[SlumberKitty]

I've been having audio and visuals though.

[SlumberKitty]

Dr may want to tweak the meds. We'll see.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well. Today was really difficult. I was stressed all day. I had chores to do but I couldn't finish them. My back started hurting. I'm supposed to have a nerve block in two weeks. I hope it helps. I just wish I could do more. I would love to be able to walk again. I wish I could breathe. I have a stress test for that on Tuesday. I hope it's not my heart. There's a lot stressing me out. I joined a class but then I requested that I drop out. I don't think I can handle it.

[Breaking Dawn]

Today I kind of failed & didn't follow through with promises to myself. So I'm naturally feeling disappointed in myself & feeling sad. I can't blame it all on the voices. I thought I was so determined this morning; I was so sure I would succeed & be proud of myself. But none of my goals got fulfilled today. All I can do now is accept my self defeat & try again tomorrow. Fingers crossed.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Breaking Dawn

[SlumberKitty]

Having trouble dealing with motivation. Motivation and understanding my thoughts. My thoughts feel blocked.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Having trouble dealing with motivation. Motivation and understanding my thoughts. My thoughts feel blocked.

I think I understand, dear friend!

[Deilla]

I had a stress test today. The IV medicine made me sick most of the day. I felt good for a little while but I'm starting to get sick again. I won't find out the results of my test until next week. I am worried.

[SlumberKitty]

Sorry @Deilla hope you are feeling better today!

[Deilla]

Hi @SlumberKitty! Thank you! I feel better today. I've had a good day. It was very productive. I worked hard on keeping my mood elevated.

[Breaking Dawn]

Lots of things are hard to figure out. I ask myself, why do I still have these voices? I don't think I deserve them. But maybe there's a lesson I haven't learned yet? So I say to myself, keep listening to others here & to everything. I hope that's my inner knowing, trying to guide me.

[Deilla]

I'm conducting a 90 day experient. I'm using DBT and CBT techniques every day and journaling about it. I want to keep track of my progress and improve my mood each day. So far it's gone well. I take notes, write down affirmations, use photos and quotes. At the end of the 90 days, I will have content for a book I want to write. It might be a self-help book or a memoir. I'm in self-publishing school at the moment, so I am learning more about writing. I already have two books published. I want to do more.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm conducting a 90 day experient. I'm using DBT and CBT techniques every day and journaling about it. I want to keep track of my progress and improve my mood each day. So far it's gone well. I take notes, write down affirmations, use photos and quotes. At the end of the 90 days, I will have content for a book I want to write. It might be a self-help book or a memoir. I'm in self-publishing school at the moment, so I am learning more about writing. I already have two books published. I want to do more.

Oh, my goodness!! How wonderful!! I
feel so happy!! I wish you so much!!

[Brego]

I'm reaching a stable point, I think. The hallucinations have been diminished a lot. How lucky for me. I think I just need to do exactly as do for this to happen. I'm so excited. I talked to my Mom and Dad about it. I was blown away when I first started to notice they were going away. I think it's a lot, but I hope I can get it to be nothing for a long time. Well, I don't really need to change anything because it's already being lessened. Or what do you all think? Change a few things here and there, or let it all ride out? I wouldn't actually mess with this would I? Well, this entire thing is what I prayed for. And I am getting so lucky! It's amazing.

[SlumberKitty]

Got my antipsychotic medication raised up a little. Should help the symptoms. I hope it doesn't increase the negative symptoms though.

[Breaking Dawn]

I wish I could get some medicine that would remove the voices.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

I wish I could get some medicine that would remove the voices.

Have you tried Rexulti? It's been very helpful to me. Except it made me gain weight.

[Deilla]

Today turned out to be very stressful and sad. I used DBT this morning. I might use it again. Or do a meditation. I've been journaling, which is helping. I want to scream into a pillow. I had a breakup with my boyfriend, which hurt pretty bad. I'm trying today.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by SlumberKitty

Have you tried Rexulti? It's been very helpful to me. Except it made me gain weight.

I'm seriously underweight, so that might be an asset!

[Brego]

I am being more talkative and more into doing things. I mean that I am not doing one thing all day long anymore. It seems like freedom is coming for me. I am also realizing insanity is one big word for a monster already cosmic size. It's coming around to me the hallucinations and delusions are truly not based in reality. And that means they are happening nowhere in time or space. Not to anyone. I think it means such a big deal it's coming around like this. But it means so much more. Because I am starting to learn the unrealness, it is just a perceptual disturbancy. It is caused by the not firing right neuroscience of my brain. And so I calm down a little. It does not mean so many things about me in poetry. It means that I need to put effort into correcting some of my habits. It is going to be a miracle once it all comes together. Sometimes I think I can fix myself. I have hope for myself, what can I say?

[Deilla]

I woke up twice with migraines today. I think because I was so upset yesterday. I don't feel all that great right now. I still can't get the help I need. I'm unable to walk. I can't do anything around my apartment and I can't take my trash out. My place is a mess and it's making me sad and frustrated. No one will help me. No one cares. I can't even get medical assistance. I do have an appointment for a knee injection on Friday. Maybe that will help me. In the meantime, I have to just sit in my apartment with the AC out trying to survive.

[MrsFunky]

HI is this where I post how I am doing with sza? I am pretty stable but two of my meds clozarl and caplyta make me so tired I am sleeping more than 12 hours a night so I am taking ritalin and it helps with the day sleepiness but in the morning and evening it's hard. I tried lowering the dose and got symptomatic.
So please let me know if this post is not in the proper areaa

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by MrsFunky

HI is this where I post how I am doing with sza? I am pretty stable but two of my meds clozarl and caplyta make me so tired I am sleeping more than 12 hours a night so I am taking ritalin and it helps with the day sleepiness but in the morning and evening it's hard. I tried lowering the dose and got symptomatic.
So please let me know if this post is not in the proper areaa

Yup, it's the right place. Several of us with SZA also post in the schizophrenia and psychosis forum since it is busier than this one. Jump on in the conversation whenever you are ready.

[Breaking Dawn]

Voices have been quite a challenge, but I'm doing ok at the moment.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm doing okay, I'm just finding myself wanting to isolate.