I am in disbelief...

I decided to look up my first therapist on the internet because I thought it would be nice to write her and tell her what I have made of myself-- I saw her, consistently, from the ages of 17 to 19, and then on and off (whenever I needed to talk with her). I think the last time I saw her was in 2001 or 2002. I always told her I wanted to be a therapist someday, just like her. She was the person who ulimately led me to decide what I wanted to do from the age of 17-- I just knew I wanted to do exactly what she did.

When I looked her up on the internet, all I found was her obituary. She passed away three months ago.

(((((((((((((((((( pinksoil ))))))))))))))))) Wow. What a shock.

I'm so sorry

((((pinksoil))))

I'm sorry. What an awful thing to find out. That would be a real shock.

--splitimage

Pink, that is a tough one, for sure. Don't second guess yourself about "if I had only done this earlier" and all that...there's a reason why you delayed, actually more than just what you know you were going through. Plus, she may not have remembered you (I know, another bad thought) but it's easier to not think that now, than to have looked her up and realized it then, especially for all you're going through.

Time passes.

Ohhhhhhhhh. i'm sorry pink.
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((((((hugs))))))) thinking of you.

sorry to hear pink. How shocking for you. Hang in there.

Sorry to hear that (((((((((((( pink ))))))))))))))


sabby

so very sorry... for your loss.. and the way you found out..

Hi Pink. The same thing happened to me. I could not find my Ts contact info, but I found her husbands, so I emailed him. He told me that my T had passed. I guess in some way I always expected her to be there. I knew that she had cancer...it was a difficlut loss. My thoughts are with you.

Wow. That is so sad! I think that I would feel sort of lost without that foothold from the past.

And I'm *sure* she'd remember you! Who could possilby forget a younger version of Pink? You were probably a handful!

Hugs, Slippers

((((((pinksoil))))))

I am so so so sorry. What an awful shock, to look up someone who inspired your career choice and find them gone! It must make you feel invisible in a way. However, know this--there is no way in hell that anyone would ever forget you--what a wonderful and vibrant and generous person you are.

Now, you have no choice but to live up to the inspiration and take her with you to work...because it is clear she lives in your heart.

((((((((((((( pinksoil )))))))))))))))
I am sorry for your loss.

oh wow... that is so sad. and kind of shocking as well. i have a couple past therapists who i'd really like to catch up with. to let them know how / what i'm doing now. to let them know they helped me (especially because i wasn't so good with showing that at the time). it is a hard situation, huh. i hope you are dealing with it okay. hugs (if safe)

Pink,
I'm sure you T knew she had an impact on your life as well as many others.

Last week I sent my T a simple thank you card to mark my one year in therapy point. I couldn't decide if it was something I should be celebrating or grieving. Then I recognized that this was just more ego, creating indecision. In the end I decided to just accept it and not label it good or bad. I kind of felt stupid for sending it, but after reading this post I'm glad I did. You never know when people are going to move in and out of your life.

Wow. sorry, to hear that. but sadly the world moves on. only reason i say that is bc if ur not ready to move on with the world then it'll pass u by without even a glance back. now, im not saying to forget ut T, far from it. u need to remember her. let her live on in ur heart and memories. also, remember how she inspired u to be a T just like her. if u really want to be a T then do it. and everyday when ur helping others, ur T can live through u, continuing to help others. im just trying to help u move on but keep her in u like a blazing flame as a source of inspiration and determination. use this as a strength.go face the world with her in ur heart and mind. bc with her within u, u are never alone. i really hope this helped. best of luck to u.

I'm so sorry, pink. I'm sure she knew how much she inspired you at the time. Keep her as your role model......and take care.

how you doing Pinksoil? Miss ya...