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Please take care, jDNA. This sounds very ominous.

RoboT has said this to me quite a bit, actually. That he's impressed that I'm going through my stuff at such a young age (younger than he was, haha). I don't know, I guess I've never ascribed to the stigma that is psychotherapy, and I was in therapy all through high school, so I don't find it weird or spectacular that I am my age and doing this.

Thanks to those of you who were so supportive last night, by the way. I am feeling better (emotionally) this morning.

Please try to take care of yourself. I know you say you don't care, but still try to be safe. Especially with the drugs, because I know around here there have been issues of it being laced with fentanyl and stuff like that.

Maybe don't shut the door entirely on your T, in case you do feel in a week or two that you do want to talk to him. I know you don't feel that way now, but still try to keep things open. Has he responded yet about the canceled appointments?

He just did...

😢

Not sure how I missed this post. Please take care of yourself, DNA.

Oh God I feel terrible. My poor T he does not deserve this

Hi couch. A friend just asked me how I was and I said okay. But I'm not okay, I just don't want to worry them. Sorry to worry you guys but I don't want to lie to everyone.

He obviously cares about you. That comes through in the texts. Would you consider going to see him, just to talk about taking the break and why you want it?

Morning couch, I'm up early and it's already 90 F degrees out so I'm heading to the pool.

Now he sent this is serious sarah. You need help.

If he freaking calls my mom I'm gonna freak out. She triggers me and she is often of no help anyway. And she can't do anything about it so it's stupid if he does.

One of the many many reasons we are here - so that we can take our masks off for just a moment and not lie to someone or ourselves about how things really are for us at any given moment.

Can you tell him you don't want him to do that (I'd think that would violate confidentiality)? And agree to see him, just to talk?

JD- you are punishing yourself and you don't deserve it. See t tomorrow, please.

I'm scared he's gonna call the police on me or something. I shouldn't have even said anything to him about it

Thanks Elio.

JD- I agree with healed.

Tell him you'll come see him, and that you're worried about him calling the police. Hopefully he'll reassure you that he won't.

JD, Your therapist is right. This is serious and you do need help. I'm not sure that his observation means your mother is the one to help? Seems like more addiction recovery help is what's needed.

I visited my sister in the hospital last month after her most recent bender. She looked like an 80 year old carcass--not even human really, and that was after she'd gotten better. Her brain is shot from decades of addiction. She will never live independently. Her life is one long slow death. She always thought she knew better than everyone and could do what she wanted and was in control of her drug and alcohol use. She is a shell. She can't even put together much of a sentence.

You actually have a shot here to get better. I would listen to your therapist on this one and get help.

JD- I think you did the right thing telling him.

Just take care of yourself.
Do you have another trustworthy responsible person besides your mom? If you dont I get it, I had no one for a long time.
Your T has gotten you through a lot and he really does care. Maybe give him a chance to help.
Sending you love and light

I don't want to see him!!!!

JD, You really should see someone, whether it be him or a different t.

I know...You're mad at him. And I know you say you don't want help. But you contacted him for a reason. If you didn't care about yourself at all, you wouldn't have bothered. And you wouldn't have posted here. You would have just self-destructed. I think deep down, you do want help. Maybe not from him, and certainly not from your mom, but from somewhere. At least some part of you has some hope. Grab onto that part.

I came here and wrote about it and wrote to T because I don't want to hide. I don't want to hide what I'm doing. I don't want help I don't want anyone to intervene. I just want to say what is going on with me. But people get all concerned and I DON'T LIKE THAT. So should I just post here if I'm feeling well and happy? If I want advice or concern I would explicitly ask for it. I don't see whu. I can't just post about what is going on I realize natural human reactions are unavoidable but... Maybe I will just take a break from here as well

I don't want to hurt my T and I feel terrible now because he is obviously pretty worried. I NEVER want to hurt him and any of. You and I am sorry I have come here and done that.

It's fine to post whatever. You don't have to get help if you don't want it.

Sorry for overstepping.

I'm sorry if I overstepped. I'm sorry for expressing concern--it's just how I am about people if they're hurting. (And how I want people to be to me.) Please keep posting. We'll let you be.

Can I ask how you would want people to respond? We can treat you more like Stopdog, if you like. No hugs and stuff. Or would you just prefer no one to respond at all.