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Angelique67 · Oct 12, 2015, 06:58 PM

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Originally Posted by Shmooey

I'm SHMOOKITTY on Sparkpeople if you decide to join and want a friend.

Oh, I just looked it up! Thank you! I still plan to cheat a bunch with my upcoming grocery order because I'm dying for cookies and ice cream, but maybe I'll get inspired to join after I eat some guilty foods. I really shouldn't but I want them.

CrazyLo · Oct 12, 2015, 07:03 PM

I'm just really depressed these days. I'm trying to lose weight as well. I am getting a bit obsessed though. I am counting my calories, the exact amount, and exercising a lot. I have lost a little weight but I have a lot more to lose. If I'm not exercising or eating, then I'm sleeping. Can't figure out if it's anemia or just part of my depression, or both.

Christopher1990 · Oct 12, 2015, 10:54 PM

starting a new job next week part-time after being off work for 1 year. a bit nervous, but it shouldnt be too stressful on me. im sick of doing nothing all day laying around the house, it should be good for me. sleep wise i wake up like 5times a night its a problem but i end up sleeping like 10hrs a night.

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Zeus123 · Oct 12, 2015, 10:59 PM

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starting a new job next week part-time after being off work for 1 year. a bit nervous, but it shouldnt be too stressful on me. im sick of doing nothing all day laying around the house, it should be good for me. sleep wise i wake up like 5times a night its a problem but i end up sleeping like 10hrs a night.

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Congrats! Good luck to you that sounds terrific! 😊

Atypical_Disaster · Oct 13, 2015, 09:18 AM

I'm taking two antipsychotics right now because my psychiatrist took one look at me on Friday and said I was full blown manic with psychosis and that if I wasn't sleeping by Sunday to go to the hospital because she said my behavior was putting my life in danger and I wasn't thinking right and all that ****. I'm sleeping more, more than what was three hours a night for the past several weeks so that's an improvement but I'm still up and well at least I have insight into that now. I'm not doing really dangerous **** anymore but yeah I'm still bouncing off the walls and I feel beyond fantastic, LOL. But I'm sleeping, not being reckless anymore, not psychotic anymore as far as I know which I had better not be as I'm taking two ****ing AP's I'd better not be psychotic like damn seriously.

Taking two AP's feels like overkill to me but I can't deny that it's helping me sleep and keeping me from being too out of control... I ****ing hate taking meds but I'm too self-aware to deny that I need them. ****ing hell... Oh well!

CrazyLo · Oct 13, 2015, 11:19 AM

What would I give to feel manic right now. I know I shouldn't wish that on myself because when I'm manic, I eventually become paranoid...but right now the good part of the mania sounds so much better than the depression I'm in right now. This is my time of year for depression, though. Usually I start to feel manic again by February, with the oncoming Spring and nicer weather. My pdoc (I have like 3 pdocs right now...long story). Anyway, one of the pdocs thinks I also have seasonal affective disorder. Probably true.

I think I found out why I'm so sleepy all of the time. Apparently my vigorous exercise is wearing out my body, since I haven't been exercising for very long. So hopefully this is a temporary side effect of exercise.

Oct 13, 2015, 12:27 PM

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I'm taking two antipsychotics right now because my psychiatrist took one look at me on Friday and said I was full blown manic with psychosis and that if I wasn't sleeping by Sunday to go to the hospital because she said my behavior was putting my life in danger and I wasn't thinking right and all that ****. I'm sleeping more, more than what was three hours a night for the past several weeks so that's an improvement but I'm still up and well at least I have insight into that now. I'm not doing really dangerous **** anymore but yeah I'm still bouncing off the walls and I feel beyond fantastic, LOL. But I'm sleeping, not being reckless anymore, not psychotic anymore as far as I know which I had better not be as I'm taking two ****ing AP's I'd better not be psychotic like damn seriously.

