Couch 127: The Wayward Couch

SD, I'm sorry to hear about you losing one of your pets.

There is no truth to the rumor that i was the cause of the aunt invasion at a michigan Tim Horton's donut shop.

So I had a really good session with t today. We talked about the email I sent her last week, and she was very accepting of it of course, I don't know why I was worried that she might not be, she always is... and yeah, it was a good conversation. Not as hard as I thought it was going to be. I realized how almost surreal it was, you know, sitting there talking about this very private and uncomfortable feeling with her looking right at me and not shaming me or ridiculing me or otherwise disapproving. Funny thing is, we have "the relationship talk" all the freaking time, it's one of those topics I regularly circle back to, but for some reason this time I went for broke and just admitted the wish. It goes deeper than "just" the "I love you", I told her that for the first time a long time ago, during that first year. I also apologized for having to continually talk about the relationship and she said something like "Stop that, no apologies in here".

I told her that I had wanted to text her on Sunday just to say "Merry Christmas" and she said I could have, that she would have responded with the same, but I said well the good little girl is still in here or something that I could not let myself bother her on a holiday.

I'm kinda mad at myself though. I told her last week I would be taking January off because of the overtime at work. And I even told her my rather brutal schedule for next month this evening, but I still ended up scheduling for 1/7. She said that she didn't want us to lose the feeling, or something, if I took a month off. Well, I didn't insist on not scheduling, because of course I don't really WANT to take the month off I just think I'm going to be awfully tired - so I went ahead and scheduled for 1/7 and she said it's ok if I cancel just don't wait til the last minute. Which I wouldn't do anyway. Yeah I'm mad at myself, but I'm also rather relieved that I won't have to get through the whole stupid month w/out her.

Ah, therapy. Sorry for the wall o' text. this is probably repeating stuff I put in the dear t thread. oh well. stuff happens.

Sorry LT. ((( hug))).

If you go back a couple of days, I hope you will see I truly feel the place. I'm sorry you are there. It's great that y'all are seeing the MC. My husband would freak out about that.

I hope at your next meeting with your counselor y'all can sort through it. That is hopeful!

I hope the upcoming holiday is good for y'all!!

Surely your therapist can give you an alibi?

Oh wait, no - you put him to sleep!

(((LT)))

(((Trail)))

My h absolutely refuses to even consider thinking about going to MC.

Should have brought him donuts!!

Hugs to all who want.

I'll bring unaluna's t cookies to go with the doughnuts, then he/she will really be awake on a sugar high.

And I'll chip in with a Chai Tea Latte! I love those things.

O. M. G.

I just got it. I totally just got it. Holy flipping moses.

The wanting to mean as much to t as she does to me? That's not about t at all. And it's not about current me, either.

It's little me, wanting to be important to my mother!!!



eta: see artie intensely typing email to t explaining said realization!

I just ordered a crate of dirty chai, ie chai tea bags with espresso. Best of both worlds!

I think you just solved the rainbow clooney affair!

Somethin'!!

I am now convinced that this is why current T has invested in Sodastream (it tastes so awful that it's gotta keep you awake).

Oh, I heard someone order that in Starbucks the other day and was puzzled. It makes sense now!

Yeah who named it? Its really weird!!

I keep seeing the "trending" things on the side of Facebook, and anytime it's a celebrity, I'm like "Oh no, did they die, too?" Most recent concerns were Betty White (I think the story you mentioned) and Elton John (for the kind words he said about George Michael).

I saw Elton John in concert many years ago when I still lived in Missouri, with h before we got married. It was an incredible show.

I saw elton john, and i think billy joel opened for him, many many many years ago at a college auditorium. A gf had an extra ticket is what i think happened. So around 1971?

Many many years later, i worked with a guy who happened to be at the same concert. Ripleys believe it or not should do a show on me, i swear.

I wish i remembered more about the show. I waz a little shocked by John.

Wish I'd seen Billy Joel back in the day. I used to really love his stuff. I did see Cheap Trick in like 1982 or something? And oh yeah I saw Air Supply at 6 Flags in like 1980. I didn't go to many concerts when I was young.

He'd already tamed down by the time I saw him! I am not sure I even knew who he was in 1971 (I was only 9 at the time)

Stopdog I am sorry that I missed your post about losing a pet.

Not sure if this is relevant. My first real concert was Bryan Adams in 1983. Oh my!!

)) SD ((

You weren't there maybe, but I think we all know who was the brain behind it.