Roll Call 19

Well I'm up. My son is on a walk. I'm so proud of him. He wants a gf really bad so he's on this weight loss kick. He's lost like 50 lbs. He cut his hair, he looks so handsome.

But what's funny about it is I've been after him to cut his hair and eat healthier. He wouldn't do it. Then he goes and lives with his dad and he's all into it. Something about the male role model it seems.

Hope everyone is doing ok. On the bright side I lost 16 lbs, that's my seroquel weight gain. I gained like 50 lbs on seroquel.

i gained 80 on seroquel sunshine. lost it and gained half that back on haldol!

That sucks ! I know for some ppl seroquel works but for me I absolutely hate seroquel. It made me like a zombie. I had no emotions on it. All I wanted to do was watch stupid tv and eat. I had no desire for anything.

My doc at the time wouldn't take me off it even though I was gaining weight like crazy. I wanted to try something else but she wouldn't do it. Now I take visteral and lorazepam for sleep. It usually works. Last night though it wasn't working. Mania is probably settling in. I get depression in the winter and mania in the summer.

yea about that sleeping thing. i was SUPPOSED to be presrcibed trazedone for sleep but my pdoc didnt call it in. idk why?!

im getting really pissed about not having my sleeping meds called in from the pdocs office. why didnt she call it in. jeez.

Yeah I remember u saying that. I hope u get it soon. It's hard for me to find a med that will help me sleep. I've been on trazadone. It worked at high doses. But then it quit working.

So I'm finally getting out today. Need groceries and cat food. Need money order also to pay rent. I haven't been out in awhile other than going to the store to get cigarettes really fast. I don't feel as paranoid as I did though.

Glad your appt went well and your T is so supportive. You are very lucky! Hope the voices shut up soon

Glad Bean is happy there. Hope she's better soon.

How did it go?

Woohoo! Way to go Medicalfox!

Hope it goes well with your son and you get some sleep soon Sunshine

Hope work was ok Faerie

Glad you're feeling a bit better Atypical

Glad you're feeling a bit better Cracking. Enjoy the rest of your holiday.



Moving sounds like a good idea to me, but only you know what's best. Is the hospital nearer there - would you be able to visit Bean if she's inpatient there?

I'm very irritable/angry lately

*Willow*

most meds dont help me sleep. ive tried xanax. ambien. trazedone. over the counter. fioricet (to sleep to relieve migraines). tea. coffee. everything. deep breathing. just everything.

im an insomniac by nature.

Idk newtus. That has happened to me too and it sucks. Did u get much sleep last night?

Yeah sleep has always been a struggle for me. I've tried most of those meds too. It sucks.

Hi weeping.

nope! i woke up at 2am and was up til 5am. then i zonked out and slept til 11am. so it was broken sleep and wasnt that good!

hey weepingwillow

That sucks. My sleep wasn't all that great either. I hate not getting adequate sleep.

I think I've drank too much coffee. Since being on the latuda when I drink coffee I get all nervous. I guess I need to cut back.

Where'd everyone go?

I get all paranoid when nobody replies after me.

Yeah me too. I worry I scared everyone away! lol I'm watching TV and cuddling the dog. He had a haircut today so he's all soft.

*Willow*

It went good ^^ With the math she said she has never seen anyone get that far. Same with the puzzles on the other cognitive test. The English was ok. Reading comprehension was not my thing.

Then there was these other really weird tests but I don't remember.

I couldn't explain what a cup was. I don't know why.. Lmao

^ and yet this post is #666

I just took a shower. Now I'm putting on mu. I won't be on for awhile finally leaving this apt. Need to eat. Happy u have a dog to enjoy.

Haha. I think it was just a coincidence.

i wonder how SometimesPsychotic is doing

Me too.

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Is she missing?

I'm here I'm totally fine I'm just not sure what I can add to the forum anymore because it's like my mind just wants to forget any of this ever happened to me. It like my brain is rewriting history. What is reminds me of is how sometimes when someone is really obese and they get skinny it's hard for them to hang out with other people who are still heavy because it's an aspect of themselves that they no longer accept despite the fact that they totally understand. It's like my brain is telling me how terrible psychosis is/was rather than some of the neat things about the experience. It's an unbalanced perspective. I just don't want to bring this negativity to you guys. I'm starting to feel like an outsider here and I'm trying to figure out if it's time for me to move on with my life or just to have a more limited role in terms of some of the more science based stuff or recovery or whatever. Just not sure right now but I feel like a jerk for feeling this way but it's like there is a division between what I am now and what I was. Like take clozapine...when I was sick I was all no way I'm touching that stuff it's poison cause it is but now I'm like clozaril is useful in certain hard to treat cases as a last resort etc and I would personally consider it...it's just weird it's like now that the threat that I would actually have to take it is gone I think about it entirely differently and I don't think it's a fair perspective. It's easy enough to say take a med when you're not personally dealing with the side effects. So that's what's going on I just don't have a good solution it's like I just want to go back into the mainstream world and blend in and forget all the psychiatrists and meds etc. like it was a bad bad dream.

^ I think this way too. But I will go with it for now. (Ie like I'm not disabled so I ask myself what do I have to complain about).

OMG I NEED TO REMOVE MY CATS VOICE BOX.. Anyways..

You're very informative about the neurological stuff I have to say.