[Deilla]

I've had a productive day with time to relax. I have a few more chores to handle. I feel pretty good. I may go to bed early tonight. I'm getting sleepy.

[Brego]

I made a mountain out of a mole hill. I kept concentrating on my weight. Oh darn, that is what I did before. I'll sleep on it. The issue is probably going to be resolved soon. And I think that there are only mild points for each side of this. I think that it's really freaking weighing on me, and it springs up to a panic attack. It's cause I made a mild mistake about it. So I think I know what I want. I want to lose weight so much it hurts. It should have been an easier decision. I should have started trying to be one with my body a long time ago. My body is a temple. I think it and I punish myself. This is probably going to be a wild outcome. One I love so much it's ridiculous. And my dumb mind told me to cool it by being so diminishing. So, I am going to try to be at 145 lbs which is the correct BMI for my height.

[Breaking Dawn]

@Brego, your train of thought fits with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT). I think you will succeed with the way you express yourself in your last post here.

[Brego]

I finally quit smoking. Finally thought it was unbecoming. It's only been over the past three days including this day in the three. The middle day -- I couldn't stand it so I went out and smoked some butts in the trash.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Brego

I finally quit smoking. Finally thought it was unbecoming. It's only been over the past three days including this day in the three. The middle day -- I couldn't stand it so I went out and smoked some butts in the trash.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult morning. Usually, my mornings are pretty good. I'm trying to stay busy. I have things I have to do. I want to relax though. I'm just not sure how I will relax. Maybe I just need to go back to bed.

[Brego]

@Deilla I hope it drifted to a really good day later on.

I have this question in my mind --- was I in the states of mania and depression, in each one, for years? I read books and they said that it lasts days and months. Sometimes to me it lasted years. It's probably just my perception of time. You never know though. I'm just basically wondering if years of it can happen at a time. It may be seemingly juvenile to question.

[SlumberKitty]

@Brego I think my depressive states have lasted years. Multiple years.

[Deilla]

I am tired tonight. I have been cleaning my bedroom. It is all done but the new sheets on the bed. I will have to wait until the morning. I have no more energy. I don't want to sleep just yet. Maybe I will relax for a while. I feel like I'm doing better. Cleaning helps calm me.

[Brego]

We lost our cat! Oh no! He is a precious part of the family. Please pray that we find him soon.

[MrsFunky]

My psychiatrist says he thinks I was in untreated mania for years marked by a few depressive dips but yeah mostly manic for 10 years or so.

[Deilla]

@Brego, I'm sending good thoughts your way. I'll pray that you find your cat soon. I know how important they are to the family.

[Deilla]

I'm doing well. I've lost 20 pounds recently. It's allowed me to start walking on my own around my apartment. I'm cleaning and cleaning. Soon I will hire professionals to do the deep clean. My place is organized so now they have room.

[SlumberKitty]

Doing okay right now. Much better than this time last week.

[Deilla]

I'm struggling today. My therapist recommended I call the crisis line. That's the last thing I would do. All they do is send the police over. I don't need that. I'm just really really depressed.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS Deilla

[Breaking Dawn]

I hope you feel better soon, @Deilla.

[Deilla]

I feel better today. Thanks! I got plenty of sleep last night. I think that helped. And time heals all wounds.

[Brego]

I bought myself the Ring of Sauron (like from Lord of the Rings) to seal it down that is what I compare it to. And I think I feel therapeutic things in this already.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm tired. ....

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I'm tired. ....

Me too.......

[Brego]

I went through a sugar fixation (for years hehe). I think it is getting over. My Mom needs to stop getting me sugary drinks. It would help so much.

[Deilla]

I had a GP appointment. She asked about other appointments I need to make. So I made them today. I'll be all caught up in September.

[Breaking Dawn]

I haven't been doing my best, sleepwise, nutritionwise, thoughtwise, so my energy is really low. The voices have been different lately. Sometimes they say kinder things & they seem more intelligent, but then other times they are back to being mean & abusive. I'm tired & feeling frail & weak, but I've been pushing myself anyway & I'm making some progress, like fulfilling small goals.

[Deilla]

I'm trying to be more positive. I will try to find something to do today. My morning was busy. I finished one project. I'll try to think of other projects to work on and maybe I will play a game.