[dragonphoto]

I met with my T today and he said that the moves that I am making are the best thing for me right now. I also am worried about my marriage. I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish there was a magic wand or something. I just wish there was something that I could say to my wife so she knew ME again. I know I need to take time for myself, but I dreadfully miss my family. I have never said a word of harm to my wife nor have I ever raised my hand in anger. I am just at a loss, how long till I know that I am better, how many visits, how many co-pays? I know I feel better, I know a weight has been lifted of my shoulders, I know that I am that better person now. It is so hard to be strong, it is so hard to keep my composure. I just wish no I WANT my family back. They are my everything, my wife included, ever since the day I met her. Since the day she said I do. Thanks for letting me vent.

[sabby]

(((((((((dragonphoto))))))))))

The changes you are making in your life are wonderful. I'm sure you feel a huge sense of relief by battling your demons and winning. Unfortunately, when a relationship has had problems for a time and it has come to the point of separation, it takes time for the other partner to actually "see" and "believe" in the changes the other one has made. That old saying "Actions speak louder than words" is so true in many circumstances.

We can say all we want to try to convince those we love and have wronged (truly or perceived), but until they see that there has been real change over a period of time, it's hard for that partner to accept it, even if they want to believe before the proof is there.

The one thing I can say is that there is always hope. And for all the deep inward changes you are making...things will work out for you for the better. Try to be patient...with yourself and with your wife and family.

Wishing you all the best!

Hugsss
sabby