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Old May 19, 2006, 05:22 AM
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My husband has just left for a weekend away. He will be back some time Sunday. It's only till Sunday I keep telling myself, but it's not working. I feel so sad and lonely and I can't stop crying. He's been gone about a half hour and I miss him fiercely already!
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Old May 19, 2006, 05:45 AM
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Oh, my friend...! Let us be here to ease your loneliness... So sorry that you have to go through this!
But you'll make it and on Sunday you'll be proud of yourself.

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Old May 19, 2006, 07:58 AM
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YOU are LOVED, by your husband and by US - while I cannot take the place of his arms around you, I can help ease the sorrow with many HUGS to your heart.... stay on here as much as you need and we will be here to pass every lonely minute with you.

I am getting a day to myself tomorrow (Saturday) while the guys go off to a paintball tournament, so please feel free to PM me all day (every minute of every hour) and I will be here, for YOU!

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Old May 19, 2006, 09:23 AM
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Old May 19, 2006, 02:56 PM
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Old May 19, 2006, 03:07 PM
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Thank you all my friends.

I wish I didn't feel like this. It is awful. I feel like a teenager again and I was only TOO happy to let those years go.

I will feel better on Sunday .... until then ......
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Old May 19, 2006, 03:16 PM
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You know, it has been more than 12 hours since he left. And I thought I would feel a bit better. I don't. I can only hope I die first. How does one get to love someone so much, that it consumes every moment of their life?
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Old May 19, 2006, 03:21 PM
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Hold your puppy and surrender to IT'S love!
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Old May 19, 2006, 03:31 PM
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Puppy is sort of in my arms, sleeping in front of the keyboard.

And yes, it is hard to NOT surrender to her love. She keeps trying to nibble my ears and my fingers as I type.

A pretty good replacement love, I think!
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Old May 20, 2006, 06:06 AM
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A new day, still feel miserable. But it is closer to tomorrow!
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Old May 20, 2006, 08:59 AM
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Remember that WE are here for YOU today....... PM me if you need - I have a day to myself, so I am available.

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{{{{{{{{{Sabrina}}}}}}}}}}}}} This has happened before and you got through it just fine. You'll be just fine this time, too. I've got faith in you! Utterly miserable!
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Old May 20, 2006, 12:08 PM
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Thank you Tomi. I remember that time and tried to find the thread but couldn't. Every time he goes away feels like the first time ever.
Of course I will never dare let him know just what his going away does to me.

It is Saturday night ....... I just need to get through tonight.
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Old May 20, 2006, 12:51 PM
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Huggies to ya............... my man works nights and i sit here alone watching tv and surfing the net but even thats getting boring, he does 12 hour shifts so that sucks. I generally stay up all night so i get to fall asleep with him and feel safe and secure just listening to him breathing next to me. Its hard hey??
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Old May 20, 2006, 02:49 PM
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Hi Sabrina, We don't know one another as I have not been posting much just kinda lurking. But your pain was matcfhing exactly how I feel at this moment. And I only have a few hours... go figure.
The town we live in is celebrating some kind of Norway holiday, huge parade right now outside my window and I know he is probably just across the street watching it himself ( he had to work) but the lonliness I feel is extreme... it seems like the whole world is partying and here I sit, cranking the radio just so I can't hear the fun....I am glad that you are holding on and sorry I rambled I guess I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone with this kind of feeling.
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Old May 20, 2006, 02:56 PM
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Thank you for posting! I appreciate you and your pain .... thank you again. My thoughts are with you!!!!
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Old May 20, 2006, 03:54 PM
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Oh goodness ........... I miss him so!!! Utterly miserable! Utterly miserable! Utterly miserable!
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Old May 20, 2006, 05:46 PM
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My Dear Friend.... I feel your pain and I understand it.... May I ask? - What is it that YOU are fearing / scared of while he is away, far from you and your sight.... I ask for I was once where you are at now and I had to learn to not FEAR, that he loved me no matter what and that he desired no other over me.

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Remember that all inner feelings (ones that leave us sick from with in) are controlled by what we think and believe to be true.... rather it is true or not.


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Old May 21, 2006, 03:48 AM
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I think my biggest fear is that something will happen to him. That he will have an accident or something and I will lose him. I know it is silly to fear what we have no control over. And I also know that the biggest thief of life is fear itself. But I remain so afraid of losing him.

I do know that he loves me, and I trust him so any other fears that I could allow to happen I have laid to rest.
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Old May 21, 2006, 07:33 AM
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Hey Sabrina,

Wish I had a nice logo to cheer you up a bit but I haven't figured out how to do that yet!

I'm sorry you've had such an awful weekend. Still, I think that if you miss someone as much as you have it shows that he is really special to you.

Luv and peas, goggles

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sabrina....i keep coming back to your post and want to respond to it but i'm afraid you will take my response the wrong way so please bear in mind that i'm writing this as someone who cares about you....why spend a whole weekend worrying?...why not look at it as time for yourself to indulge in selfish pleasures....read, go shopping....watch a couple of good movies.......i used to dread my time alone until i realized that i'm pretty good company to myself......lol.....just my thoughts sabrina....
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Old May 21, 2006, 10:42 AM
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Thanks Julia - No offence taken. The thing that makes me happy and that gives me total pleasure - is being with him - and looking after him. I have enough time for myself during the day when he is at work. I don't intentionally set out to worry, but the worry is pretty hard to stop.
Well, he is still not home but has just phoned for the first time since Friday evening and should be home in about 3 hours. The weekend passed, and as I knew I would, I survived. I watched a bit of TV. I made a big pot of soup. I did my nails. I played with my son. I colored in my mandalas. I read some of my book. I slept late. I enjoyed uninterrupted time on-line. And I worried! And I missed him. And now that he is almost home, I can start to really live again. I can be pretty good company to myself if I have to, but I would rather be with my husband, my lover, my best friend and my soul mate.

Thank you to all for weathering this storm with me.
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Old May 21, 2006, 06:29 PM
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Sabrina, is hubby home yet? If he is, I bet you are jumping for joy and quite possibly in his arms????
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Old May 22, 2006, 02:26 AM
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Hubby got home late on Sunday evening. Very tired and wet from a rainy weekend. We didn't really talk, but it was so nice to smell him, hear him, see him and just breath him in.

He is going away for an entire week soon so I guess it is safe to say that I'll be back - looking for lots more sympathy.
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Old May 22, 2006, 02:36 AM
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I worry too when my h is away, it's a scary feeling Utterly miserable! I am so glad your hubby is back and safe..... and don't they smell yummy Utterly miserable!

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