Couch 144: The contact-miked cactus couch

SOOOOOO...anyone knowledgable about this sort of thing, please help me not freak out completely. (I already cried-texted my T earlier today, ha)

I got back the bloodwork results from my doctor's office today. My cholesterol was high (which it has been in the past, but had gone down), and my blood sugars were elevated, and this was combined with my blood pressure being high at the actual appointment. I did say that I saw my urologist the day before and it was normal (a tad high, but normal-ish)
ANWAY, the nurse wants me to go back in to do another blood draw so they can screen for pre-diabetes. I heard the word diabetes and freaked the eff out.
I am pretty sure this is all because I quit roller derby in January, and basically have exercised zero since then, and mostly subsist on a diet of peanut butter and chocolate. But STILL, food and diet has always been a thing I struggle with, and I don't feel like I have been SO off the rails, considering I've seen this doctor for like 13 years or something and this is the first this has ever happened.

Anyway. I feel really awful about it all. It only makes me want to hate myself more, and I am trying to avoiding SH over it. I also want to never eat again.

I passed the test! From what I know of velcro, she would too.

I don't understand poetry.

V - my impression is that prediabetes is like prehypertension. It's like being put on academic probation. It's a warning, with possible medication. It is not an ineluctable fate.

There's also the possibility of white coat syndrome if your BP changed drastically within 24 hours. My BP is fine at the dentist's and the gynecologist's (it was even fine at Smaug's), but it jumps at my PCP's.


I passed the test! From what I know of velcro, she would too.

So, potential problem with seeing t this week. Go figure, the week I was thinking about canceling I might actual have to cancel because of scheduling conflict with my daughter's dance thing.

I can call the office on Monday and see if he has any earlier openings, he most likely won't. ☹️

Since May 16th, I've . . .

Attended my son's wedding,
Lost my mother,
Been to another son's graduation,
Traveled 500 miles south,
Attended my mother's funeral,
Attended my mother's interment,
Traveled back 500 miles home,
Attended my son's college orientation,
Attended a weeklong advanced placement institute.

I'm tired.

But I have a couple weeks now of downtime until I head back down to spend a couple of weeks with my dad. I'm looking forward to what will hopefully be a few weeks of complete boredom.

If you paid tuition as a non resident wouldn't it be way more than you should pay as a resident?

I simply don't go to mds. If one lets those people muck about for long enough - they are going to find something they want to treat. I don't agree that everything is a condition. So I don't bother with them. To me, that is how everyone ends up taking countless pills and undergoing tests all the time.

I'm too afraid to click that link. I am a HOT MESS right now over this (and other things, but mostly this).

I have white coat syndrome, but I truly like my doctor and it hasn't been high in a long time there. I was extra stressed that day bc my co-teacher said she was giving a 2 weeks notice and it freaked me out. That could have been part of it. But still.

oh now i am bawling. i cracked and sent t the poem. she just sent such a heartfelt response i almost can't stand it.

and it's still 101 degrees outside so i'm going swimming where nobody will be able to see my tears!!

There is something really wrong with my dog. I don't see other dogs tipping the bowl of dry food over and rolling in it. Plus he does this weird scratching in mid air thing.