Couch 134 - The Untriquadium Couch

(((Artie))) ya know, there may be someone out there who would like your h exactly as he is, and he would like them, and they wouldnt be all woo-woo and going to shrinks and getting the right insurance and stuff. Why deprive him of this happiness?

It's 5 o'clock somewhere right?

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Barley, oatmeal - whats the diff?

immodium is kind of a weird medication. it does act on some opiod receptors...especially if you take a lot of it. (not talking from experience, just something i came across online)... i dont really know how it showed up on a UA for that person though. a lot of people abuse it to help ease the withdrawals from strong opiates

You've almost made it a full day, and that's great. It's good you know the withdrawal is short-lived. So better to just get through that now and keep going. Is there anything (other than more opiates) you can take that would help you with withdrawal? I imagine water would be good for the dehydration at the very least.

Why indeed! You're so awesome, una, thank you for making me laugh!!

Hugs! I read in an article that memories can fail to be encoded/formed if someone dissociates or uses cognitive distractions. I think that's partly why I and others don't remember much. Like I've incidents which siblings corroborated but no memory at all. Could be that you don't remember traumas which happened.

I think Pete Walker said he felt the most for his clients who experienced childhood emotional neglect because what they experienced got invalidated so much.

I will soon stop seeing that psychiatrist who laughed, he's good in other ways hence me staying, but I'm being discharged into community care for meds in a few months

My country isn't very progressive on mental health and trauma. People think family violence is just the family's business but the social services ministry is trying to raise awareness. People like to brag about how badly they got caned by irate parents and even books by local mental health professionals don't want to call excessive caning as abuse even when you're talking about wild uncontrolled hitting with canes.

Usually only stuff considered abuse are like repeated kicking, punching, burns...but my friends got laughed at by clinicians for those. Tends to be older clinicians. They say the younger ones are more progressive and those go green with horror so my friends say their trauma triggers therapists.

My T is really progressive maybe because she's young. My ex T didn't think herself getting wildly belted with injuries all over was bad though I'm sure she'd never treat her young child that way.

Such a varying mix.

You're doing great. Hugs jdna!

Once through it, it will be over. Like you said short lived. You got this!

You know what sucks? When I was doing well, it's like I woke up from. I was going along with life, coping, getting by. However, I was depressed and anxiety filled.

I began to change find who I am, and realized everybody is the same around me. Now, I am the poor deceived girl. Deceived by the world, my t, the devil himself. And it becomes too hard to be the changed me. It causes too much issues and pain for everybody else. It then becomes easier just to go back to my sleeping non changed life.

That's kinda what I'm struggling through... I'm a different person now and can't seem to get along w h anymore but i realized yest i have worked way to hard to just let it all go just to stay married... I've outgrown the little box he's comfortable having me in and i can't/won't go back. I realize that it is not me who is deceived - it is h and whoever else who are still 'asleep' who are deceived. Hugs to you, healed.

It's hard and it sucks but i am getting thru this!!

I feel like I need a cheerleading emoticon for the last page or so of posts. But there doesn't seem to be one, so: you go, ladies/girls/womyn/WOMEN.

I dunno, I'd rather stick up for myself and not take any ***** than the opposite. I guess I should thank future ex for teaching me that.

I am in a terrible mood because I aggravated my sprained thumb and the pain is dull but inescapable. I need to go find an ice pack especially designed for the hand.

Glad you're quitting this psychiatrist... What could can they do if they don't take us serious?
And you're right, I read that too. I think right now it's easier to believe that I'm just "too stupid" for functioning like a normal person and not dissociating all the time.

I agree with the others, you're doing great

Maybe try soaking a tovel (kitchen tovel? I don't know the word, sorry. The ones you need for drying plates) in ice water and then wrap it around your thumb?

(((Healed))) when i first joined pc, another member used to talk about wanting to slap people. I couldnt relate. Now i can. Its like, you look at the people around you and thats the only valid response for all the years of their bs towards you. Not sure if thats what you mean about how you feel, exactly, but... words are not enough, either, it seems.

Do you have a splint on it? Do you have to brush your teeth with the opposite hand? Should i send over the gosling?

I had a splint but they told me not to wear it for more than two days because I might lose range of motion in my hand. Fortunately I am right-handed (except in batting) but I still have to use my left thumb at times.

If you send over the gosling I might put him to other uses...

Eta: sharing the gosling...now I know you really do love me.

I've wrapped a bag of frozen peas around my hand before and that worked! I have a bag of frozen quinoa that I think would mold to the hand quite well, too.

Who gets the big fish, you or una?

Monty Python has a skit for almost all situations.

It will be a multi-part dance and they shall take turns!