or 2 things to each session and not get too disappointed if we cover less than I had hoped.


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This is great advice from Sunrise. With 30 minutes you will really need to focus as much as possible. But, don't stress if you have not so good weeks, a quick search of posts on here will tell you that time doesn't matter. We all have good/bad sessions....

[purplemoon]

I always am a nervous wreck before going to see my T. Sometimes I have severe anxiety after I leave. That is if I told him something I deem personal. I must drive my T up a wall. I was writing him an email yesterday - I was so anxious - I was literally shaking. I don't know why I get like this. I do though.

[jbug]

Our session went ok yesterday. Last night I was feeling really bad about my eating habits and thought ok its time to work on my eating disorder. I called him and he just called me back. He said he can only help me with the underlying problems and that everytime he approaches it I fight him on it. I guess I'm still in denial that something is wrong with me. He told me he would get me some support groups I could go to but that he can only help me fix what's wrong when I want to work on it. I don't know how get over having something wrong with me. I am now really frustrated and am not doing well now but he told me that the battery on his cell phone was almost down so that he wouldn't be able to call me back right away again so I'm not going to call him.

Jbug

[(JD)]

(((buggie))) We all have something wrong with us. Try to consider it a challenge, that once you figure out you might be able to help others with it.

I sure understand the "fighting" the T on something. I couldn't figure out what he was meaning..and finally had to have my T explain in detail (my black and white thinking working) what I would say when he would say what...that was, in essence "fighting" him or resisting his efforts to help me. I would never have seen it on my own.

Good wishes!

PS I went on nutrisystem's new glycemic load emphasis diet... so far so good... though I am having some trouble with all that soy product But it comes to my door and limits my choices...a no brainer (just what I need!) Hope you find something that helps you as well... keep us informed ok?