i broke down crying

i am going through some difficult problems in my life, especially my marriage. Long story and i don't feel safe having it on the internet. i don't harbour any ill will toward him at this point and an explanation would reflect badly on him for various reasons. It would kill him to know i would do that.

But recent developments have left me in tears over finances. i have little hope of making a good life for myself. i have some disability issues that meant i had to give up the career i am trained for.

My T has openly said he would never tell me what to do or to leave. Sometimes i see him as someone to cling to to help me move on, and other times i see him as a threat.

No wonder you broke down crying.

I am touched by the sensitivity you are showing to your husband even in the midst of your own hurt.

I understand the conflicting feelings toward your therapist, especially at such vulnerable times. Why do you particulary see him as a threat right now? I could imagine you might be struggling with a loss of trust in a lot of things.

I am so sorry for all of your pain.

Well I won't say that I feel sorry for your condition please forgive me for being little blunt but I'm really touched by the way have expressed your feelings for him. Thats something too great of you. Don't share anything on the internet share it with any close friend of yours or may be with your T ok if it is not helping than swtich to another T or may be try to find a friend in your ownself. I have been through so many hard times.. specially financially and in my relationships and by the grace of Almighty I broke most of the chains and I don't want to cry any more. If I can be of anyhelp than I would love to be there to help you out.

But just remember one thing which is my punch line for sometime

Destiny is not a matter of chance,
it is a matter of choice;
it is not a thing to be waited for,
it is a thing to be achieved.
and I have chosen Mine...that is......(make him your destiny)

and it is a very famous saying of confucious that "If you look down in your heart and you don't see anything bad than why to worry about and what to be afraid of?"

So just relax and take a deep breath sometimes you don't need a T.. you can help yourself may be this is the time...

Please Stand up...

A well Wisher.

Sending kind thoughts and gentle hugs your way during this very difficult time.

Take care,
Dee

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Are you saying this about your T (since it's in the same paragraph?) Would you like to elaborate?

Is there someone else you can go to for additional advise and support? (Of course, you have PC... and can PM those you wish to share with.)

(((hugs)))

((((((Gerber)))))))))))))

I am sorry you are hurting so much from everything. You are a sweetie, and it is hard to see you suffering so much, but I want to be your friend. Please have faith in your T , I think he is a good one for ya. Please don't ever give up.

HF

HF, we know each other, do we not? Chatting elsewhere... we had a band and i was supposed to sing? forgive me if i have this wrong.

Yes! We have a band! You will be singing behind a shadow screen. I thought I would just try this place out for awhile. :-) I just saw your screen name and picture, and I knew it had to be you! :-) I have missed you in chat lately.

((((((((((((gerber)))))))))))))))))))

let's start a new thread then? here, and about psych somehow, or in social or something?

i am finding the people nice here. i miss everyone but "policies" are beyond reason. i am so sorry i missed you in chat a few times.. i'd log in an wait forever but i'd eventually do something else.

did you read my thread about my T? i was in such a panic, not doing well at all. But he finally called back.... it was the best i could have hoped for. i think he and i are going to have a really good working relationship, if i can stop screwing it up.