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I grew up in dysfunctional family. There was no physical or sexual abuse to my knowledge, but communication failure and emotional neglect did exist to some extent. I couldn't wait to get away from home as I found my parents to be overbearing and controlling. If I wanted to grow up, I had to get away.
I went so far that I moved to a different continent and also made sure that I "burned my bridges" so there was no easy way for me to return. I also cut most ties with my family back home. I haven't been back home in several years and I talk to my parents once or twice a year and only for a few minutes. I know that they want more contact and they have asked me to come home for a visit. They email and text me once a month, but I usually never respond. I guess that I'm a bad son who neglect his parents needs. I just have no desire to talk to them. I do not hate them. They are decent people despite their flaws. I also find them reasonable tolerable and I wouldn't have any problems hanging out with them if I had to. I just can't muster up the energy required for me to reconnect with them and travel home for a visit. I would be fine seeing them for a few days, but I would also be perfectly fine with not seeing them again in this lifetime. I know they are my parents, but for at least a decade I have had closer relationships with random Facebook acquaintances than I have had with my parent. I'm not sure where I'm going with my ramblings, I guess that I want to know if my attitudes and behavior toward my parents is a sign of me lacking empathy and that I should be concerned about my emotional detachment to them. |
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I think, given your childhood, you just didn't bond closely with them. And sometimes it takes years for us to relate to our parents. Sometimes it is best for folks with toxic parents to stay away. However, in your case, a response now and then might be nice for them--and for you to see if they respond in a way that's not hurtful to you.
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People talk endlessly about forgiving but, I'd have a hard time forgiving someone who REFUSES to accept their failures and APOLOGIZE for damaging me when I had no defense. The day my parents ever apologize to me MIGHT BE the day that I forgive them but not before! good luck, jim ![]() |
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I think your feelings are natural for someone who grew up with controlling and overbearing parents-- and I share your worries that I am in the wrong for doing what I can to establish distance between me and my mother rather than the close relationship I know she wants.
Is there a reason your parents have not visited you? I would wonder about that. Are their emails to you guilt trips? |
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I had a toxic mother. I broke it off with her about 12 years ago. Now she is in hospice and needs me to handle her financial affairs. I check on her to make sure she is kept clean and fed and treated well in her group home. I make sure the hospice firm is doing its job. I am exceptionally honest in dealing with her money. Other than that, I owe her nothing. I don't feel guilty at all for not visiting her. It was her choice when she abused me.
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I noticed that my mom had to mention that she are using a picture of me and my daughter as the background picture on her smartphone so she could see my face every single day. Maybe I'm just too hyper-vigilant, but I perceived that as an attempt by her emotionally manipulate me. I feel that she was an emotional manipulator when I grew up and it didn't help me with the issues that still haunts me decades later. Quote:
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I'm the youngest child and the FAVORITE in the family. Yes, my family was dysfunctional enough for the favorite child to take the first plane he could find out of the country just to get away. Quote:
My wife have spent a couple of months with my parents, my sister, and my brother a few years ago. Her simple evaluation of my family was: "I am sorry to say this, but your family is F**KED UP". Last edited by Andropov; Sep 06, 2014 at 03:54 PM. |
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I think the problem is that your parents lack empathy for you. Given all the detail you provided about their current behavior alone, it seems reasonable to me that you would not go out of your way to contact them or comply with their implied or explicit demands.
If they really wanted to see you, they could visit - and thankfully they don't, right?! I found reading about narcissism and other personality disorders helped me understand that I wasn't just crazy to feel resentful about the way I grew up - and helped quell qualms about distancing myself from my parents. I no longer speak to my father and I avoid prolonged contact with my mother - I can take her in 90 minute bursts. I also feel like my dysfunctional family really screwed up my ability to make friends too, btw -- and I was just wondering why one of my brothers didn't seem to have that problem and remembered that he got kicked out when he was 16! It's definitely frustrating trying to learn those social skills as an adult. Any minimal amount of contact you give your parents is a gift to them. They're lucky you read any of their emails if they are just guilt trips. |
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Today I was officially diagnosed with Asperger's. It explains my inability to connect with my peers in my childhood and my social ineptness. It also makes me even more upset about my parents. I was bullied in school, socially withdrawn, barely able to make the grades and even failing some of them, and I had quirks that made me different from my peers. I was drowning, but neither my parents nor any teachers ever threw me a lifeline. Nobody helped me with my homework, nobody stopped the bullying, nobody helped with me with basic social skills, and nobody ever asked if anything was wrong with me and if I needed help. I desperately needed help, but never got it.
I don't think my parents were intentionally neglectful or abusive, I just believe that they were unsuited to be parents. |
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