[Yismymindblank12]

Moved, no friends, don't have any way to meet new people, no volunteering events, my old friends 30 miles away minimum radius don't talk to me anymore. All my friends are gone, I am sick too sick to go out anymore. I just want to die, I don't have any friends, **** people. I almost got hypothermia and my legs from my condition hurt like ****ing hell and had 4 hours of paralysis to actually move my body fully a bit again, but now very stiff and in pain. I hate my life

[manwithnofriends]

How long do you think it will take before you can move again?

[avlady]

i know how you feel, i have few friends except my husband and son. alot of my neighbor friends got divorced and moved away within the past year, so i am basically by myself throughout the whole day. i do like having time to myself as i am schitzoaffective, and have PTSD and bipolar, but even then, i am way too lonely. this forum place is my lifeline for now. hopefully neighbors will move in but i'm not even sure i could handle someone moving away again.

[arachnophobia.kid]

sounds like you are not happy because there are no people in your life but at the same time it also sounds like you're not interested in people either, i'm confused by that.

i'm really sorry for the pain that your in, both physical and emotional.

[allme]

Sorry you feel so alone I feel lonely sometimes too. A lot of my friends have moved away or we just don't speak anymore. Maybe once your pain eases you can look at taking local classes or something? These are things I keep telling myself I will do but it is easier said than done.

[Yismymindblank12]

I'm moving now, but barely. My legs hurt a lot, and today I'm shooken up I don't know, but I think this guy was attempted to either rob me in my house or shoot me and run. I don't know, that was a big red flag, I didn't see a weapon, but he was looking as if he was concealing something in his jacket. I'm glad I didn't answer the door, I'm just paranoid. I'm stuck and my parents just resting around. I'm trying not to die. I'm just going to have a knife in my room and use the best of my fighting abilities if this guy comes back and I'll call the cops if so. I am not afraid to take a life and defend myself, but if he comes back I'll give him a run for his money. I'm just done with this eventful week and all my friends do is ignore me. **** this town.

[Yismymindblank12]

I will not trust anyone for anything anymore. I don't find it useful. If I choose to die alone in the woods it should be no other person's problem, but mine. I don't like anyone, I hate it, they want to take what you have and leave you dry or kill you when they have the chance. I am done, with this stay positive crap when I'm being treated like **** and left to rot. **** you stupid friends who don't care, but you're parties and your girls and the crap you escape in your head. I just want the simple pleasure of never being stressed wherever I go. I can't feel safe in my home, my sleep, my thoughts, no one. I hate being here, for thinking like this, I'm treated like I should be locked away and thrown away the key if someone should be locked up is the people who think neglect is ok. **** humanity

[arachnophobia.kid]

These feelings you have towards humanity, would you say they are constant? Can you recall a time when things were different?

I hope you can find a way out of this my friend.

[Yismymindblank12]

I've only had these feelings before being sexually assaulted regularly by people I was close with constantly. When I did it was short lived. My heart is gone, I mean I don't like trust people. I know I'm a woman deep down in this male body. I'm not ugly looking or anything like that, it's a joke when I'm accused because of my body for no reason the logic is because I have a **** and balls. Seriously that's some sick cowardly unintelligent **** right there. I've been done, if I was sexually attracted to men I'd be gay and try my luck, because gay guys try to creep on me and it's makes me feel uncomfortable. I never have feelings for a girl truly where I get crazy and act like an idiot not in a negative way but just do stupid things say something stupid all the time because I really am charmed by her person nothing else. It never happens, I got screwed over today and I didn't need this. I was bout to break it off and wasn't expected a surprise but I tried I tried I tried so hard to feel safe with this, but being beaten by my last ex when she is drunk and wants to party and if I'm not physically well to party I get hit or she ****s other dudes around me. I hate this stupid place. I hate putting anything to anyone, I mean I've been tortured physically sexually and emotionally enough. I'm more than depressed now, I'm not getting out of her I can't put on once of trust or love in anyone for five minutes I'm assertive and not a push over this girl thinks she can hit me and get away with it in public earlier this morning because ik she likes me now, but this is ridiculous this me me me society has left people who give and care to people without expecting anything in return to go crazy and end up dead in a ditch because I get too drunk and I died so they throw away my body so they don't get in trouble with the law or their parents or college. Seriously is this what I tried to work so hard to get a better life for these stupid *** mother ****ers who are ignorant with half educated internet ******** and not have any serious social skills except ****ing and dying from drugs. I'm flat out done. I put too much time an energy to make anything work and worth it. I live with every day if I have any feelings, I won't run and hide I'll stand up to them, but if they get mad and think I'm too difficult and not convenient for their blankly irrelevant fairy tale they can **** off on acid or something and play make believe with someone else. I may sound like some jealous **** head who can't get any love when he needs it and just expect too much when I just ask for a hug and person a ****ing physical presence for once without feeling like I'm the only human dead on this planet to these idiots. I do me and just say **** everyone. I don't care what happens to people my age, I don't care why should I care bout people who never take care of themselves or anyone else especially. ****ing dead beat people. God damn. Done angry rant now

[niceguy]

Ok. Sounding like a tough place to be in. Yet, really I do think you care. I am sure you wouldn't be so wound up - If you didn't. Though I have to wonder why you are with anyone who treats you like ****.
If your not feeling them. Send them packing.
I understand it's not fair- but everyone has so much baggage these days, that it's probably not directed at you, If they are having their own issues.
Just take It easy, and virtual hug sent your way now all the best.
For what it's worth. I care.