Taking two AP's feels like overkill to me but I can't deny that it's helping me sleep and keeping me from being too out of control... I ****ing hate taking meds but I'm too self-aware to deny that I need them. ****ing hell... Oh well!

i was sleeping 3 hours maybe every night for several months and taking naps when i could. recently (like the last week) i seem to be sleeping more and i feel sluggish asf. i hate it. i can't imagine being on two AP's anymore let alone any meds. i'm still med-free which is a struggle but i get through it. i am glad you have avoided hospitalization. mood swings are possibly the worst; for me anyway. i do enjoy the high far more than the low, seem to be swinging low lately. i do enjoy psychosis and paranoia; however i know when i need to force myself to sleep. mood is all over the place overall. pretty lonely these days; but i deal with it. loool. fml.

excited for halloween. suppose to go to this maze/haunted ship thing down at the queen mary in long beach, ca with my friend and her husband. should be fun, although her sister bought her cirque du soleil tickets on the same night we had planned to go soooo dunno when were suppose to go now. yep.

Zeus123 · Oct 13, 2015, 12:36 PM

My anxiety is getting the best of me. I wake up at least twice at night and pace around. During the day, I try to 'function' but my anxiety stops me. I keep thinking something wrong is going to happen. It freaks me out. This makes it hard to be with family or friends. I keep quiet bc I don't want to be the Debbie Downer...like always. My appointment is until tomorrow with my T and next month with my pdoc. Things are dragging...time is going so slow. Just sitting worrying about doomsday, ugh!

Shmooey · Oct 13, 2015, 05:54 PM

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Thank you! I would, but I've never heard of that before. What is it?

It's the diet link I sent you. They have food and fitness trackers and lots of opportunities for community. No pressure at all, just if you decide to join and want your first friend, I'm happy to be it!

Shmooey · Oct 13, 2015, 05:56 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

Oh, I just looked it up! Thank you! I still plan to cheat a bunch with my upcoming grocery order because I'm dying for cookies and ice cream, but maybe I'll get inspired to join after I eat some guilty foods. I really shouldn't but I want them.

I just ate a foot long Subway Spicy Italian and am working my way through three peanut butter cookies. It's all good! I'm not perfect either, I primarily belong to that site to track my weight and measurements and to do the community stuff.

Angelique67 · Oct 13, 2015, 06:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Shmooey

It's the diet link I sent you. They have food and fitness trackers and lots of opportunities for community. No pressure at all, just if you decide to join and want your first friend, I'm happy to be it!

Oh, ok. Where did you send the link, i checked my pm's?

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I just ate a foot long Subway Spicy Italian and am working my way through three peanut butter cookies. It's all good! I'm not perfect either, I primarily belong to that site to track my weight and measurements and to do the community stuff.

Oh, OK. Maybe I'll join. I just feel if I do I'll be upset with myself if I cheat. Oh well. I'll probably join and look for you there!

I have a new pdoc appointment Thursday with someone I never met before so I'm nervous and consumed with obsessing over that. I have to get it out of the way. I'm very scared he'll change/add meds and I don't want that. It's hard enough now to deal with what I'm already doing. I'm not on a whole bunch, just 4 different pills and a couple of inhalers. I don't want meds added. But I bet he will. If I don't take them what will happen? Will he force me inpatient? I'm so scared. I want snack foods like crazy right now. Well, it's time to eat anyway, that's why. :/

Tsunamisurfer · Oct 14, 2015, 06:04 AM

Angelique, I hope your pdoc appointment goes the way that's best for you.

I've just had a positive phone call from my pdoc. I told her I was adamant not to have a jab in the bum every 2 weeks. Risperdal Consta is very unappealing to me. So she agreed to keep me on the tablets and not to change my Lamotrigine and Valproate.

CrazyLo · Oct 14, 2015, 06:43 AM

Saw the MD yesterday. Found out I have chronic bronchitis from smoking so much and for so long. No bueno.

Angelique67 · Oct 14, 2015, 06:54 AM

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Angelique, I hope your pdoc appointment goes the way that's best for you.

I've just had a positive phone call from my pdoc. I told her I was adamant not to have a jab in the bum every 2 weeks. Risperdal Consta is very unappealing to me. So she agreed to keep me on the tablets and not to change my Lamotrigine and Valproate.

Thank you so much! And I'm glad your pdoc isn't going to change your meds!

Angelique67 · Oct 14, 2015, 06:57 AM

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Saw the MD yesterday. Found out I have chronic bronchitis from smoking so much and for so long. No bueno.

I'm sorry you got bad news, CrazyLo. I have COPD from 41 years of heavy smoking. I vape now instead and my lungs cleared up, although of course I still have the permanent lung damage.

