Couch 127: The Wayward Couch

Wow! Lake effect in Texas that is crazy! We are measuring it in feet here, but we are used to it.

I'm sure we are just measuring it in millimeters but everyone seems to lose thier sheet here.

We have 'a possibility' for 'snow showers' tomorrow. Traffic is already crazy and all the stores I passed on the way home were packed. I'm not kidding when I say snow literally shuts us down. Last weekend it was in the 70's, it was 46 when I drove home, and that was plenty cold enough for me.

Yup, snow shuts us down here, too. If we get as much snow as they are calling for, I am probably stuck here until Tuesday, esp. w/my rear-wheel drive car. I really hate snow.

I am coping by binge-watching all of the Indiana Jones movies. Because Harrison Ford is hot.

What is Lake effect???

I hate snow too which is why i live in southern AZ

Isn't it pretty straightforward? To you she's become part of your natural family (notice your husband isn't there). You're not totally comfortable with that because you're hiding. You're also cleansing yourself of something with the shower, but what?

(Hey, I never said I was any good at this...)

Hmm... I don't think she'll hear this one in case you're right! I hadn't really thought much about it yet... Hmm....

Is it possible to fill a bean bag with just one person or will I end up with a bathtub full of polystyrofom beans?

I have only ever purchased them prestuffed.

I had a weird dream. I was at someone house, like an ex employer type person and I went to take a shower but there was something wrong with shower head and I went to tell them when I returned the shower head had turned into a huge elbow pipe I couldn't get my arms around it. There was a small trickle which I knew would get worse and spent the rest of the dream waiting for the deluge. Then at the endow the dream it was like we were at fishery and spent time talking about different fish. Weird. The deluge eventually came and I was desperately holding onto the pipe hoping my body would ease the flow.

You don't get pre stuffed bean bags here. I wish you could.

Phew...for a moment there I thought BCM might be hiding a body in a bean bag and putting the beans in the bathtub.

(It's Friday night...I'm a little hyper and can't concentrate.)

That's a really good point, @@. Following that line of thinking, Art, is your therapist is too close for comfort or too close to something you don't want to deal with? You can't be bothered, gotta wash your hair, or wash your therapist right out of your hair.

Whether it's that, something else, or an anxiety dream, you can still take a break and figure it all out.

Sorry about my grammar. I am stressed as I have my t session in over a month on mondayand I always feel very nervous, I fear that maybe he has changed, physically and personality wise. It always takes me a few sessions to settle in. I don't know I want to believe that he will turn up but fear he won't be there. I have been doing this for 6 years you think I would have faith in him by now

Lol hiding s body was my first thought too. Glad you said it first!

Physically feeling bad and emotionally stressed. Stupid thyroid medication. Stupid thyroidectomy. I had massively bad side effects to levothyroxine after my total thyroidectomy last March. Now on Armour thyroid and I'm still not adjusted on it. I can't tell if the symptoms I'm having are from not having enough thyroid hormone in my body or if I'm having side effects from second thyroid replacement hormone. I feel bad, I can't think, I'm anxious, no energy, blah blah blah.

I think I'm going crazy. I have so much to get done but i feel exhausted. Endocrinologist mentioned maybe I'm having issues with my parathyroid, too. Auuugh!

Therapy tomorrow. How can T know whether these are mental health issues or medical issues? She can help me organize the steps I need to take to get certain things done....but it's still up to me to do them....my mind knows I need to do them but my body is screaming...noooooo!

I say the unsavory stuff so you don't have to.

Here's my view from my favorite place. Yes! That's snow/ice. It doesn't happen here very often. It's actually going to be in the 70s by the end of next week.

Sorry BCM. I hope you settle in soon. I tease affectionately because my grammar and punctuation are lazy at best

I am not physically locked in. I just cannot leave and have to sit all day waiting.

Home from a long week. Get to work CVS both weekend days this week as well. Then return to school job on Monday. I am thinking about taking in my chromebook and surfing the internet (on wifi) all day. Though, there is only so much of that that can be done before it becomes boring. At least I wouldn't be staring at walls and boxes and weird things made of wood (painted bright neon yellow). Or maybe teachers will actually send me kids this semester.

For anyone who read my upsetedness at my friend's boyfriend who got very upset at me yesterday and said not so nice things to me. I spent the day an anxious, cry-ey mess.

I left it with him saying I was truly sorry, never meant to hurt him intentionally, and will give him space to cool down.

Today he responded (verbatim): "Yeah. Sorry I over reacted yesterday. Sometimes your behavior really pisses me off though. I'm tired of it. It builds frustration in me. That's all I have to say really.

I pondered on what to say. It didn't feel like a true apology, and that he still has dismissed me from his life, which will be hard as me and his girlfriend are good friends. I responded that I understand am am sorry, but I wasn't aware he was that upset. I said that I could only change my actions in the future, but if he wanted to meet up in person to talk, let me know.

Haven't heard back from him.

I still feel shitey, but also, I am really angry. My T said that I am doing the right things (even though I want to go screaming in the other direction), and that he overreacted emotionally and verbally, so she is proud of me...but I do not want to upset people that I care about.

A part of me really wants just to be like "eff you, R"...but I can't partially because he is my good friend's boyfriend, and partially because I don't like being a d!ck to people. I just don't know what else I can say.

The scratching... I did this recently to my right hand but it was halfway mindless anxious scratching. I have a fear that Kashi might comment omit tomorrow.

This guy sounds like a real jerk. So there is no way you can avoid him altogether? If your friend glued to the hip with him? Maybe you aren't the only friend of hers who clashes with this guy.

You may have apologized way too much. If he can't accept the first apology he doesn't deserve a second or third. Eff him is right.