Dear Client

Like dam we all been waiting patiently.

Please stay safe, jDNA...

I will come back. But I wish I didn't have to!

I'm so glad you're on vacation. I hate seeing you.
You quitted your meds again, what can I do? You have to take them. You're psychotic, you know?

I'm tired of you. Take your meds or never come back. Oh, I mean take your meds AND never come back

Dear S,

Thank you for emailing just now to tell me you that you loved me ((whilst you know I'm away!!!))

I know this break isn't easy for you, but I do like you.

Though I've lost count of the number of times you've mentioned Orwell, Neruda or another random author and book I haven't heard of.

Art, thank you for coming yesterday. You did good work, too, even though you were nervous about coming.

Why are you so upset? You didn't lead me to believe this is a big deal to you.

Dear LT,
I can't believe you did that. No, I can believe it. It's OK, but it's still kinda weird to me, to think of you watching me online. But I mean it when I said it's OK. I'm really not upset. I get that you want to know more about me, and if I'm not telling you stuff, you'll find other ways. Considering other things you could have done...this isn't so bad. Maybe slightly creepy, but...again, not so bad.

I don't think until now I fully understood how scared you are of abandonment. I should have figured it out with MC, but it's not the same as watching it play out before my eyes. I'm sorry you're so scared. I'm not going anywhere--I mean, if you literally show up in the bushes outside my house, we need to have a serious conversation. But assuming you don't do that...

Also, you're totally e-mailing me tonight, aren't you? You seemed to mostly believe me when I said "all is well" as you left, but don't know that you'll be able to hold onto that. It's OK though--e-mail away.
T

Your initials should stand for fat ****, not fille folle.

You again? OMG, go away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You're fake, you're phony, you're not real. I am writing to someone who is not real. I need to see a therapist. Stop parading around and whining as if you have a legitimate complaint. THere is no you, which leads one to believe that if there's no you, there's no complaint or anything else. Your dependency on others in your life disgusts me so much that I want to never think about it again. You allowed yourself to be in a codependent relationship, and now your shame is too much to bear. This is your fault. The other side was the do'er and you were the do nothing'er. Maybe you can be an ostrich and bury your head in the sand forever. That is my suggestion. You are a big disappointment to your family and everyone else in your life. I am shocked that this is you. . .


The above is how I am feeling and what I am (or am not ) deserving.

Hush now. Don't wonder what psychotherapy IS anymore. Don't be meta, don't go on that forum, don't read textbooks and listen to podcasts trying to understand what cannot be understood by you without my higher degrees. I am the authority here, and I make the space safe for you. You only need one psychologist and it is me, trust me, tell me. Only me.

What was so funny yesterday?

Lol not surprised to see you relapsing in so many different areas of your life, you're a f**king mess

Lil,
I told you to email if necessary. Why arent' you emailing?

Please S,

I've only just come back and there's already another email in my inbox from you asking if you could have a morning slot for tomorrow, but I don't actually want to ruin my morning and I feel so trapped. Your cutting thing isn't even serious but just to get my attention. I seriously wish I didn't take you on.

You're like an old song. I've been with you for close to 14 months now and you really do just repeat the same things over and over again. You cry about feeling overwhelmed with exams- I've been with you for three "seasons" and you're still the same! It's tiring.

I don't want to hear about your problems unless it's session time. Why are you emailing me again?

Trail.

I truly don’t think that you are a screwed up hot mess. Truly!

You are NOT losing your mind. You are putting it back together.

Trust me.

M.

Except for luna, shes a genius.

In acting class, they say, "leap, and the net will appear." But ya hafta leap first.

Dear LT,
I'm happy for you, but that news could have waited till Thursday, you know. Maybe MC is right that you're just looking for connection...Maybe I need to revisit my "always send some sort of response to your e-mails" policy that you like so much to avoid encouraging you. I have a life!
--Dr. T

ETA: Oh, OK, I'll e-mail you anyway.

I would be seeing you tomorrow, but luckily you're on vacation

You can stop coming to treatment anytime now. I have a waiting list of clients that I would rather see than you. I feel no connection to you and can barely stand you.

Yes I really stare at that clock and try to will our 50 minutes to go by quicker. And yes I only give you 50 minutes even though I always give the client before you more than an hour and am always late for you. Can't you get the hint?

You are so right, you are unlovable and really unlikable. Please give up.

:

God, Geeky. Stop trying to understand and just do it. Change your thought pattern already. You're clearly not trying because it is easy.

?????????

Chill. It will be fine. I'm looking forward to seeing you! Stop wigging out.

I'm not thinking about you right now, but of course you're thinking of me. I do care. And I'm sorry it's so hard for you to need me so much.