Couch 127: The Wayward Couch

You guys are scary good and giving me a lot to ponder!! I am definitely still taking a break after tomorrow whatever it's about.

On that note I'm wiped after a long week of lots of hours, I'm heading to bed, sending hugs to all who want them, night couchies!!

You get more snow if you are just east of a lake, if the wind and weather is coming from the west. Like the western side of the state of michigan, or the city of buffalo, ny.

Im surprised to hear its happening in texas!

Has anyone heard about or done regression type therapy? I'm involved in a lawsuit, and my lawyer thought it might be something to try, I mentioned that they said that to my T and she said no way. She said it's not recommended at all, and no no no! Am I weird for liking her reaction? I kinda felt like she was protecting me.

The only types of regression therapy I've heard of are dangerous and outdated.

so i have 3 managers at my store. one is the store director, the main manager. he is the one i wrote about before. the assistant store director is a woman, we get along ok. then the customer service manager is next. i get a long with him really well. we are similar in age, and humor style.

the store paid for a hotel for the customer service manager for last night because it was snowing and he lives over an hour away up a mountain. i told him that i am going to leave at 8pm (the main manager said it was ok). i was supposed to stay til 11pm, but no thanks. i have to drive up the same mountain road, just not as far.

the customer service manager said something like why dont you just stay in the hotel im in? i thought he meant in a different room, i said i cant afford that. he said you can sleep on the couch in the same room (meaning his room)

i didnt feel like he was coming on to me, but it did kinda shock me that he suggested i sleep in a hotel room that he is staying in. of course i said no thank you!! do you guys think this is a come on or just a nice gesture? i admit i am not the best at deciphering these things

I have horrible radar for this sort of thing and would probably tell myself it was innocent, only to end up in a bad situation later. I'm learning to err on the side of caution these days, just to be safe, until I am able to spot red flags. So that's what I might suggest for you.

I would see it as no big deal. But I am a lesbian and don't really think about men in terms of sex.

yeah i am the same way. it's very black or white with me. either they are just trying to be nice, or they are a total creep and i need to get the F away from them

Here is my kitty

So pretty!

Thanks, that's what my T said too.

Your cat is gorgeous, junkDNA!

That is one of my flame point's favorite toys, btw. He loves hitting the ball as hard and as fast as possible until he knocks it out of the track...then I put it back...wash, rinse, repeat.

I tend to assume people are trying to be nice, but I also work hard at avoiding situations where things could turn out ugly if I turn out to be wrong. That's worked well for me so far, and has enabled me to keep my perception that most people are nice, without having it tested frequently.

D was eating breakfast, which involved pancakes, butter and honey. The resurrection kitty was sitting on the table next to her, licking the butter. I heard D tell him not to lick the butter. I looked over a few minutes later and kitty is still licking the butter. I looked at D and she shrugged and said, "I told him not to." I guess all the animals in the house are getting some butter today rather than have it all go to waste.

It snowed, it melted on contact, and it looked really pretty. Most people near me are probably really glad they bought out the grocery stores and I'm watching Disney movies with my girls. Fun times!

Is resurrection kitty doing better then?

Pretty! Not sure I've seen a long-haired orange one before. You can definitely see some attitude in the eyes!

He is still having some issues, but is starting to be able to jump up on stuff -- table China cabinet, H's computer. Lol. So, while certain physical issues continue, he is finally starting to act like a kitten.

ETA: he is getting more difficult to medicate also so hopefully this latest medication will work.

Yah, he's my little crazy baby

Junk your kitty is beautiful!!

Hey couchies! Saw t this morning, it was a really good session (gosh I say that a lot). i walked her through my progression of feelings from shocked through numb over the comment she made last time (the "we're not equals" comment) and we talked about all of it, and how I thought that the whole progression kinda sorta resembled the stages of grief, but instead of it being a person that died, something else did,and I said that I hope it was my stupid fantasies re: our relationship, she said they're all normal, they're all a part of the process, then something about my having pulled back more projections or something. and she talked about how this is probably the most unique relationship i'll ever experience and i said well i hope so because it's so convoluted and she talked about transference and countertransference (the first time in 5+ years that she has ever spoken those words!)

and she talked some about what she has learned in her graduate and post-graduate studies about the therapeutic framework and about boundaries and keeping your boundaries and keeping it professional but still the work being so deep and personal and stuff and I've already forgotten some of what she said. But it was obvious that she really doesn't think that she is somehow "above" me even though that was initially how I perceived her comment and I told her that I knew that, eventually, it just took me a few days of being angry before I actually got to the point of realizing that she didn't mean it the way I felt it.

I talked a little bit about how well work went this week, even though I worked a lot of hours it was mostly exhilarating, the challenge of quickly learning the new client's rather complex plan and handling the calls and getting to the point yesterday where I said out loud "Dang, I sound like I know what I'm talking about!" haha because I am really starting to get it. She said she had half expected me to drag myself in there dressed in rags or something haha I was like no - something is just different this January from previous Januarys, and in a flash of inspiration I realized it is ME that is so different this year because of all the work I've done on myself. When I said that she got the hugest grin on her face and it was so adorable.

She told me that she loves working with me because I am so dedicated to my process - I said "Yeah, that kinda happened somewhere along the way didn't it" and she said (I thought she was going to cry) "Do you know what a gift that is?!" We talked about scheduling and I said I didn't want to and then I noticed it was time to go and I said a bad word under my breath haha and sighed and then said "I am just too damn attached to you and I need to break that" and she talked a little about that too and said that when it is time to "break it" I will know because it won't feel like such a big deal. Or something like that.

As we were walking to the door she said "great session" and I agreed. And so I wanted to share. I know there's another thread for stuff like this but I like staying on the couch. I am so torn. Because I am so dedicated to this work, I believe in it because I can see evidence all along of how much it helps me, but at the same time I want a break. And she had a few thoughts on that too. I'm thinking that even though I want a break I will probably change my mind and text her towards the end of the month asking to come. Oh yeah I did end up telling her the dream. She didn't have much to say about it because she wants me to work with it some more and I said yeah, I want to do an Active Imagination with it and see if I can hear the conversation that I couldn't hear because I was in the shower in the dream.

Ok I have spammed the couch enough.

I am glad he is doing well enough to want to eat butter.
I have to admit that in my house we all would probably just eat the butter - maybe after scraping the licked part a bit and putting that part in the cat/dog bowls.
But maybe not even that. I have a cat that sometimes will lick bacon grease out of the jar I keep on the stove. I still cook with it. I figure the cooking will fix any problems it might could have.

So much for me being the couch cook now I suppose.

in my house we would scrape the licked part off and use the butter too lol

I love reading your posts. I think I see some of myself in them, not as far along as you are though!

I'm glad your session went well artemis