Couch 233: Nothing’s Ghana Stop Us Now

ChickenNoodleSoup · Nov 17, 2021, 03:05 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Another good thing about masks: they can help hide when you're upset in public after getting a super-dismissive email on ADA matters from a previously-supportive dean.

I always mouth songs along while shopping and having earplugs in, just saying...
You can hide all sorts of stuff :P

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 03:25 PM

I sing anyway when shopping even before masks. But now I can freely talk to myself too while wearing one. heehee

atisketatasket · Nov 17, 2021, 04:43 PM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

You know its coming down to budget.

There's no way a university worth millions can claim "undue hardship" over an accommodation request. And the things I'm asking for are nowhere near that.

No, the "problem" tag seems to be going around.

unaluna · Nov 17, 2021, 04:57 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

There's no way a university worth millions can claim "undue hardship" over an accommodation request. And the things I'm asking for are nowhere near that.

No, the "problem" tag seems to be going around.

Im just thinking, $50k is either your accommodation or my new car. That is who is calling you a problem. The personal is political and all that. Universities REWARD people who rid them of problems. The person who fired me got a HUGE promotion.

Not arguing, just sayin. Cuz almost nobody has mo money than my old boss.

Quietmind 2 · Nov 17, 2021, 05:32 PM

Hugs, Scarlet

Quietmind 2 · Nov 17, 2021, 05:33 PM

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

Another good thing about masks: they can help hide when you're upset in public after getting a super-dismissive email on ADA matters from a previously-supportive dean.

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Originally Posted by unaluna

Im just thinking, $50k is either your accommodation or my new car. That is who is calling you a problem. The personal is political and all that. Universities REWARD people who rid them of problems. The person who fired me got a HUGE promotion.

Not arguing, just sayin. Cuz almost nobody has mo money than my old boss.

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Originally Posted by atisketatasket

There's no way a university worth millions can claim "undue hardship" over an accommodation request. And the things I'm asking for are nowhere near that.

No, the "problem" tag seems to be going around.

Ugh, so sorry atisketatasket. You're not "the problem", they are. It's so unfair that you're being scapegoated.

I've been scapegoat in jobs for being "different", though not due to disability.

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 05:41 PM

Just got the call from the vet, results are back from the urinalysis. Not sure if this needs trigger warning so adding it just in case.

Possible trigger:

Rascal indeed has kidney disease. She didn't say how progressed it is but that she wants him to come in for a blood pressure check because there's also protein loss in his urine. So I called & made an appointment for early in the morning on 11/26. She asked if I wanted to do a bunch of other tests too and I said not at this time, he's going on 15, so we will also want to start talking about quality of life etc if we stop with all the testing (he gets so stressed out going there in the car) and not start adding new medications (I'll keep doing his insulin) just let him live out his life until he's not really living anymore. Right now he still gets around almost all the time really well, he seems happy, sleeps with us at night, loves being petted and purrs away. I promised him and h agrees that we will not do him like we did our old cat 20 years ago, we won't keep him alive and miserable just for us. And he seems to be far from miserable now.

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 05:48 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Me to Dr. T today: "Well, I guess I keep you on your toes." Dr. T (smiling): "Yes, you certainly do that!"

I love reading about these moments with Dr T.

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 06:15 PM

I've been flooded with more realizations since talking with L earlier. Like this major one. That I've been holding myself an emotional hostage to the relationship with her for a good while now. Don't ask me to explain that, not sure I could begin to, but... @#$%&^* I think it's 100% true.

NP_Complete · Nov 17, 2021, 06:38 PM

P to me today: "I'm happy you're not a sociopath." Made me laugh out loud.

Context: He brought up how boys tend to react to the way I felt growing up by acting out or breaking the law, whereas I seemed to shrink into myself.

LonesomeTonight · Nov 17, 2021, 07:02 PM

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Originally Posted by NP_Complete

P to me today: "I'm happy you're not a sociopath." Made me laugh out loud.

Context: He brought up how boys tend to react to the way I felt growing up by acting out or breaking the law, whereas I seemed to shrink into myself.

That's kinda funny--I'd have laughed, too!

unaluna · Nov 17, 2021, 07:11 PM

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Originally Posted by Quietmind 2

Ugh, so sorry atisketatasket. You're not "the problem", they are. It's so unfair that you're being scapegoated.

I've been scapegoat in jobs for being "different", though not due to disability.

Yeah they wanted to fire me for being brilliant. Im not kidding.

velcro003 · Nov 17, 2021, 07:26 PM

My T was awesome (as usual-I should be used to this by now), and was absolutely okay with the fact that I texted her over the weekend when I was struggling. She said it doesn’t happen often, and she understands.

