Couch 140: Knocking pans

I cannot believe how fast this week went by at work - being back on my 'normal' calls like before both of the back-to-back projects I was on starting last July I think it was. My work day just flies by now!

I am sorry about your person.

I'm also sorry about your person, SD. And yes, thank you, skeski. JW is a Jehovah's Witness.

My T1 once said that my "irritability" is one of the most obvious ways my depression presents itself. I would disagree with him a bit re: the word "irritability." I call it "overstimulation." (Trying to explain the concept of "overstimulation" to my three attempts at epically-failed T3s last year was incredibly exhausting, btw. All three were super confused. It is not that difficult, really.)
T2 has done a much better job in understanding that what I feel coming at me (noises, etc.) are "tennis balls" (basically being thrown at my head).

Today I told one of the women that works at my chiropractor's office that I need a hot manservant. Sigh.

Ohhh, your "pings" sound like my "tennis balls."

Do either of you have fibromyalgia? https://www.healthrising.org/blog/20...h-information/

I have this same problem and have fibromyalgia. Sometimes the pings turn into 'earthquakes' in my brain. I've always been sensitive to sensory stimulation but it is intolerable at times now, especially artificial light and sound. I was drinking water and the nerve pain in my teeth hurt so bad just from tap water (it wasn't cold).

The hypothesis for fibro is that the brain senses pain more, which is the same theory a nurse told me at the ER over 4 years ago. Same old theory. The latest study shows a blood pressure cuff squeezing the leg provokes more pain in people with fibro then without. Well, your muscles, nerves, blood vessels hurt. Maybe that's why you feel more pain? https://www.healthrising.org/blog/20...-fibromyalgia/

My sleep studies show my brain doesn't ever go into deep restorative sleep (slow wave sleep). It's during that sleep that your body produces hormones that repair the body, such as growth hormones that repair muscle fibers. Your brain also has lymph drainage during deep sleep.. Not thinking antecdotal as 2/3 of people with fibromyalgia don't get deep sleep...

I don't believe that theory-that the brain simply is more sensitive to pain, though the neurological problems are believable. It's like the researchers keep focusing on a star, and become an expert on that single star in the constellation, but never see the big dipper when they look at the sky.

Maybe this is cynical and my thoughts would be different if I wasn't depressed. Actually, i doubt i'd even be thinking of this if i were not ill....yeah, i'm a changed person.

yep!
i do not, and for me, it is intrinsically related to my severity level of depression.

Thanks - she actually lived another 10 years after the letter. She had several bouts of cancer.

oh, wow. I had no idea she was sick for so long. that must have taken quite a toll.

It was not constant except for the last 3 years. It was different breast cancers and then the last bout metastasized.

wow. that is some sh!tty luck.

Indeed it was.

*sits on hands so as not to hug SD*

i REALLY wanted to use a sad face emoji.

I imagine SD's response to unwanted hugs would be similar to my response to someone spitting on me. Then it's easier to refrain. Although I am genuinely sorry for what your person and you went through, and I wish you peace.

I have just bought a book called 2100 Asanas.

That is a lot of asanas.

Is it possible that he is emotionally abusing you?

Not everyone is as strong as you, SD.

I don't have fibromyalgia either, and I also didn't have this issue until I became (severely) depressed.

I don't know. It doesn't happen often but when he's stressed out. So every couple of months, definitely nowhere as frequent as my dad berating me. He does bear the brunt of my whinging because my parents are difficult and my dad says I complain too much as well.

I just know that I'm really trying to reduce complaining but I tend to want to complain when I face an incident of major humiliation at work or have an especially ridiculously entitled VIP threatening to complain to the CEO about IT.

I was just curious. I know some people get a good bit of agitation with depression too.

They diagnosed me with fibromyalgia mostly because of the fatigue and sleep issue, i didnt even have chronic pain at the time. I had depression for a few years before that.

I think the fibro dx mostly came from years of anxiety and stress, which caused the sleep problems, which led to depression, then my body slowly breaking down. But i also had anemia and another serious problems.

Surprised more people here dont have that dx though.

I was sort of thinking the same thing, QM. At the very least, he sounds very insecure in that he can't handle you not being able to verbalize everything all the time.

QM could it just be frustration on your partner side, I know this no excuse for the swearing, but because he so far away from you (did I get that right? I sometimes have trouble tracking people's story) and being a man has a need to fix things and he feels a bit powerless. I don't know really this was just a thought.

Morning couch,

How are you all doing? Hope you all enjoy your weekend!

Cookies and coffee for everyone...