Couch 117: Come On In and Set-tee A While

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Getting ready for work. Laid back down in the warm bed because I was cold after my shower.... Not the best idea I've ever had, but the best idea I have ever had. Problem is... Now I just want to stay here. Have half an hour til I need to leave. Somehow I have to do my hair, figure out what to wear, maybe pack a lunch (usually just stare at it so doesn't matter if I do or not), change purse to match outfit, and then leave. Great now I only have 23 mins.

Mornings are the worst. I always putter around and waste time and then have to frantically fly out the door.

morning today i am meeting with my T who isnt feeling well. i was not doing well yesterday and im sorry for the posts .im a bit better today . i finely took my xanax and went to sleep . im not expecting much help with that today . im kind of scared that it is my last session seeing her in this office . i do have some problems with change but i dont think this is a bad one and im really trying not to focus on the worse case scenario

Ugh my therapist screwed up. He really hurt my feelings and made me feel like he doesn't know me at all. Talk about a reality check. We didn't manage to resolve it by the end of the session so I left feeling like shyte. First time I have ever actually cried in over two years of therapy.

That would be my answer too except I don't know what translingual means!

so my T just called again and said she is still under the weather and isnt going into work today so will see me at her new address on july 14 . i guess i can wait .it wasnt like i was able to talk about anything . im kind of relieved .i didnt want to go in and talk about transitioning anyway . maybe now things can get back to normal and ill hve someone to talk to again to help me deal with all this anxiety instead of causing it .

Me too. I read that's adhd. I call it star trek syndrome. I think I can just beam up to wherever I gotta go.

Sorry to hear that.

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I hope you are okay. Please try to take care of yourself. Sending good vibes.

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I like silence, too... my h on the other hand needs to have constant noise... therefore if he is home and anywhere but in bed asleep, the tv is on. Including when he falls asleep in his recliner. If I come out and turn the tv off, he wakes up! lol I've learned over the years to just block it out, but sometimes I can't so then I go out in my backyard, or close myself in my bedroom and turn on a box fan to block out the tv noise. I very much also need my alone time, and h has somewhat adjusted to that as well. I work in a crowded office and talk to people on the phones all day long, so yeah I need my quiet alone time!

So nervous...

What's up?

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Just finished with the paramedics. Had to call them for an employee. Exhausting pretending I'm okay in front of them, but he needed the help - I can deal.

Translingual = across languages

Answer = skene is the Greek word for stage, we get the English scene from it. So you'd be showing a scene on the skene.

Not totally sure it's a pun. Certainly it's not a good one.

I knew it was gonna be greek!

the puppy has a lot to say today,but i don't understand any of it leading to frustraion on hi part and more barking.. i also got a warning about an academic progress warning. i haven't enrolled in the disability support program as i don't see that they can do anything really about lack of motivation etc. I might email them today to see. Stupid feelings of must be independent at al costs.

BY - they might not be able to do anything about lack of motivation, but if you were to qualify for extra time on assignments/exams or tests in a quiet room, would that help? That seems to be the majority of the aid offered over here.

The extra time on assignments may be beneficial. I have applied for a semester off, apparently with my uni you can have up tp 2 years leave. I am emailing them today.

Don't have to worry about the people downstairs and mr creepy as in my search for alt accomodation I see their unit is listed again. Relief for a little bit. Though my eldest D has neer really liked my place as it's a bit on the hot side and she doesn't find lots of doors a safety feature. I am looking for something with her in mind but it is great that I don't have that pressure anymore.

It's a sex technique.

Hi couch..started summer hours at work this week. It's been nice to sleep in, and clean. However, being home all day is fueling my depression. Still waiting for my meds to start working. So, I stay caught up on the couch, but i don't have much to contribute these days.

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Can't be - do you think unaluna wouldn't have known that?

I understand. I get depressed between semesters. It is the biggest reason I teach a summer school class.

session went okay..i am not really sure how to feel about it.

after i told him things didnt happen the way he think they did...he at first said..please dont question me...(ouch).
when i continued to stand my ground and tell him this is exactly the way things happened between us...he said numerous times he felt accused, criticized, attacked and was getting frustrated as i wouldnt accept his answers.(they were not making sense to me)

about being late for 3 sessions..he said sessions can run long as important things are being discussed...i am making conclusions when i dont have all the info of what is happening while i sit in the waiting area...so i should give him benefit of doubt.

later he said he does some intensive kind of therapy where lots of stuff has to cramped in such a short time..so it gets long at times...i told him fine..doesnt matter..i have changed the appt time....

we just agreed to disagree...

i am not really sure how u r supposed to discuss differences when other person keeps on saying they are feeling criticized when i express my point of view and stick to it ?

he was just adamant...that he wouldnt do such a thing..when i know very well he did.

i had gone to the appt. thinking it could turn ugly . this could be my last session. it didnt turn out that way. it was okay. i made sure he heard how i felt and how i saw things. he didnt agree with me though.