No one believes me.

My family thinks I am delusional. I know the police are following me, they send helicopters to view my apartment every day and every night. They follow me to the store, they send spies to watch me everywhere I go. They bugged my house, they hacked into my computer...

They're everywhere and I can't convince anyone that this is true.

I feel like it's pulling me apart from everyone I love because I don't know if I can trust them or not and now I feel like it's getting to the point where people I love are pulling away from me. I don't know what to do.

I don't believe I'm delusional, I know the police are following me. Voices keep telling me that they're going to arrest me for various reasons and that they are going to kill me. I can't explain this to anyone without sounding like an absolute nutter, though...

Why are the police following you? Have you done something to warrant this behavior from them?

I am a part of a government experiment,
I don't know if this is the reason the police want me, but I know that they are watching me. I don't know why they don't arrest me already, though

Is there anyone besides your family you trust to talk to? Do you have a therapist? Is this something you feel you can discuss with them? Be assured that you have patient confidentiality unless you were to say you wanted to hurt someone else. It might be helpful for you to talk with them about it as well, to see what helpful things they may have to say.

I agree with your family. For one thing it would cost a fortune for the police to send helicopters to spy on you. It doesn't make sense. I believe you are having paranoid delusions. You truly need to speak with a medical professional at this point, before things get any worse.

I am very sorry you are suffering, Esmme.
I think you are asking us to assist you in getting relief.
I also believe you could benefit from professional help.
If this gets too overwhelming, go to an ER and explain your situation.
Please seek help from a mental health provider.

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing?


WC

Hi Essme. I have no doubt you're convinced that what you're saying is real and that you believe all those things are actually happening to you, but I'm certain it's your schizophrenia distorting ordinary things into something else. Hang in there and try not to worry, though. Talk to your doctor again, your therapist, and let them help you overcome the symptoms you've described. You're doing very well, and you'll get through this.

I just moved to California, so right now I don't have a therapist yet
I will tell them about this when I do find one

I think that is a good thing. I did notice in your new person post that you deal with schizophrenia, and it is especially important to find someone professional to talk to.

In the meantime, we are always here to talk to, and we welcome you! Well...a lot of people here live in the USA I have noticed, and so it seems to be very quiet at night (when I usually tend to be most awake and active) But, otherwise, we are always here.

Hi. I understand you are finding it difficult right now and wish the people around you would be more supportive. I am sorry you are not going to get validation of your beliefs from me as it seems clear to me something is wrong.

First. I want you to reread your own words and insert the names of a friend or loved one instead of your own. How believable would this be to you if a friend were saying this and not yourself? How reasonable real does this sound to you.

Secondly, I want you to consider that those who love you want to help. They have more of an interest in helping you than in hurting you.

Finally, why would you be followed and what proof do you have that this is actually happening?

I don't know your history regarding diagnosis and treatment. Have you in fact been seeing help and been under treatment in the past? I see you have recently undertaken a move. That is a big change in your life and is likely the trigger to your present mental state. Are you taking your medication?

So here is what I'd like you to do...

Find a doctor. Find the phone number for mobile crisis. Reach out to a friend or family member. Ask for help.

I am pretty sure that you can trust your friends and families. Furthermore, that the concerns they have about you are very correct.

Please see a doctor as soon as possible. If you cannot find therapist or psychiatrist see any doctor. Are you taking your meds regularly? If not, it explains what is going on
with you. Please seek help

To answer some questions,
Yes I have been taking medication almost regularly
I forget to take some doses, but I have been taking it when I remember

I'm currently trying to figure out how to get insurance in this state, I receive disability, so it's been difficult trying to find a doctor because a lot of them won't talk to me without insurance

The whole situation is causing me so much stress

It doesn't help me with the police

I understand that the police being after you is very real to you, and that is scary.

I think what would help ground you is to think, perhaps even make a list: Why would the police be after you? Is there any real, valid reason why they would want to chase you in particular? Does this seem like something that is rational, and grounded in reality? Have you committed a crime? What is it about you that they may be wanting to listen in to or spy on? The answers may help to ground you in reality, especially if you write them out, and carry them with you.

I am on disability & being on disability you have Medicare coverage. It is an automatic part of disabiluty. That coverage stays the same no matter what state you live in. It is the same for me niw after leaving Calif as it was all tbe years I lived there.

You can find medicare providers & if your income is liw enough apply for Medical to supplument the medicare.

There are police all over Southern Calif. It doesnt mean they are after you. They normally fly heliocopters in neighborhoods of high crime. They did that back in the 1960's when I was growing up & lived with my parents. Thats JUST NORMAL southern Calif. Being new there yiu may just not understand that & your schizophrenia plays with your mind making you think they are after you when they are just a normal part of the environment that has been going on long before you moved there