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My mom said I could come round for dinner tonight. I have no money so eating there is a welcome relief from eating the same **** every day but there are always other things.
Like now, I shaved my head. I'm losing my hair and also just like short hair. I know when I turn up, she's going to be shocked/horrified, and keep commenting on it, and then eventually concede that it's ok, it'll grow back anyway. I know she'll never change, so I've just got to deal with it. It sounds really small, I know, but there are so many little things like this, that I know she's going to do/say, and it makes me withdraw so I just don't have to deal with it. Same as when she "asks" me questions, like, "you don't want to do that, do you?" "You wouldn't want that, would you?" It would be so much more straightforward saying: I don't want you to do that. I don't want that. This actually creates so much self-doubt because then I don't even know how to do what I really want, because it feels like the wrong thing. |
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