I've reached a new level of being alone :(

I'm going to whine...just a warning

I called T at 7:00am this morning because I really needed to talk to him. I didn't say why I needed to talk to him but he's never ignored me before.

Finally about 20 minutes ago I called the office and the manager told me he hasn't had a chance to call me back. He then asked if he could help which I was trying to avoid.

I don't want to announce my problems to the office manager. I like him a lot, he's great, it's just that it is hard enough for me to talk to T about this stuff let alone him.

So I gave him a synopsis, I really need to bring my husband to a session outside of my individual session. I already thought that he would be booked but that is why I wanted to talk to T directly. I was hoping he could help me because I really need his help, this isn't a social call.

I see T tomorrow so the option was to bring him then. Well, I want to talk to T alone about the last session with my mom.

Anyway, T is off thurs/fri. I forgot it is a holiday weekend. Unfortunately, I still get to feel out of control whether it is a holiday weekend or not.

I guess what bothers me is that he couldn't call me back for 5 minutes. I thought T was the only one I could count on, now what do I do?

He said one session that 'I have him and he is here for me'. I guess he meant once per week for 45 minutes. I don't call him constantly or bug him with anything.

Is a 5 minute phone call too much to ask? It's a good thing he isn't an ER doctor. I would have been dead hours ago.

I guess I could go home and talk to my cat...problem is she won't respond either

((((((almeda)))))))

Maybe you can tell your T how it felt when he didnt respond.. and you guys can talk about reasonable expectations for calls outside of therapy so you won't feel alone.

(((almedafan)))

I hope that the office manager can communicate the urgency of your message to your T and that he will call back quickly.

Even if your T cannot schedule the joint session before the holiday weekend, maybe at your individual session Wednesday he will have idea on how you can cope with the situation and your husband until you can get in together to see him.

Hang in there.

I'm sorry that there's a sort of urgency going on and you need him to call back and he can''t do it! That's rough. But, I wouldn't jump to the conclusion that he doesn't care, or is ignoring you call. I've talked to my T before where she's called at the very end of the day saying she didn't get much of a break anywhere, even during lunch people were constantly on the phone or others in the building would come in, etc. Have faith he will call back! I know it's hard, but give him the benefit of the doubt!

but you just have to feed the cat... a lot cheaper than therapy.

I'm so sorry you had a bad day. Sometimes T's can make us so mad!

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Anyway, T is off thurs/fri. I forgot it is a holiday weekend. Unfortunately, I still get to feel out of control whether it is a holiday weekend or not.

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Ahhh! I can so relate to this right now. Last session my T decided to try to get me to talk about my anger. This is an uncommon thing for me It brought up all these emotions and she didn't take time to calm everything down at the end of the session. On top of that she casually says she's on vacation this week, so here I am with tons of things stired up and I can't see her again for 2 weeks. I go back and forth between being angry at her and just wanting my next session to come so quickly.

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I guess he meant once per week for 45 minutes. I don't call him constantly or bug him with anything.

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Can't they just sit in there offices so that we can talk to them whenever we want....is that so much to ask???

By the way, my cats have been getting an earfull lately. They're probably wishing I'd shutup already.

I am really trying to not be angry. Last session, I felt so close to him because I felt like he protected me with my mom. No one has ever done that for me. I feel bad feeling this way about him now.

This wasn't just about an appt with my husband or a social call.

I am not going to beg or cry to get him to call me back though. I don't do that with anyone and that includes him. He knows this.

I feel like he does this on purpose with me. I'll bet he calls other clients back. I'll try never to fall apart ever again.

I don't think I'll bring this up tomorrow. Here is how it would go anyway:

Me: I'm upset that you didn't call me back yesterday
T: Well I was extremely busy and wasn't this about an appt?
Me: No it was more than that, I just didn't feel like falling apart with the office manager. He isn't my T.
T: You are making this about me. It isn't about me.
Me: I'm sorry, did I leave a message for someone else?
T: I want to foster a healthy dependence, isn't it so much better to feel the pain?
Me: Next time, I'll remember to jump.

Anyway, the point is there is no point in bringing this up. I should not have called and believe me, it will never ever happen again.

Hell will freeze over before I'll ask anyone for anything.