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spincera · Mar 09, 2015, 03:42 AM

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My pdoc ok'd the special circumstances within 1 day, so, hopefully it won't be long enough for psychosis to sneak in.

Worthit, I'm hoping all goes well for you and that you do not have any psychosis.

worthit · Mar 09, 2015, 10:31 AM

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Worthit, I'm hoping all goes well for you and that you do not have any psychosis.

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Thanks ,I meant it as encouragement to say that one could get that special agreement for medication overnight. I did go through high anxiety while waiting but relief when it was cleared the next day. Thanks again.

kimical · Mar 09, 2015, 08:23 PM

On the invega shot again, get it again next week and then once a month after that. Hopefully it will help with the voices. I've been hearing them off and on every other day. They give me commands and I hate fighting with them. I get so sick of it.

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spincera · Mar 13, 2015, 11:37 PM

Hi all. I just thought I'd say that things have been pretty rocky here. I cannot wait for my appointment with the university. My doctor keeps lowering my abilify and I end up scaring my family and friends with my odd behavior. I get scared myself because I end up very paranoid. Anyway, I had an extremely bad episode last night, and I am still not right. I think the meds I'm on need to be changed. I need something that does not have all the horrible side effects, but I think that is not possible. Hmmm. I'm hoping the university has some answers for me. I'd rather be able to manage this without medications, but that may not be possible for me. I used to get mania and depression, but now it is just hallucinations and delusions. Things just seems so out of control.
However, on a more upbeat note, I have a loving fiance and son, who do their best to look out for me.

worthit · Mar 16, 2015, 10:01 AM

Thanks for the update, spincera. Thought I'd do the same. I'm sort of on call until my daughter's baby comes. That's supposedly on April 8. Then the next day I'm supposed to drive up to stay there to help her out for the next week. But I don't like being on call and not knowing when exactly. That's my illness. I like to have a set schedule. And also because someone has to come in to take care of my cats while I'm gone. So I'm up in the air and feeling a little bit anxious about the whole thing. Although I'm excited and looking forward to the baby coming and being a grandma for the first time!

dillpickle1983 · Mar 18, 2015, 10:22 PM

I'm doing ok I guess. I have some vivid hallucinations that are going on. But I for whatever reason don't tell my doctor. oh yea my PDoc is leaving the clinic I go to, so I get to find someone else to not trust for 3 years.

jaynedough · Mar 19, 2015, 02:32 AM

Hi Dillpickle. Sorry you're having a bad time. And now you have to break in a new PDoc, too. Ugh! I'm glad you're posting here again, though.

Had a pretty good day. About to turn in for the night. Have a pinched nerve in my neck that's really hurting and making my shoulder tingle. The tingle thing is kinda cool. Worried that I'll lose function in my arm again. And this time it's my dominant hand side.

worthit · Mar 20, 2015, 09:27 AM

I had my results from my blood test. My kidneys are 1 point worse but I'm not worrying about it (I have Stage 3 Chronic kidney disease ) and my blood glucose is better, I'm no longer in the pre diabetes zone. So that's good. And I've lost 10 lbs thanks to a side affect from Topamax (a bipolar med)

Blue_Bird · Mar 20, 2015, 08:04 PM

my mom was diagnosed with leukemia today. as much as I want to quit life and lay in bed and cry about it all day I have to step up and be strong for her

worthit · Mar 20, 2015, 08:48 PM

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my mom was diagnosed with leukemia today. as much as I want to quit life and lay in bed and cry about it all day I have to step up and be strong for her

I'm so sorry. And you're right, we need to be there for our parents. All the best.

jaynedough · Mar 21, 2015, 06:30 PM

OMG, Blue_Bird. I'm so sorry. Hopefully it's treatable. Please know that we're here for you and it's OK to not be strong here. Is there anything I can do to help you?

Blue_Bird · Mar 22, 2015, 06:06 PM

Thank you Jayne, she started treatmemt yesterday and is already getting energy back, she should be able to come home this week thankfully

dillpickle1983 · Mar 23, 2015, 11:02 PM

I am hallucinating like mad. The voices are telling me to do things that I know are wrong and dangerous. It's been a struggle since Friday to maintain sanity. My friend is coming to get me in the morning and attempt to coax me into going to the Psych ER. I don't know if I will go willingly or not.

worthit · Mar 24, 2015, 09:13 AM

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I am hallucinating like mad. The voices are telling me to do things that I know are wrong and dangerous. It's been a struggle since Friday to maintain sanity. My friend is coming to get me in the morning and attempt to coax me into going to the Psych ER. I don't know if I will go willingly or not.

Just keep telling yourself "it's my illness", they aren't voices from somewhere else. Good luck.

Shmooey · Mar 24, 2015, 06:04 PM

worthit, does that work for you? I keep trying and my body is already so panicked and agoraphobic that I can't get the message through.

I'm asking because if there's a way it will help, I wanna know how to get around my illness.

worthit · Mar 25, 2015, 09:22 AM

Last year I could not do it but this year I think because of Topamax which is for mania bipolar it has helped me a lot. Its calmed down my brain. However because of the eye side effects I probably have to go off of it. I'm waiting for a call from my P Doc. Maybe there's something like it that I can take? It's allowed me to think clearer and process better in times of panic and anxiety. So I can better analyze what's happening to me and say, "this is just my illness" or "stop catastrophizing"

Shmooey · Mar 25, 2015, 05:49 PM

I had to go off topamax because of extreme eye pressure too. Hope they find something else for you. I hate the med-go-round.

worthit · Mar 26, 2015, 02:55 PM

I just became a grandma! This morning at 9a.m.

jaynedough · Mar 26, 2015, 03:27 PM

CONGRATULATIONS WORTHIT!

dillpickle1983 · Mar 27, 2015, 12:18 AM

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i just became a grandma! This morning at 9a.m.

congrats!!!

Blue_Bird · Mar 29, 2015, 05:00 PM

Congrats Worthit!

Having a difficult time dealing with everything going on. Sick physically, probably from stress.

worthit · Mar 29, 2015, 05:02 PM

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Congrats Worthit!

Having a difficult time dealing with everything going on. Sick physically, probably from stress.

I meant thumb's up for the congrats, sorry you're in pain.

spincera · Mar 29, 2015, 05:07 PM

Congratulations on becoming a grandma worth it.

Blue_Bird · Mar 30, 2015, 07:28 PM

My doctor needs to take this diagnosis out of my medical charts/history. I don't want it in there, because they made it up. Nobody listens to me because of it and when I say anything about getting off meds it's all "Oh you're doing better because the meds. I can't even have a chance to try things without them? I have gained so much damn weight, she had the nerve to tell me to exercise. You think I haven't tried that, part of the problem is I've gained so much it really hurts to walk anything even over a block.

Blue_Bird · Mar 30, 2015, 07:34 PM

And seriously, where do these people who work in a hospital get their training? I was in the psych ER the other day and this woman stared at me with her mouth open like "wtf" as if she's thinking she's really crazy and/or stupid (about me), that's how it made me feel.

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