CrazyLo · Oct 14, 2015, 07:00 AM

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I'm sorry you got bad news, CrazyLo. I have COPD from 41 years of heavy smoking. I vape now instead and my lungs cleared up, although of course I still have the permanent lung damage.

I think vaping would be a good alternative for me. My birthday is coming up...perhaps I can get my mom or someone to buy me one. I definitely need to something to replace the cigarettes. I am a heavy smoker, too. How long did you have chronic bronchitis before it became COPD?

Angelique67 · Oct 14, 2015, 07:22 AM

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I think vaping would be a good alternative for me. My birthday is coming up...perhaps I can get my mom or someone to buy me one. I definitely need to something to replace the cigarettes. I am a heavy smoker, too. How long did you have chronic bronchitis before it became COPD?

I'm not sure. But I think I have emphysema. I have trouble filling my lungs and then expelling a breath. If you get an ecig, get one that's relatively good, don't waste money on those little cigarette shaped things because they won't satisfy you and you'll think vaping doesn't work. Vaping is a miracle. There's no way I would have quit smoking without it. I just couldn't do it. Vaping has improved my life by leaps and bounds.

I smoked a cigarette the other day and I couldn't believe how bad it tasted and how sick it made me feel. I hope you'll be able to stop smoking soon!!!!

Shmooey · Oct 14, 2015, 11:50 AM

Angelique, it was on this thread - Free Diet Plans at SparkPeople

Angelique67 · Oct 14, 2015, 12:00 PM

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Angelique, it was on this thread - Free Diet Plans at SparkPeople

Thanks, Shmooey! I will join probably after my pdoc appointment. I got a new Lumia phone and I'm having some technical issues between my Androids and the Lumia. Anyway I'm confused at the moment, lol.

jaynedough · Oct 20, 2015, 10:25 PM

Feel so freaking hopeless. I have no purpose. When I try to be around people, my symptoms end up getting so much worse.

spincera · Oct 21, 2015, 01:59 AM

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Feel so freaking hopeless. I have no purpose. When I try to be around people, my symptoms end up getting so much worse.

I know how you feel Jaynedough. I have been there. Here is a hug to hopefully help a little bit.

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spincera · Oct 21, 2015, 02:07 AM

Hello all,
I haven't been on here in quite a few months. I had foot surgery: a bunionectomy. Plus, I think I told everyone that I had lost my mother at the end of June. I also started school at the end of August, so I have been dealing with that. It has been really hard managing school when on pain medications. Thankfully, I am off them suckers. I just started walking after 6 weeks of no weight bearing, and while I am really sore, it feels good to be mobile again.
One thing I was wondering is if anyone (I can't remember if I brought this up before) has ever felt itchy, twitchy, muscle crampy type feelings in one's legs and arms from an antipsychotic medication? I had increased my geodon per my pdoc's instructions and that started happening to me. The good news is that the medication was helping me with my symptoms, but I had those aweful side effects which were affecting my sleep. I am on the geodon and went down to my regular dose and am still having those side effects but not as bad, and taking this new medicine that is supposed to help with that. It makes me really tired, and I think it causes that feeling too. I'm so confused. Anyway, I was just wondering if anyone knows what I am talking about. Oh and on a good note it has been almost 11 months without a mood swing. Yippee yay!! Unfortunately, I 'm still having hallucinations, but my delusions are at bay.
I hope everyone is doing well.

CrazyLo · Oct 21, 2015, 11:12 AM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

I'm not sure. But I think I have emphysema. I have trouble filling my lungs and then expelling a breath. If you get an ecig, get one that's relatively good, don't waste money on those little cigarette shaped things because they won't satisfy you and you'll think vaping doesn't work. Vaping is a miracle. There's no way I would have quit smoking without it. I just couldn't do it. Vaping has improved my life by leaps and bounds.

I smoked a cigarette the other day and I couldn't believe how bad it tasted and how sick it made me feel. I hope you'll be able to stop smoking soon!!!!

Thank you so much! I'm going to buy one once I have the money.

Blue_Bird · Oct 21, 2015, 07:12 PM

Doing well, enjoying the Autumn season

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dillpickle1983 · Oct 21, 2015, 08:54 PM

Doing well, I have a cystoscopy scheduled for 820am tomorrow morning. (just google it) I am thrilled about it. Absolutely thrilled! Gotta try to find the reason behind my overactive bladder. Otherwise I am doing well, have been symptom free for the most part for the better part of the month.

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