Roll Call Eight

snap! haha

I feel angry today. All I can focus on is my anger and hate and this fat all over me. Everyone hates me because I'm so fat.

im starting to look around for case managers. idk how to. anyone have resources or advice?

You said something about the ball being dropped when you were discharged from hospital. could you or dad call hospital and ask what happened?


also where do I get some of the majic Batiste dry shampoo? is it a powder or spray? does it contain alcohol or butane? my hair is fried.

I don't think everyone hates you. I'm sorry you're feeling so angry. Could it be connected to quitting your meds?

the hospital said they sent a fax the doctor signed. idk what to say anymore. last time that doctor tried to get contacted it took 3-4 days. forget those people

oh um walmart

god that pisses me off. f_k them and the clinic

The meds are poison. They cloud me. Without them I feel angry delusional disordered and hyper oh so hyper I see so clearly I don't want to be clouded but I want people to like me.

hookah!
green spearmint.

and then heres me trying to make a therapist appt with the clinic and they dont answer.

i dont have anyone to turn to except these people. these people i very hate

idk why i keep doing this.

The Blues Brothers. Jake and Elwood always lift my spirits.

Wow, those are beautiful birds. How did the chickens react?

I am glad to hear from the little didgee! Everything all right? I missed you!

My wife is having a really bad day and I feel bad for her.

Thanks Gr3tta. I hope your wife feels better soon.

Life has been busy. Classes start next Thursday so I have been preparing for the upcoming academic year. I am looking forward to relaxing over the long weekend. Anyone have plans?

I am hoping to give all my dogs a bath this weekend. That's big enough plans for me. anybody else?

Off to the lakefront...just Saturday though my friend has to work Sunday and Monday.

Did you find your bolete on vacation?

im typing and people dont respond much anymore.

He is gorgeous. He's made a change that's for sure, but I think everyone's adjusting. Hilda is his favorite hen, but I think that's ok with the others, because they're at the end of their fertile years. I think they just want a safe place to live out their retirement.

Little Production is still healing from a dog attack in which her leg was broken. I'm keeping her pretty much isolated in a dog crate. I mean she's there where the others can see her and she can see them, but she's safe. I've seen Mr. Roo courting her, but he can't get to her. I don't know what will happen when she's allowed into the yard with everyone else.

Sorry if it seems that way.

I do see a lot of responses to your posts.

Sorry I just don't know what to say.

its ok. at least you said why you dont respond too much. thank you. lalalabp.

maybe i am paranoid costello.
im very scared to lose people here because the people here are the only friends i have. thats why i cannot leave this place. im scared everyone will leave me. im scared everyone here wants to leave me. high and dry.

Now, I understand.

i haven't been here long compared to others but you seem liked and valued to me newtus. sorry your feeling paranoid