answered prayer question might be a trigger

Ok, this all started years ago after sitting in therapy for several months and I guess the counselor did not know what to do with me, so he comes up with "we need to get to the root" of the problem. Having absolutely no idea what he meant let alone there could be a "root" to whatever was ailing me..My parents were great. I had a wonderful childhood. So I prayed "light heartily" for whatever the root might be, to be revealedto me.

Well, some where down the line, memories of being in the neighbor's basement surfaced. I thought "holy cow" but I didn't say cow, anyway, I said out loud, "I was molested" . I couldn't not believe it. I was shattered.. I was angry at God for shining the light on this dark secret.

I don't know if my prayer was answered or I was just open to whatever memories that might surface. Anyway, I sense there is more. Something else happened. I very well might be l00% wrong. I mean, what else could there be? Isn't what I remembered enough??

So, I thought, since life has been rather quiet lately and I am not all stressed out and with all this "quiet" time, maybe I should pray about it. There seems to be something "just" not quite right. Something is going on inside and I want it to stop.

I am concerned if I do pray and some God awful thing surfaces, I again will be furious with God. I know! Nobody can answer this. Only I can. Just there are times when "adult" rational thinking flies right out the window and this childish behavior/thinking surfaces. And I don't want to turn my back on God again... but then maybe... an answered prayer might help?

Again.. I know! Nobody can really answer how I may react or what I might do. I am just getting this off my chest I guess. So my mind can rest and maybe have a productive day...

They say "the truth will set you free"... I think I am ready to be free.................................................................

Radio,

That must have been horrible that you had to recall such harsh memories . But when I think of it possibly God was showing within that you can get over whatever has been causing you from getting closer to him. He guides us in so many ways sometimes we just do not see where we are going but there is an ultimate plan. Yeah the apprehension would be there for me also about praying for this revelation.

On the other side of the coin if this is causing a rift in your life then possibly God wants you to get past the past and LET GO LET GOD handle your problems for you



T

You made a good point. I too believe God wants me to get past the past and let go... It is time to let go....

Ty Tymberwolv.. You got me thinking... Maybe that is what that "nudge" inside is.. God nudging me to just let go.. Besides, whatever is holding me back, surely can not be worse than what I have already remembered. Time to face my demons I guess. I just hope they don't bite..

Sometimes we ask for things in prayer and as in your case find or have things revealed that thinking back we think we did not really want to know. This is not a time to be angry with God, it is a time to praise Him. I believe that often things are opened to us when we are ready and able to handle things that have happened to us in the past. Lots of times we need to continue the counselling to learn how to deal with this new found knowledge and how it applies to our life now. I like the way that counseling shows us that there are four sides to every coin, meaning four ways of looking at things that did not occur to us at the time. Kind of like taking the blinders off, as we may only see one way ahead, when really there are many ways to handle problems. Going to God, in prayer helps us over the hills and bumps, and makes life easier to bear.