The Couch 146 : The Untouchable, Nontotient, Octahedral, Composite Couch.

That's great that you haven't used. Keep it up!

And I hope it's OK to say this because I don't want to overstep...but maybe you're right that the break could actually be good for both of you, to each step back a bit, like you said.

I think we're octahedral

Couch, why does traveling have to be so expensive?

On the plus side, I'm going to go to NYC for my birthday.

I think it's just plain old clear quartz (a very very nice one too...) it feels a little better now that it's been here for the day. Still makes me a touch woozy. Either way I'm bringing it back to M next week because obviously I need more of him to rub off on it, duh

I bring a piece of rose quartz with me to t to "recharge" it, well I used to maybe it won't work anymore though

Do I take notice of the dream where my car blows up and the mechanic says the town I am going to hasn't been built yet or the dream with my t where the door that previously didn't have a handle but now has one and t is suggesting I open it?

I'm sorry to hear how things are going with your t. About rose quartz - I have one that gets physically hot when I hold it. And I'm not the wu wu sort

Maybe the town is in a place I need to be but the physical town, the infrastructure, the supporting things are not ready yet? Maybe there is more things I need to work on before I can go to this place. I will forget to tell T this of course. I may just write it down as that worked session before last

Or is the door thing saying I am ready to go there?
Or maybe I am ready to start the journey just take it slowly?

I'd really like to see MC's face if I asked him to charge a crystal for me. (He looked rather puzzled when I mentioned essential oils the other day.)

Maybe something in between? Definitely worth discussing with your T. Maybe see what dreams you have tonight?

I am watching one of my all time super favorite movies - Dr. Strangelove.
"Peace is our Profession" as they blow up the snot out of everything.

BCM, I think that both dreams have a similar underlying message, but both sides of the coin. Are you torn about something? Is there something that you're hesitating to do in your life?

I look at the "city hasn't been built" yet dream is that waking you doesn't feel ready to do, but the unconscious you, manifested by your therapist, is trying to tell you that you are ready. I think it'd be worth it to discuss both dreams with your therapist for sure. They definitely seem related.

And I've never had any major woo woo conversations with roboT. He seems like he could be into some woo woo stuff, but not crystals and the like.

ETA: Speaking of dreams, anyone want to take a crack at the one that I had last night?

I dreamt that it was dawn, and I was sitting on a bench on the street that I lived on from 11-21. Then a middle aged blonde lady comes out of one of the houses, asking what I was doing there. I said that I wanted to visit my childhood home which was down the street. I ended up becoming friends with the lady, and went back at some point in the future to visit her. RoboT was living in the house next door to the lady (the house of a good friend IRL). She waved at him and he waved back at her, but we said nothing to one another.

Then skip forward to my next session with roboT, and he was so angry that I was invading into his space. Why was I at his neighbor's house? I was so confused, I was just like, "I wanted to go home..."

And then I woke up. It was a weird one.

haha you should just to see his face! We don't do anything to charge mine I just set it on the table and let it soak up the healing I (used to) feel there.

thanks BonnieJean. It's truly bizarre and painful, it is.

And interesting about the crystal getting hot while you hold it!

Welp it seems like the thunderstorm that was brewing earlier has blown right past us without giving us any of its glory. Sigh. I'm ready for a good thunderboomer.

I think my eardrum is bursting but I can't drive to go to the doc I don't think they can do anyth for me anyway.

Saw Duchess. She cried. She said no to the hotel idea, that that would be running and I'm trying to run away from "my friends" but they will just follow me. I told her if I could there are a couple I would just leave with her. I love her, it's stupid. My ear hurts my soul hurts and my house is a disaster (not of my doing.) my instructions we're to go home take your sedative and go to sleep.

I'm a worthless **** up who just causes others pain. I want to run away

I'm so sad. I am so sad. I don't see a point in living

So many couchies hurting right now. Sending healing hugs to everyone who needs/wants.

Ah finally here comes the rain...

"silence is the steel that pierces and cuts me to the bone.
In dreams the hand that touches you is mine and mine alone.
cruel is the light, is the morning shining down on me
hours with the devil to understand just what you need.

so i wake in the street
and i call out your name
and i shout to the sky
come on let it rain
let it rain down on me
let the rain fill my eyes
let the rain set me free
let it rain down on me"

and

"damn my soul that remembers and clutches to this pain.
The spear in your side, is me."

Le sigh.

Ellahmae- I think you help others here.

JD- Please stay safe.

Art- We had rain earlier. I went out and just missed a big downpour, which I was happy about.

i think i'm going to get my hair cut on the way home tomorrow. chop chop chop! i need a change!

There is something in therapy i have been avoiding for 6 years now. A month ago we talked around it and I have avoided ever since.