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Old Feb 18, 2015, 11:27 PM
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So this is the day that I was afraid for, for the last 2.5 years.. I went to the mall and I saw her. I thought I died. My heart drop to the floor, i started panicking. I could not breath. I went completely nuts. I was in this store and she was on the other side of the store, so i almost ran out of the store and ran outside.. heavy breathing and stuff. I don't want her to see what a mess I am. it was horrible. I'm so glad she did not see me. But i'm afraid every time I go out that I will see her. I never ever had such a bad panic attack in my life.. exhausted.
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Old Feb 21, 2015, 01:01 PM
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Oh my gosh, im so sorry, I hope you are or will be ok real soon.
Thanks alot darling!! how are you?
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Old Feb 22, 2015, 12:31 PM
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Currently reading "Lesbian Crushes at School: A Diary on Growing Up Gay in the Eighties" by Natasha Holme. It's so good. It describes a girl who is obsessed with her female teacher. Basically the character is just like me. I can relate to it so bad. You must really read it if you struggle with obsessions and so.
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Old Feb 22, 2015, 12:59 PM
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Currently reading "Lesbian Crushes at School: A Diary on Growing Up Gay in the Eighties" by Natasha Holme. It's so good. It describes a girl who is obsessed with her female teacher. Basically the character is just like me. I can relate to it so bad. You must really read it if you struggle with obsessions and so.

Sorry you had to deal with seeing the person. Sorry. I have been obsessing over someone over few years, I then even attempted to date him
Which was a horrible idea that ended ugly so if I would see him anywhere now I would pass out or have panic attack too. Omg I wish I could give u a hug hang in
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Old Feb 22, 2015, 01:04 PM
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Sorry you had to deal with seeing the person. Sorry. I have been obsessing over someone over few years, I then even attempted to date him
Which was a horrible idea that ended ugly so if I would see him anywhere now I would pass out or have panic attack too. Omg I wish I could give u a hug hang in
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thanks alot wish i could give u a hug too! and i'm sorry for you! do you want to tell a bit more about your story? x
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Old Feb 22, 2015, 01:34 PM
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thanks alot wish i could give u a hug too! and i'm sorry for you! do you want to tell a bit more about your story? x

Not really thanks I've been sharing about it before when it was bad but now it is ok. I usually don't dwell too long but I do for awhile so I can relate to your feelings. I would have a very hard time if I saw that person now, i totally know how you feel hang in there

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Old Feb 22, 2015, 01:35 PM
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Not really thanks I've been sharing about it before when it was bad but now it is ok. I usually don't dwell too long but I do for awhile so I can relate to your feelings. I would have a very hard time if I saw that person now, i totally know how you feel hang in there

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i understand! thanks alot. stay strong
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Old Feb 26, 2015, 01:15 PM
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I want to stop obsessing and daydreaming about her so bad. But I think I know what my problem is. When I try to stop daydreaming about her, I have nothing to do .. Like, in dull or tough moments I escape to this fantasy world. Or when I'm mad, I daydream that she comforts me. I am very lonely, have no close people around me. If i stop daydreaming and so, I feel even more lonely at those moments..
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Old Feb 28, 2015, 03:04 AM
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Did not daydream/think alot about her yesterday. Its a start..
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Old Mar 01, 2015, 10:15 AM
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Day 3. Im ok.no daydreams or stuff
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Old Mar 01, 2015, 10:32 AM
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Good. Glad to hear it. Hang in there

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Old Mar 02, 2015, 09:45 AM
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Good. Glad to hear it. Hang in there

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Old Mar 07, 2015, 07:45 AM
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9 days, no daydreams
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Old Mar 10, 2015, 11:02 PM
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I must look for that books, thanks. Im glad its helping you.

14 days till I meet my man!! Omg!

9 days without daydreams, wow. I cant go9 seconds! Especially with all the new tour photos...
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Old Mar 11, 2015, 11:38 AM
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Dreamed about her last night. ew.. hate dreaming about her

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Old Mar 11, 2015, 11:39 AM
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I must look for that books, thanks. Im glad its helping you.

14 days till I meet my man!! Omg!

9 days without daydreams, wow. I cant go9 seconds! Especially with all the new tour photos...
only 14 days? Thats great!! Enjoy it
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Old Mar 13, 2015, 11:44 AM
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Everything is going really bad in my life right now and I feel such a strong urge to daydream about her that she's comforting me and so. I'm a mess.
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Everything is going really bad in my life right now and I feel such a strong urge to daydream about her that she's comforting me and so. I'm a mess.

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Old Mar 13, 2015, 11:51 AM
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Old Mar 24, 2015, 01:18 PM
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I must look for that books, thanks. Im glad its helping you.

14 days till I meet my man!! Omg!

9 days without daydreams, wow. I cant go9 seconds! Especially with all the new tour photos...
how was it dear?
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Old Mar 27, 2015, 02:30 PM
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Hi Elin95,

Just wanted to let you know that I am also struggling with this. And I am middle-aged! I have been in therapy for the last several months. The therapy is helping me understand it but I am still not over the obsession. I also struggled with it when I was a teenager. After several years I managed to rid myself of that particular obsession.

Just wanted to let you know you're not alone!
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Old Mar 31, 2015, 03:36 PM
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Hi Elin95,

Just wanted to let you know that I am also struggling with this. And I am middle-aged! I have been in therapy for the last several months. The therapy is helping me understand it but I am still not over the obsession. I also struggled with it when I was a teenager. After several years I managed to rid myself of that particular obsession.

Just wanted to let you know you're not alone!
Hello! Thank you so much for your comment. do you want to tell me a bit more about your story? Hugs and take care!
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Old Apr 02, 2015, 06:09 PM
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how was it dear?


It was amazing!! They were so sweet (and gorgeous!!) And I told them that they saved my life, and they kept thanking me. I'm still on a total high and can't believe it! The concert was so amazing too. I'm even more crazy in love now!! I'm going to pm you my photo with them. Thanks for being excited with me!!

How are you doing now yourself?

Miri22, I wish you well too, I'm glad you're getting help with it.

I wish I could get back into therapy, not for this, just general. You know in 3 years I have never even once mentioned my Bill obsession to any of my doctors. I'm afraid they'll think I'm too crazy, or worse, try to take him away from me. I need him, it may seem strange, but he's all I've got.
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It was amazing!! They were so sweet (and gorgeous!!) And I told them that they saved my life, and they kept thanking me. I'm still on a total high and can't believe it! The concert was so amazing too. I'm even more crazy in love now!! I'm going to pm you my photo with them. Thanks for being excited with me!!

How are you doing now yourself?

Miri22, I wish you well too, I'm glad you're getting help with it.

I wish I could get back into therapy, not for this, just general. You know in 3 years I have never even once mentioned my Bill obsession to any of my doctors. I'm afraid they'll think I'm too crazy, or worse, try to take him away from me. I need him, it may seem strange, but he's all I've got.
Ahh i'm so happy for you!!! sounds great!! and the pic is lovely! Hows the daydreaming going? X
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Old Apr 09, 2015, 12:54 PM
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Maybe I know why I can't stop daydreaming about her.

I guess I just don't want to let her go. I have no one in my life. i don't have her either, but I can make myself believe that's she's still with me when I escape to my daydream.

If I don't do this, I have nothing.
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