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![]() avlady, Blue_Bird, jaynedough
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#527
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Blue_Bird this is such a stressful time for you. Maybe it would be good to stay on the meds at least until things calm down?
Angelique: I've been wondering where you've been. How's life? I'm in a seriously dark place right now. Really depressed.
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#528
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Everything kind of suck atm.
Had a horrible hallucination last night. I looked up and there was fire everywhere. I could feel the heat and smell it. I called for my mom but no one heard me. The smoke mad eme choke and then I blinked and it was like nothing happened. It was so real. I just.... I don't even know if I have sza or not. Nobody will give me a solid diagnoses. my pdoc says "its possible" but I want to know, damnit! I hate everything.
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~Dx: Bipolar 1 with Psychotic features, Dysthymia, OCD with tics including dermotillomania, Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Dysgraphia, Medication Induced ADHD ~Self-Dx: BPD, ASD with tics, Depersonalization-derealization disorder ~Rx: Wellbutrin 150mg, Gabapentin 2700mg, VIstaril 50mg, Prazosin 2mg, Klonopin 3mg, Trazodone 100mg, Thorazine 50mg |
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Thanks jayne, I am going to stay on my medicine. I discussed getting off of it with my pdoc today....well I kind of demanded to get off everything and that didn't go over well, so now I'm taking everything except one med that I truly don't need right now.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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#530
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Really struggling. The depression is just getting worse and worse and it's flaring some of my other symptoms.
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I'm sorry it's going so rough. I wish I could help. I'm not doing too well myself, although I mostly have stopped smoking finally, and my stamina has begun improving just slightly. That's one good thing but everything else is awful. I still have no energy (and my awful back pain) to try to start cleaning here. I just can't do anything. And there's no way I can hire help. It's like slowly dying in a rat's nest here. Just horrible. I have horrible anxiety and if not that, then awful depression. I don't know what's going to become of me.
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#532
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Angelique,
Congratulations on the quitting smoking. It's not easy. It does get easier and eventually, easy. At least it did for me and I hope it does for you, too. I learned that the cigarettes lied to me. They said that I couldn't live without them, that they were my only friends, that I needed them to stay calm. Lies. What do your cigarettes "say" to you? (I *do* know that they weren't actually talking to me ![]() I'm sorry you're having so many issues going on, too. |
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#534
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Thanx for adding that last part, Angelique. I was like, "Hmmm. What? Where was that post? How'd I miss that?" I didn't even know you can cross - forum quote.
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I miss my sister so much, we've never been apart this long. She starts basic training for the Air Force tomorrow.
I'm on four medications I believe. My psychiatrist says I'm on too much but I feel fine, I don't know what will happen if she changes things. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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#536
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kimical, I'm sorry you have to be apart from your sister.
My old pdoc had me on seven psych meds, it was crazy. When I went to my new better pdoc, she got me down to the four I'm on now and said that two of my former ones were actually working against each other. The importance of a good pdoc! I don't think four is too many, I need all four of mine too.
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the world is too loud Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder Depressive Type, PTSD, and Agoraphobia. Current meds: 30 mg Haldol, 10 mg Lexapro, 100 mg Lamictal, 0.5 mg Klonopin PRN |
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I left a message asking my pdoc for another medication. He just took me off topamax and that was a hard adjustment because I went manic. And then I had trouble with OCD experiences and a flash that kept happening while I was trying to take care of my newborn grandson. It was frightening and terrifying and I hope that I never have that again. I hope my Pdoc prescribes something else besides just Latuda.
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#538
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At the psychiatrists office
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#539
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Worthit, That must've been so scary having all that going on when you were bonding with your grandchild. Stupid illness. Hopefully your PDoc will give you something that'll help.
Falcon09, Hope your appointment went well. Had my T appointment last night. Definition of a good T: You tell him your dog threw up that morning and he says it's OK, bring her down anyway. ![]() |
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#540
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Doing well overall.
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#541
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Doing horribly. Having a family session tomorrow and seeing pdoc so yeah.
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~Dx: Bipolar 1 with Psychotic features, Dysthymia, OCD with tics including dermotillomania, Complex PTSD, Anxiety, Dysgraphia, Medication Induced ADHD ~Self-Dx: BPD, ASD with tics, Depersonalization-derealization disorder ~Rx: Wellbutrin 150mg, Gabapentin 2700mg, VIstaril 50mg, Prazosin 2mg, Klonopin 3mg, Trazodone 100mg, Thorazine 50mg |
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#542
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In that black, howling maelstrom again.
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I'm tired of feeling like I'm going to lose everything. I'm tired of feeling like I can't trust people. Tired of being overwhelmed.
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#543
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Actually still doing ok. I'm surprised lol. All is well in my neighborhood.
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#544
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Try to keep in your mind that you've been here before, right? And that in a little while, hopefully, this down swing will be over. It's the illness.
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#545
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I'm also dealing with feeling like I am losing everything. We've been hemorraging money lately, seems like everyone wants extra and I can't really afford my pdoc and therapist unless I hit savings again but I can't afford not to see them either while I am on documented short term disability. This illness is wearing me down, one day at a time. *sigh*
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the world is too loud Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder Depressive Type, PTSD, and Agoraphobia. Current meds: 30 mg Haldol, 10 mg Lexapro, 100 mg Lamictal, 0.5 mg Klonopin PRN |
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#546
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I start cognitive behavioral therapy tomorrow for the first time ever. I don't really know what to expect. Also, I get my first maintenance dose of Invega sustenna on Monday.
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Dx: schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, ptsd Rx: abilify, lamictal |
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Cognitive behavioral therapy helped me a lot to understand how I think and change my thought patterns. It worked a lot for my impulsive thoughts which I thought could never be changed. Its helped me a lot, good luck.
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#548
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i myself a few weeks ago tried going off my meds and had terrible reaction and went back on them. it made me realise i do need them to be stable. i just didn't know i was stable because they were working. i hope you feel better!!!
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#549
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I feel the same way. Every once in awhile I think I need to go off my meds because I'm doing so well. But it doesn't occur to me I'm doing well because of the medication. & I need to stay on. That's what got me in trouble in the first place, not being on my meds.
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Its a beautiful sunny day here with a cool breeze, spent the day out shopping with my mom then got Chinese food. Feeling great
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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