Whew! Now to wait two weeks to see her…

LonesomeTonight · Nov 17, 2021, 07:36 PM

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Originally Posted by velcro003

My T was awesome (as usual-I should be used to this by now), and was absolutely okay with the fact that I texted her over the weekend when I was struggling. She said it doesn’t happen often, and she understands.

Whew! Now to wait two weeks to see her…

Glad to hear it, Velcro!

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 07:56 PM

I'm glad to hear it too, Velcro!

Quietmind 2 · Nov 17, 2021, 08:04 PM

Um, so since 2 days ago, my remaining friends (3 people) are taking shifts so I'm not alone in the flat due to how I'm apparently switching with no awareness or memory and doing unsafe things.

I might have to go inpatient psych. First time in my life. I'm scared.

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 08:06 PM

I think getting through today's uncomfortable phone call with L in one piece calls for a glass of wine. {Artie passes around a bottle of Oliver Winery & Vineyards Cherry Moscato.} I haven't been drinking since July since I've been working on losing weight, but this is a special occasion.

Cheers!

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 08:08 PM

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Originally Posted by Quietmind 2

Um, so since 2 days ago, my remaining friends (3 people) are taking shifts so I'm not alone in the flat due to how I'm apparently switching with no awareness or memory and doing unsafe things.

I might have to go inpatient psych. First time in my life. I'm scared.

Big hugs, QM. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm glad you have friends watching out for you, and I hope you are able to do what's best for you and that you stay safe.

LonesomeTonight · Nov 17, 2021, 08:20 PM

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Originally Posted by Quietmind 2

Um, so since 2 days ago, my remaining friends (3 people) are taking shifts so I'm not alone in the flat due to how I'm apparently switching with no awareness or memory and doing unsafe things.

I might have to go inpatient psych. First time in my life. I'm scared.

Hugs, QM...I hope you can get through this without needing to go inpatient, but you also need to do what keeps you safe. Are you able to get in touch with pdoc to see if a change in meds could help?

Quietmind 2 · Nov 17, 2021, 08:28 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Hugs, QM...I hope you can get through this without needing to go inpatient, but you also need to do what keeps you safe. Are you able to get in touch with pdoc to see if a change in meds could help?

I see pdoc tomorrow. Good and bad.
Pros:
- I like her because she's collaborative and doesn't mind me doing my own research.
- Complex trauma sensitive.
- Trans affirming (which is rare, and I have horrible gender dysphoria)
- Her colleague was the one who diagnosed DID, they can consult.
- She knows my therapist.

Cons:
- She isn't familiar with DID.
- While she's collaborative, maybe I shouldn't have to do my own research to find meds for my chronic bad PTSD nightmares that aren't the typical Prazosin.

ScarletPimpernel · Nov 17, 2021, 09:04 PM

I was on Prazosin for PTSD nightmares, but am now on Doxazosin. I still have nightmares, but not night terrors. I think L said it relaxes your fight/flight hormones? Something like that. So you'll still have nightmares (it's your brain's way of processing), but you shouldn't have an extreme reaction to whatever the dream is.

ArtieTheSequal · Nov 17, 2021, 09:38 PM

Well, I was up at like 3:30 this morning cuz I couldn't sleep so I'm ready for zzzzz's. I think I'm gonna sleep good tonight.

Nighty night, couch.

Daffydungle · Nov 17, 2021, 11:45 PM

I had to go to an emergeency dentist appointment today and i didnt feel like inwas going to die once it was really weird i only had slight anxiety and didnt feel like i was about to dissociat once. I have no idea what is going on. I did ask if i could hold a book while they worked but i dont think that was it, it helped but i dont think it was all of it.

unaluna · Nov 18, 2021, 01:04 AM

So i have been staying up all night for the past month or two or three, whats the word, binge-watching carp. So tonight i decided to use the time and take my diuretic, and take out a few bags of old garbage everytime i get up to pee. Two birds, or three! But i really do need to get on a daytime schedule. I guess. Or at least figure out how to sleep the night before a dr appt.

atisketatasket · Nov 18, 2021, 04:53 AM

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Originally Posted by unaluna

So i have been staying up all night for the past month or two or three, whats the word, binge-watching carp. So tonight i decided to use the time and take my diuretic, and take out a few bags of old garbage everytime i get up to pee. Two birds, or three! But i really do need to get on a daytime schedule. I guess. Or at least figure out how to sleep the night before a dr appt.

A couple weeks ago, my unhealthy sleep pattern was to go to bed at 10 and then cry for a couple hours till I fell asleep. Now it’s go to bed at 10, sleep for a few hours, wake up, toss and turn a few hours, then drift off again.

I was just finally getting back to sleep a bit ago when the smoke detector decided to alert me to a low battery. Bleah.

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