what's wrong with me?

I am so confused. When i have a session with my T I feel so alone. I used to feel more of a sense of connection with him but now no matter how hard I try it seems i cannot. He says he cares about me and rationally i know him to be a very caring man so why then have I increasingly come to feel uncomfortable, shy/embarrassed in front of him (and sad)? Why can't I feel he cares? I told him this and asked him to help me restore the connection between us but he said "But what could i say that would work?" and i said I didn't know. He just feels so distant to me now but I know it must be in my head. He says I project stuff a lot.
I wish he would try to help me tear down this wall I feel is between us but I also feel he can't be bothered anymore. Is this my fault? It might be; I am not sure of anything.

Could there be any transference stuff going on? Does this feel like you have felt in some other time in your life?

Could it be that you are getting into deeper work now and the space beween you is a defense? (unconscious, of course)

It is so hard maintaining the connection from visit to visit. I think if you could articulate what it is you need from T, you may find the connection is gaining depth again. I know it's hard, but necessary.

Good luck, it sounds like you want to make this work, so I am sure you will find a way.

Also....if there is something wrong... why do you assume the problem is with you?

I have found that the deeper I delve into all the hard stuff, the greater the disconnection becomes. Its like a wall goes up. I have felt the same loneliness and disconnection this last few months and at times I have felt so distant I just feel like finishing with the whole process. Maybe its how most people feel when dealing with difficult stuff.....I dont know???