Couch 228--The Wellness Couch

Ugh. Getting my hair done this weekend. Highlighted and cut/styled. That's like 2.5 hours of small talk! I can't do this. Well, I can, I don't want to. But I want to get my hair freshened up so I have to endure it.

Kit, it's like we're on the same schedule for things. Both got mammograms this week, both getting our hair done this week, though mine was just a haircut (and stressful enough on its own!). Hope the salon visit goes well. If you don't want to spend that much time, could you just do the cut/style and not the highlighting?

Twinsies!
I would get the hair cut one weekend and then highlight the next but next weekend on Sunday I am volunteering with Compassion International in Temecula CA which is about 2.5 hours away from me one way, so my day will be pretty much taken up. So I want the Saturday to relax. So same is true this weekend. I will do the whole hair thing on Saturday, then just Church on Sunday and get to relax all day Sunday afternoon. Oh and I have a religious class Saturday morning but I am going to make sure I don't have it next week so I can have a full day off. My hair stylist is so excited that I am coming in. I don't know why. She likes me in a platonic way. Unfortunately I have to come up with stuff to talk about. I'm just not that interesting!

You need a lever.

Info was especially annoying today. She tried to teach me how to have a dialogue between parts. Of course, the first step there is to admit that there are parts...(and yes, I know some of you agree with her that there are, that's fine, I'm not starting an argument here, just venting about my therapy appointment).

She also wanted me to enter a screen name, so I just put in The Client, because she was being especially rote and unimaginative today: "what does that bring up?", "a piece of that may be...", "what would it be like to be...?"

You know, I'm half-seriously considering writing a scene of how rote appointments with her can be, with two characters, The Therapist and The Client, and making her read The Client role in the next session. Maybe she'll even recognize her patterns.

None of this helped with the topic, which was about regretting sending those poems to my writer's group and what to do about that regret.

Also I had to define autonomous for her, like an autonomous car. (She had the parts driving around in a car at one point.)

Fashion report: black sleeveless blouse, lots of ruffles around the neck. Silver double hoop earrings. Couldn't see anything else.

Or a block and tackle.

I had to look up what this is. Never heard this phrase before. Always learn something from you @@

Just so you know, you enrich my life

My parents are visiting my sister and they aren't having a very good time. I feel bad about that. Even though it's completely out of my control. My sister is having relationship problems with her husband (maybe soon to be ex) and the children are all pouty and uncooperative. I tried to tell my parents that they are going through a lot and to give them a lot of grace but yeah, my parents didn't give me a lot of grace growing up so that's not their forte. I'm planning on going to the grocery store tonight to pick up some roast for dinner tomorrow (parents come home tomorrow and it is one of their favorite meals). I am trying to go out of my way to make their coming home special.

In related news, I am letting my Mom's dog sleep with me while my parents are away instead of sleeping in her crate. It is a treat for both of us since I no longer have Esther sleeping with me and Amelia only sleeps with me when it's cold and it is definitely not cold in So Cal right now.

Good luck- I tried such a thing with the first woman and it went right past her. She is not all that bright.

it's like saying that the dog playing poker doesnt play very well.

Eta - i am not a fan of Dean Martin westerns. You can tell he is wearing silk undergotchies.

Seriously, I worry about you.

Pretty good session today. I shared the homework (what little i got done) and we talked about it. And did some shamanic work and then talked about that. I don't know how that hour goes by so fast.

Har, you probably quote me to your friends and take credit for my jokes.

Oh, get a room, you two.

I don't understand your jokes enough to try to steal them. I usually don't know that you are joking -because I have no idea what you are talking about ever.
Okay maybe twice I have understood, but not much more than that. If I started sounding like you, somebody would probably want to get me tested. And I like Dean Martin westerns -I watched them with my grandmother when I was little - we never once thought about his underwear. I never think about anyone's underwear.

L and I have had a major rupture I've had 4 sessions with her this week, and it's still not resolved. I actually raised my voice to her in yesterday's session. She just wasn't listening. She kept explaining things away. She made me feel guilty saying she prioritized me which made her 5 mins late for another client... And then she said that it doesn't help with my black and white thinking...

She's confusing me and I'm confusing her. It's a mess. It's a horrible cycle. I need her, but I don't want her. She's hurt me really bad. Her rules/rituals are messed up. It's like she's changed.

My appetite is low, I'm barely sleeping, I'm in physical pain, my family is being a *****. I need L so much, but she's no longer safe. She's been bringing up hospitalization more and more. It's starting to remind me of ex-T. Like she's given up. I want to give up.

Hugs, Scarlet, I'm sorry you're going through this with L. Is it at all possible that you could contact T to see if you could talk to her/schedule a session?

Last week L had me picture my negative animus sitting in a chair across the room (a chair that had never been there before, hmm) and wanted me to dialogue with him. I couldn't do it out loud with her watching me. (I am not a huge fan of the "parts" thing, especially when she starts talking about autonomous parts/complexes.) So I had her drum and I had the 'dialogue' with him on paper. I filled 1.5 pages of my notebook with it, writing fast. It worked for me that way, and was actually helpful. What I hate about the whole "parts" thing is sometimes when she's talking about that stuff it makes me feel like there's other people running amok inside my head or something. I don't much like that idea.

Thanks. I could definitely schedule a session with T. I just am not sure it's going to help.

Will just start my own thread to explain.

Hugs, Scarlet. I'm sorry you're going through this with L, ruptures are so hard. I hope you're able to work through this.

Got my 2nd vaccine dose this morning. My arm is so sore. It was a little sore after the first one, but it's painful after this one. I wonder if I'm going to get the flu-like stuff tomorrow.

Im going wednesday.

Sending healthy vibes for you, NP and una. I had the cruddy feeling the day after my second 5G shot, but it wasn’t as bad as I’d expected. My T made me laugh when he was talking about when he got the vaccine. He said the first shot felt like he got kicked in the arm by a Shetland pony, while the second shot felt like he got kicked in the arm by a large white horse. Don’t ask me why the horse was white. I think he was thinking of a specific breed. Maybe Silver from the Lone Ranger?

Probably Dean Martin's horse!

Yeah, I get you! I don't like the texture as well. As slices/chips however, I don't mind them.

I like chai lattes too!