I cry every time a friend gets engaged

I feel like such a horrible person. Every time a friend of mine has gotten engaged in the last couple years, I react by bursting into tears. I find out via facebook or text, so I don't cry in front of them or anything, but I feel like I can't be completely happy for any of them because I'm so miserable and jealous. eVen right now, I hate that my roommate has a new boyfriend because he's here almost everyday. I can hear them laughing downstairs and it just stings even more. I hate that I'm alone, and it hurts so bad. I'm turning 26 this year just to give y'all some reference.

I want my own family so bad, but I don't know how it'll ever happen when I have a hard enough time even making friends. About 5 months ago, I moved across the country for grad school and I just really wanna go back to at least have my friends and my awesome therapist back. Ugh, what kind of person cries when their friends are happy?

I've had no luck meeting people at clubs (like organizations, not nightclubs), school, church, through friends, or even online. In fact, online dating is how I met the guys who sexually assaulted me and another guy who harassed me for months with disgusting, explicit texts, so there is no way in h*** I would ever do that again. People say I'm smart, pretty, caring, funny, etc., but obviously not if no one at all is interested.

Don't give up. It sounds pretty cliche but "There's someone for everybody" you'll have your moment.

You're not a horrible person. I have found myself becoming angry in similar situations. I don't like to admit this and I was worried about myself for feeling this way. I don't drive around knocking over mailboxes with a baseball bat or anything like that but sometimes I just feel angry when people get certain opportunities that I'm struggling to get. Of course I realize that I'm just angry with myself and I do have a bad habit of being too hard on myself...

I really am happy to see people getting on with their lives. It's just that sometimes I can't help but be angry with myself for not having done the same. But I do realize that there is no real ill will towards them and I would never say anything to make them feel badly.

Anyway being 26 isn't a big deal. People are just getting married at younger ages these days but 26 is certainly not an age where you need to feel worried.

dear rainboots,
beads totally hears how ur feelign and tells u that u not the only person what feels like this......beads is 50 and we do the same thing......we wish we had a nice husband that loved us aenuf to marry us etc.....................but it wont never happen we doubt it at this poin t anyways..............but u never know...........just keep reachign far the stars adn remain hopefull..........its all we can do ..................life does not always seem fair but it cuold be worser and u never know what God r whatever u beleive in has in store for u.............so please dont be to bitter and definitely dont give up!!!!!!
sendign peacefull nthunkeds ur way,
all of us beadies

A human one! Don't be too hard on yourself. I know you're happy for them too, even if sad for yourself. They can go together and it doesn't make you a horrible person!

I have similar - I am unable to have children and although it was wonderful to see my friends start their own families, it hurt like hell too and am still very jealous of them. There is no answer really, other than trying to look on the good side, keeping myself busy with other things, and trying to stay positive. I can't change my broken body, but you can change your situation. Try and get out more, go to groups, night classes and make friends. Find other single people, and while its fair enough online dating isn't for you, but are there any events near you that do speed dating or something that's fun and may help?

Don't give up.. and although I may sound like a boring old cliche auntie, 26 is young and plenty of time yet. I met my partner in my mid 30's.

Hugs.

Thanks, but that's not necessarily true. Plenty of people remain single and plenty of people get divorced after the settle down, so I could still end up alone :/

Thank you everyone for the support. I still feel awful though

I just wanted to say, I understand how you feel. My issue isn't with marriage, though, it's with school. I'm also turning 26 this year, and do not have a degree of any sort. And not for lack of trying either. I've been in school since I was 18, but my depression and anxiety just keep holding me back. But I keep trying...

I know it's not exactly the same situation, but I get so upset and frustrated when I see how great everyone is doing -- "Real" jobs, second degrees, being financially independent of everyone, contributing to the world. And then there's me, and I hate to tell my college friends "Yeah... I still don't have a degree yet..." I've spent many nights in tears over this.

What has helped me the most is don't go on facebook. Just don't do it. Avoid it like the plague. And just focus on you. You have to do what is right for you, focus on getting yourself to where you want to be with your life and with yourself, and things will eventually fall into place. I truly believe you will have your chance at love. And I think all those things are true about you, even if the people around you haven't figured it out yet. That's their issue, not yours, even though it still hurts.

It's a real bummer going through life alone Rainboots, no matter how anybody tries to slice it. Like you said also, there may not be somebody for everybody. I'm 34 and still being solo used to bug me, a lot, but not so much any more. It will always hurt a little bit to be on your own, but try not to let it ruin everything else. In the end, you are still only 26. And I believe that Jesus is a friend that sticks closer than a brother, or sister, and he doesn't turn anyone away.

Dear Rainboot87,

I experienced the same feeling with you. But it's not marriage, I hadn't fall in love with anyone since last year. Now I'm 20 years old. I felt so jealous of all my friends who has their own boyfriends, even though I really liked my best friend, he is the best person to me, however, he didn't accept my love. We are still best friends for over 4 years.

I chose to wait for my right person. I met him last year. In fact, we are having problems

I just want to advice you that Be Patient, Don't Give Up. 26 years old is not old to marry and love. My mother had her first love when she was 30, after one year, she got married to my dad now. They live together in 20+ years. It means that Patience always guides you to the happy horizon.

Believe me, you will meet a nice guy, a good husband who gets along with you, is ready to committed to you.

Hugs for you

thanks, I appreciate the support.