Dear Client

I can't believe there's is only one week left before I see you. Stay away longer please?

I wouldn't actually post this because I've already forgotten about your existence. Who are you?

Don't wonder who I am, if I judge you or care about you. I live in my office or in your imagination. Actually, I would like to be all things to you, in the grass in the sunshine, in the river I teach you to mediate next to, seeing yourself as the peaceful middle and your feelings as the white water ruffling the top. If you ask me, I will deny it, but when you are late I hover near the doorway, listening for you. Did I offend, miss something, hurt your feelings, go too far with my removal from you? I pretend I take you for granted and that I am impervious to the whims of you my patients, but in truth I too need you. I need you to see me as changing your life. When the hour comes but you do not, I search my phone for messages. We are not as different as I thought.

Hi Art.

I'm looking forward to seeing you later today, too. Feels like it's been longer than 2 weeks to me just like last time. Don't feel the need to say "it's only been 2 weeks" again, btw. 'k? 'k.

T

What I hope he'd think/say:
LT,
I had no idea that loaning you a random stone from my office could mean so much to you. But I'm glad it does. Seriously, keep it as long as you want. Yeah, it was a little weird to hear you talk about holding it until it got warm--seriously, you didn't realize that stones do that???--because that suggests you're holding it for a long time. But it's OK. I want you to feel safe and secure. It doesn't matter if I feel a bit puzzled about what makes you feel that way. If a rock does it, OK!

I hope you realize that I've come to really care about you. I really do want you to struggle less with all the thoughts in your head. I want you to find peace and happiness, whatever that looks like to you. I hope I can help you find that...even if I have to give you more stuff from my office!
Take care,
--Dr. T

QM, yes I'm dang happy to see S because she's much better than you, and you're a lot of work. You're so needy, unlike her. She's wonderful and I miss her between sessions but not you because you're a pain.

Out with it. Tell me what you've been needing to tell me. You think I don't know? It's obvious. Stop being a coward. How can you expect to get better if you can't even open your mouth? You're your own poison.

Please stop emailing me. You're so pathetic it's incredible. FFs I was only 4 mins late and you went all psycho on me and you wonder why I said I had been naive in thinking you are a risk to me. I wish I never answered your very first email.

Hey, Lost.

I meant what I said yesterday. I can hear your stuff without taking it on as my own, without feeling the pain that you feel. I want to understand, and I want to help. Let me in?

See you soon,

R

You're disgusting, I'm tired of you.
Now bye, I'm going to have fun with my close ones, to hug them and to love them. Live with it. Yes, they are lucky, because I'm cool.

How could you think I loved you? Lol

No one would EVER love you or anything.

Are you even still a client?
Haven't seen you in 3 months, your risking your paperwork by not turning up you know....But we both know I will sign off on you anyway. *sigh*
Try and make it sometime in the next 6 months will you?

Dear Butterfly,

Please stay out of trouble.

-Art t

I do love you.

I'm sick of you and I'm glad you are backing away

Sometimes I hate working with you, you are like a wart on my side!

Art, go ahead and ask. I'll answer honestly. Don't you know that by now? -t

These things you are crying over happened a long time ago and can't hurt you anymore.

Hi Lost,

Keep being brave...but show a little skin, OK?

Well done,

R

x

Dear LT,
Transitional object! Sorry, just messing with you. What was that band you were into, the Julyballs? Or whatever. Anyway, thanks for sharing about them and the other music stuff, I think I understand you more now. Even if I don't personally understand how you feel about music, I understand having a passion for something that makes you feel alive. I wondered if you lacked that, but now I know that you don't. Maybe we just need to nurture that part of you a bit more. So, take those voice lessons! Be damned what other people think!

--T

I'm just tired of talking about the relationship. I wish you would stop trying to talk about it all the time. I am much more comfortable talking about your childhood.

"Please don't email again" - "Feel free to email if something comes up anyway"



(Seriously though pdoc... I saw how much you charge for emails, I won't use that way of communication ever again...)

Art, well of course, I am. A little slow on the uptake there, eh?
Love,
T

When I call you confrontational, I really mean dislikeable. I don't like you. And you should pay my full fee if you can afford expensive shoes, don't think I haven't noticed them.

Dear LT,
Why did I decide to come in on Memorial Day? And then to deal with you and your neediness? Ugh... I could have just spent tomorrow lounging in my backyard, what was I thinking?!? Well, I guess I am getting paid, so...

T

Why did you rearrange all the furniture in my work colleagues office after our last appointment.
He couldn't find anything.

It's not funny.

Dear weaver,
Please do not mention my fart this week. I am so embarrassed.
Also, I got your text and I appreciate your honesty but I feel differently. Let’s talk this week!
T