Couch 201: The Transformative Grammar Couch

I'm feeling less broken tonite than I have lately. Thankfully.

I know! I couldnt get used to it when people started using the proper anatomy words either! I always just said di ck.

Oh this made my day.
Eta - write this one down for our act!

exactly, I'm 100% with this. So old fashioned in thinking. it's not even being gender fluid it's about playing !!

I called T a few hours ago and left him a message. He texted back that he can't call me back until after 9pm, but said he'll will call. Going to try to duck out of my house right around that time to go get H a birthday card and a gift. That way I can talk to T alone and get out to do that.

Glad to see you!
I was just thinking of you earlier today!

How are you?

T tomorrow
He has never seen me without the stress of my son... this could be interesting. Everyone at work is commenting on how different I am and they are not near as sensitive as T.

I'm sure she speaks to everyone like that. Except the principle. He gets a nauseating simper.

It's "populus", of course. Trust Una to think it was something anatomical.

Managed to get the update thing figured out, but I can't schedule it unless I can tell Windows when my mother usually uses her computer. Frustrating, as she doesn't really have a pattern.

sigh my T has no boundaries. sometimes it is ok sometimes not so much. im a boundary kind of person .she use to have boundaries .

Off to my new job. T was off last week and I am finding I am missing her. Normally when we miss a week (we've missed as many as 4 between the two of us having vacations) I don't miss her but I'd love to process all the new stuff going on in my life with her.

Your thinking with your populous

Isnt populus an infection of the populous?

my T called me to cancel Thursdays apt and started talking to me about all kinds of other stuff .we hung up and she called me back to tell me a story about her cat .????what happened to her boundaries i dont need a friend

My T asked me to agree that I'd call him before calling out of work. I was feeling really bad this morning and I didn't think I could manage--I'm all slow in the body and in the mind. So I called him and he talked me into going. He was all, "just take a shower and then text me, then put clothes on and eat something and then text me." And now it's too late to cancel my patients for this afternoon even though I feel like absolute crap and am completely overwhelmed by everything.

I'm regretting that. I should have just told him to go eff himself. I mean, you can't call him uninvolved, I appreciate that about him. But I'm sick of Opposite Action. It's so freaking invalidating. I feel like I can't manage, so why are you telling me I can? How the eff does he know? What if I bail in the middle of clinic because I can't stand it anymore? What if tonight I feel even worse because I used up all this energy doing something I felt like I couldn't do?

(Or maybe he's right and my self-assessment is totally screwed and when I think I can't I'm wrong?)

Hi couchies. I'm feeling so-so today. Some thoughts of SH but I see T tomorrow so I really think I should just hold on. Plus my sister's children are coming this weekend. I'm excited to see them. It will be loud and noisy and boisterous and I'll be wishing I could nap for a few hours I'm sure (sis has 5 children) but I'm still looking forward to seeing them. I need to keep that in the forefront of my head, not SH.

I'm currently waiting at the wound care clinic for my appointment. I'm not liking that it's so dar away from my house, and hoping they'll just let my pcp deal with the wound. Or there used to be a clinic a lot closer to me.
I stayed out last night for almost 2 hours. Talked to T for a few minutes and then did some shopping for a gift for H and school clothes shopping for the kids. I'm supposed to start my next class Thursday. Really don't think I can deal with that right now.

papule?
pustules?

I think most people would also have gone with hey.

Hi!

Guess T has never been ill his whole life. It's 10x harder. you're the best judge of how you're doing.If you're not well enough to work I would trust your gut instinct.

regularly yelling at your partner is NOT a part of a healthy relationship.

I think if you've already asked if he wanted to do something he doesn't get to pout about it.

What does he do for your birthday?

It just all seems to be about him, You're still in pain and recovering,

I think it might still be good if you could block of some quiet time for yourself whilst they're staying over.even if it was a short 10 min walk outside to the store or garden.

Probably a good idea @Lemoncake. I think I have convinced my Dad to take the 4 oldest to Lion King one day so that would just leave the 2 y.o. my Mom and my Sis. Maybe I can get some quiet time in then as well.

Had first of two sessions with backup T. Met in her office this time, which was less awkward for me than Ts office. Mostly talked about my drinking, as addiction is one of her areas of expertise. She had me describe what it felt like when I was going to get a beer, opening it, and having first sip. Was rather enlightening, as some of the relief/relaxation happens before I even take a sip. So much of it is psychological. And I have it within myself to create those feelings without alcohol. My assignment before Thursday when I see her is to observe what I’m feeling/thinking when I want a drink, am getting one, and first have it.

We did get to make fun of a comment my T had said at one point, which was kind of a bonding moment. She was like, “he can be pretty blunt!” I think with his being away it sort of helps to talk to someone else who knows him.

Also, she said I should be a therapist.

R sound like a good fit for you and I'm glad your going at your normal pace.

I think you would have the patience for it. have you considered it yourself?