Roll Call 14

Yes. At 3:10 a.m.

Talk about early birds... Fo realz.

I try to get red-colored heat lamps, but the selection's been poor lately, so I've had to buy clear ones. I think the artificial light is confusing them.

Could be. Then again I don't know much about chickens/roosters. Just that they are tasty.

i had a harrowing ordeal last night they were demons coming after me durin the witching hour 3 am i could barely sleep after

either that or it was TI harassment

of i tell my dad hell think i need my meds to stay the same or upped. so i cant tell anybody

-14 with a -36 windchill. Intended to go to work today but not safe to take the bus...frostbite in ten minutes at these temps. Arranged for a friend to drive and her car won't start due to the cold. Looks like an unofficial snow day!

interesting Sometimes

we have 16 here with windchill 9

I think it would be hard to sleep after that, Newtus. How scary.

Sometimes: yes, that's really cold. It's gotten cold here again, too but right now it's at least 1 degree. Tropical in comparison to -14.

Costello: Chickens are so silly. My mom said she had a friend from Alaska and they raised chickens. They lived far enough north that in the dark time they had to use special lights to wake the chickens up, and in the daylight time they had to use special shutters on the windows. The chickens would either never go to sleep or never wake up, either way they would die. So it probably is the light that's got them confused.

My plan is to kick them outside tomorrow morning. It's supposed to be warm enough. I can't imagine raising chickens in Alaska.

Yeah, raising chickens feels like hard work. I can't imagine all the extra for living someplace like Alaska. But that was in the late 1950s when my mom knew this lady, so I'm sure it was either raise your own chickens or have no eggs.

lol apparently it's colder here in Ohio than it is in Alaska.

Yeah I heard Texas was potentially setting record lows today.

chicken sounds good right now
sorry

nurse tomorrow.
please oh god lower my medicine.

i WILL FIGHT YOU UNTIL YOU DO

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i am READUY to FIGHT TODAY AND TOMORROW

I had a particular disturbing dream and it's really bugging me... it was rather violent. I was being rather violent. It was a bloody dream. I'm really unsettled. I've been running too high for too long. Everything is making me angry. I can't work. Talking to people on the phone sends like a flood of intrusive thoughts, all extremely violent, and lots and lots of anger. I feel like I don't relax even when I'm relaxing.... it's knocking me off balance.

my nurse said i have disorganized speech!

Did she give you an example of what type of disorganization? You seem to be able to express your thoughts on here pretty clearly.

no she didnt. she was just on the phone witb my pdoc and said "her thinking is disorganized".

ok i just realized thats not "speech" but she said "thinking"

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no she said speech too if i remember correctly.

but what is she gonna say tomorrow who knows. could be anything.

i had a vision of man from the 1950s telling me that i need to be careful today and wear extra clothing because theres gonna be a lot of static electricity in the air and on objects. he wass like from stereotpical 1950s PSA commercial.

and i didnt listen to him and things keep shocking my hands and hair. i went to the grocery and got shocked and such over and over again.

Well, I don't know how extra layers would prevent shock, unless it's all rubber. But it is cold where you are so it wouldn't hurt to wear them. It's probably dry where you are? That causes a lot of static. It happens here in the winter a lot.

Well, disorganized thinking... I feel I have that a lot but I don't know if it shows.

I am trying to convince myself not to send an angry letter to the person who wrote the wellness wheel. It's really fuling my anger right now. I really didn't need to see that today.

i was gonnna suggest send a letter too hahahah!!!

i wanna stop smoking cuz cigarettes make me tired. too calm = too tired = not preferable/favorable to me.

i like my hyperedness

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i just cold turkeyed threw them all away
but i fear i cant quit.
i think i should get my ecigs again. you think?

i think i might take up the extreme coffee drinking again or alcohol. or 5 hr energy drink capsules.

i still smoke hookah tho. very rarely.

i drink 5 hour energies sometimes but sometimes i crash off them and get pissy.
i got a new cat. his name is toby. hes orange and white. hes sleeping on the head of my chair in the lviing room here. he looks comfy and content. i feel good about him. he purrs loudly and is very sweet. and lieks to play. i feel good.

i saw T today. had a scare and thought i couldnt get my risperdal shot tomrrow because of medicare but it worked out.

costello you keep roosters in your basement? my friends mom had chickens when we were growing up. she was a midwife and one time she delivered a chipmunks babies . the chipmunk had died and she did a c section and got the babies out. the ywere dead but we still took them to school in jars of formaldehyde for show and tell.

its cold here but not that cold as up north.... no snow . i wish it would

Newtus maybe you could cut back first instead of cold turkey off cigs. Maybe start by cutting back how much you smoke each day. Then gradually cut yourself down to less and less. This will take a lot of will power and strength on your part but I do think you can do it. I wish you the very best