Couch 144: The contact-miked cactus couch

I hate the first day of trimester, no matter how much prep i do i still feel lost and confused and like I shouldnt be there.

And now I cant open any pdfs esp the one at the top of the page thats reads Attention: Read this before lectures start.

Rationally, neither should be anywhere near the top of your list of fears.

Very much so.

I like to think I sound like Richard Burton. Sadly, not true.

Anecdotal evidence says going on holiday is a big help.

In my head, your posts are always voiced in the tones of Sir John Gielgud.

When with future ex, my voice was always higher than normal, shrill and breathless, from the constant stress. Within weeks of dumping him, it had dropped several registers, slowed down, and sounded normal (for me).

Ok what part of "I cannot open pdfs on this subject site, but my other subjects are opening pdfs" is confusing? Why is this woman having so much trouble with this sentence. It is a straight forward sentence isnt it?

Watching Despicable Me for the first time. I need a dozen boogie robots

I hope that you and/or the person who uploaded the PDFs are able to figure out what's going on.

I need to finish the laundry and I am suddenly feeling very lazy.

...not that I did much this weekend anyway, except for finish up my online class, swim, and go grocery shopping. I'm gonna have a 5 day weekend for my birthday, so I'm looking forward to being even lazier and swimming every day of it! Hopefully it won't rain and I will be able to!! I'm off this coming Friday through next Tuesday yay!!

I love swimming. Getting there can be an adventure, though.

Well, wrote the transcript, recording me saying it and made slides to go with it. My assignment for next week is now done. Early! Lol. I need to go do some discussion posts for this week now.

6:30 in the evening and it's still 105 F - I probably should go swim again!!

Dark dark thoughts tonight .....

Thinking of you BB and sending good thoughts and light your way.

somebody is shooting off fireworks already. the 4th is still more than a week away, people.

I know - I need to get my middle dog some doggy xanax or something to help calm him down. Fireworks make him a wreck.

Session with T went well. I said well you're not dead. That's good. He said oh did you think I was dead?? That's unusual for you :I

I caught him up on things... Accused him of being weird a few times and freaking me out.. To which he said you're just paranoid... We ended up talking about the history of my voices which led to talking about that abusive teen place my mom put me in. T almost seemed like he couldn't handle me talking about it. Like he sighed a lot and was kind of speechless. Like ok I get that its ****ed up but I don't need that kind of reaction I guess.. Got a hug at the end

Went to work after therapy from 3 to 11. It went really well. I've picked up the register pretty quickly and am already on my own. I never really was with anyone to begin with. It's a very busy store which means I'm ringing up customers non stop. I don't mind that at all right now because it keeps me from having to interact with my coworkers.. Hahah. I do get along with everyone so far. I like them and they seem chill. Except for that 19 yr old dude who has a crush on me. I haven't even spoke to him haha... How does he even like me.

I get an hour for my lunch break so I stopped by Ts office to give him the schema test and say hi at game night. I sat with T and 3 other people til I went back to work. It was fun and it feels super cool that I'm so close to everything while I'm at work. I could go to my house if I wanted. The last job I was working was 30 min down a mountain.

I really like my job so far but I know most things have honeymoon periods. And it looks like I'll be working 8-9 hour shifts 5x a week. So we'll see lol...

I had too much coffee today, i am WIDE AWAKE. I exercised like 2 hours and took a shower but my eyes are like toothpicks are holding them open.

Maybe you can sing me to sleep?

I'm still up too, that long nap really kinked up my plans. I've been bargaining with myself for an hour so far. If you get to sleep right now you'll get 5.5 hours. Work with me brain!

I can't stand it anymore

do you want to talk about it? Captgut

Morning couch,

Just fell out of my bed after 12 hours of sleep. Still feeling like a car drove over me.

How am I supposed to do anything if most of my time is consumed by sleeping, starring into nothingness or dwelling? >.<

Maybe I should change university or field of study. Lol. What I'm doing now seems to be impossible.