Dear T: I Really Need to Tell You Something...Part XXXIII

I love you

If you knew how bad it is now...



...would you come back?

God I miss you so much. Only 19 more days

I really wish you would send the little appt reminder texts again. Seeing that "see you at 5pm" text on session days would always make me smile, especially when they included some emoji or other. I'll probably never tell you that though.

You’re right, I do care. I guess I just mean I’d let it go if I could be sure he’d not act that way with someone else. The scaring thing was my thought process too. I wouldn’t actually expect/want him to get punished or anything

I think he’s a reflexologist? Which is less regulated, so I’m not sure there’s a board he could be reported to :/ it would be a good idea though, thank you!

Annoyingly, I wish it was tomorrow.

I was just noticing, the days pass more slowly when you diet, exercise, take showers, and do chores!!

I see chiro tomorrow

So then tomorrow at 5pm will get here faster if I call in sick to work tomorrow and lay in bed eating junk food after vacuuming the house? Sold! Heehee

Everything’s falling apart.

so... do u do this on purpose

I wonder what your supervisor will say. I wonder if they will understand.

Can it be Tuesday already? This is too long with no contact. I miss you like crazy.

Why not?

Dear T,
Oh God, I just got emotional about this really dumb thing regarding ex-MC. Like I don't even know if I can tell you about it tomorrow, it's going to sound so pathetic. But I guess if I'm sitting here crying about it...I probably should.
--LT

T,

This is my current life. Help please.

The crazier it is, the more you need to raise it with T.
You don't go to T for the stuff that makes sense!

Good point! The problem is, it kinda relates to something that's proven to be a touchy area for him.

Ts shouldn't have touchy areas. Should they?

I wish I could’ve seen you today. Tomorrow feels very far away. I hope we can come up with a good plan together. I hope I don’t cry in front of everyone. I’m sad and feel so alone.

I showed this to T years ago and he said "I don't get it"... like what do u not get!!!! but to be fair he doesn't get a lot of memes I show him lol

Ideally, no...

LT

If you aren't ready to talk about it
It's fine. Don't push yourself too much. Might not even be something you ever have to bring up. It's your call.

How is this not understandable? Silly therapists.

Hi t,

So I e-mailed you early this week asking for a Friday morning appointment and you never answered. I'm guessing you don't have anything in which case I'll just see you my normal time tomorrow evening. But please answer. I guess I'll reach out to you again tomorrow morning. I HATE that you didn't answer, grr.

-Butterfly

Seriously! Now I kinda want to show it to mine to see if he gets it...