Couch 144: The contact-miked cactus couch

Yeah.. that's my silly daughter ready to dive right into that sucker!!! It was delicious too!

I'm from the US but those are my favorite freaking cakes. I just wish they had a bit more of the cream stuff

When I was in college I had two sizeable sh scars on about the same location of each forearm. To explain it to my parents when I came home, I told this elaborate story about how we were trapping turtles for biology class and I gouged them on a rock. It was a terrible story!

I can't stop eating... stupid emotions and unhealthy coping skills. So, to avoid sh, or suicide I am going to eat.

There used to be a shop in my town called Pie When You Need It. There needs to be a car service for pies and cakes on demand. I hate having to go get that stuff and I hardly ever think ahead to get it, but when I need it...it's immediate.

I keep reading the thread title as Contact Milked Cactus and it gives me an upsetting feeling, like the world makes even less sense than usual.

Can you share an audio recording, a-a?

That was just the most amazing unbelievable session I have ever had. After I finish making my cake and process it a bit I will tell you all about it.

Up at 5:30. Trimmed a tree and weeded in the rain. Cleaned out shed. Put items out in driveway with free sign. Made a dump run for the rest. Planted two trees. Walked dog for an hour. Bought shoes and a hummingbird feeder, bought groceries, visited the nursing home, went for another walk, picked peas from my garden to put in stir fry. First full day off since December, and I am on a roll. So. look. out.

6 hours to go and I still haven't heard from my daughter. We heard from her on Friday to see if we could babysit the grandson on Sat so that she could go to Ciderfest. Wife told her that we were going to out to dinner with my dad for father's day (yep on Saturday). So it's not like she didn't know it was this weekend. Sigh, estrangement sucks regardless of which side of the coin you are on.

I thought I would give the blanket thing a go. When I went in I told T I brought the blanket and with some prompting I wrapped it around me. My t asked me about the blanket was it something I bought or had I had a long time. It was one of my Ds. I wrapped it around me it felt odd as I have never wrapped myself in a blanket before. He asked what I wanted to talk about and after some prompting I produced the letter and he asked about the ways I punish myself and told him then we talked about how afraid I was of the "part"as he calls them that makes me do this. Then said something about him thanking the part which sounded just crazy but I felt part getting less angry and smaller. I was so stunned. I was less spacey and more present. I found the blanket seemed to contain me as I usually feel like I am spilling out of the chair. I don't know what to make of all this.

So I give you my tea cake I ran out of cinnamon so it's just sugar on top

Swaddling works for calming babies, why not adults too?

I love cuddling under all the blankets! I bought an extra fan this weekend just so I could keep my "winter" blanket on during summer. I live in the south, so its not very cold in the winter.

Either way. Blankets are great.

BCM - I am glad it went well.
Even though being wrapped up in blankets creeps me out

Exsqueeze me?! You've never wrapped a blanket around yourself before?!

Edit: This was said jokingly

Not to my knowledge, no. I doubt as a kid I would have been allowed to mess up a bed or linen closet for such a trivial reason

Glad it went well BCM.

BF is mad at me. He told me yesterday to "just be more self confident, just be more open and happy". Told him that it ain't that easy. After some further accusations ("you don't care at all", "you're doing this to hurt me", "you don't trust me", "and I'm supposed to believe that...") he stopped talking with me at all. Yay. Screw relationships. I'm gonna take Ts advice (he was joking) and go to a friary somewhere in Tibet on a 4000m mountain.

Hugs, Demunie. Your BF really sounds unsupportive.

It's definitely not easy to "just" XYZ.

I'm glad you did. I have learned over time that 'thanking them' is actually the best way to work with them. They came to protect and if we can see them in that light and thank them for what they do and have done, they usually become more cooperative. It takes a lot of work, but pays off in the long run.

I have those same feelings of falling off of/out off seated positions. I don't understand it - but it's very unnerving.

I think I'm ready to go down to twice a week for awhile.... This is a good thing but I know I won't be able to have the days I want so that'll suck, but tis life. I just feel like I'm ready for longer in between session times. I know she'll be there if I need an emergency appt in the middle of the week, but I think I'm ready to drop a day. I never thought I would be saying this....

I had my first eye surgery today. It was painful, but now I'm fine.

I'm tired and I hate my health. I'm young, but my body doesn't think so

Little bit of cuteness for you, capt...and anyone else who might need it.

Paid all my past due bills and still have money left over to live on

Thanks random old lady that hit my car!!! You saved me

MRI in an hour. Pocket Riders?

TDM says I will be okay, and they don't want to hurt me. They only have a desire to help. I keep repeating that I'll be okay. They don't care about shaved legs, right? Because I haven't shaved in a week. Why is this such a big deal in the US anyway? Blah, I don't want to go.

Pretty sure technicians have seen lots worse than unshaven legs.

I'll be in your pocket.

Yes, you will be okay, Ellahmae.

Keep your eyes closed and picture your favourite place.

They definitely won't care how hairy your legs are!