[wickedwings]

i am in a tremendous amount of suffering. why? if jesus died on the cross for our sins, why am i suffering? am i destined to suffer for the rest of my living days? so many of us are living in hell, whether due to conditions of environment, through others' abusive methods, or by illness. mine is by my illness. i am also treatment-resistant, meaning that i can't find relief. i prayed and cried. i gave myself up to God. still, i am stuck here, suffering so much. there are those around me who love me, and what do i have to offer? i'm like in a vegatative state with my illness. i reach out to offer my love to others, and it's painfully hard. so hard i cry. they come to me, and i can only love with my mind. my cat, thunder, is pawing on my face, hoping for my attention. i give him a pet and scratch for as long as he likes. still, i suffer. the pain of life is tremendous, even though there's nothing wrong with my life. i wish to be healed. i pray as often as i can to heal. when i'm enpty on hope, i pray. i give myself up to God. what more do i do to help myself? i pray for a miracle. i am bleeding tears. my tear flood my life and my soul. i need a miracle to help me out of my illness. is this too much to ask, especially when medicine cannot help me anymore and consider me a hopeless case? i pray.

praying for you ((((WW)))))))

[TYMBERWOLV]

Wickedwings,

I do not want to turn this thread into a debate about what you wrote about.

Faith is following God even though you may not get what you have prayed for . Some People are destined to have bad things fall upon them more than others . It doesnt have anything to do with a lack of faith . In my beliefs sometimes things can happen to get your attention to change your pathway. There might be something that you need to chanage or make different . I know that it is hard and that your mental illness has debiliatated you. I hope n pray that you find your way and keep looking toward the Lord for your answers

T

[SeptemberMorn]

Truly, the Bible says "By His stripes we are healed." Exactly how that healing manifests itself is completely up to God. It may take us a while to recognize it because we think differently than God does.

I have found that when I totally give up my will and my ideas, then I get out of God's way so that He can work HIS will. Wonder of wonders! It works so much better.

Granted, I don't know where you are in your walk with Jesus. I may be all wet and totally off. If so, please forgive me. Just wanted to share my experiences with you.

[wickedwings]

yeah, that's what i thought as well. it is totally up to God. i totally asked for guidance to find healing. i don't know where this will lead me to, but i have faith. faith that i will not be given more than i can handle and that all of my needs will be met. faith that something or someone will be able to help me heal from my illness. i pray that i can find it soon. thank you for your prayers, also. and i pray for you as well.

you... my friend... will remain in my prayers.....

[recluse1]

((((((((WW)))))))))) I pray that God will have a compassionate heart and look upon you with mercy. bless you with His grace and touch you with His healing light. May He keep one hand upon you shoulder and guide you onto His intended path for your life.

much love
recluse1

[jefftele]

hi i often asked the same questiosns , all i've found are pointers along the way one that sticks with me is a speech given by the last pope john paul 'today i make an urgent plea to this nation, do not turn away your sick and elderly, do not turn away from the handicapped and the dying,do not push them to the margins of society for if you do you will fail to understand that they represent an important truth they teach us weakness is a creative part of human living and that suffering can be embraced with no loss of dignity without the presence of these people in your midst you might be tempted to think of health strength power as the only important values to be pursued in life but the wisdom of christ and the power of christ are to be seen in the weakness of those who share his sufferings'

apologies if you are not a christian but i think he talked a lot of sense

[wickedwings]

thank you all so much. ((((hugs))))