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toby in the window this evening

im in cali but so nervous. everyones coming over and seeing me and im all shy. my dads not here to protect me. my moms not either ( not that she really would) but still. im alone. my psychotic symptoms are so bad that i dont even know what to say about them. its jus ugh. maybe i need a xanax to tie me over

thanks... im starting to love him. i still miss spook. but i like toby in a different way. he is a sweet boy

Creepy as in it would scare me real or not real....it does seem unlikely but it is possible. We have these things called daddy long legs and I have seen groups of those before but you know like five not fifteen...

Yeah we have daddy long legs here, but they're insects not spiders. They fly too which is icky *shudder*

Anyway have to try and go to sleep now cos it's almost 2am. Night all

*Willow*

im in cali but so nervous. everyones coming over and seeing me and im all shy. my dads not here to protect me. my moms not either ( not that she really would) but still. im alone. my psychotic symptoms are so bad that i dont even know what to say about them. its jus ugh. maybe i need a xanax to tie me over

can anyone help me? i took xanax. 2mg

Ok they definitely don't fly here...that would be creepy...

Wow that's terrible....the only time I ever saw an np was as a student on student employee insurance but it was hospital associated so they just called an md when needed. But yeah that makes sense if you can only see an np for both then it's fair. I actually really liked the nps for infections etc they were less pressured somehow but I can't imagine for psych it's a lot more complicated with all the med choices and their side effects...

I know every time I've seen a actual psychiatrist they always--what they call clean up my meds. And they're usually right or pretty close.

With psych nurses it's kind of a guessing game it seems like. And I'm on more meds. Psychiatrists seem to just choose a couple but it's pretty close to what's needed.

sorry i conked out after 2mg xanax. then found my cousin knocking on my window at 8pm at night woke me up scared the cr_ap ougghtta me.

Ha! Evidently my meat sauce didn't taste bad the second night my housemate ate it as this time not a peep came out of him!

Hi everyone. I'm sorry for not being here for awhile. I have just been so focused on getting the house ready for the move. That will still take a long time. I hope everyone is doing better. I'm also sorry that I don't reply to other's posts as often to give advice that often. Its because most of the time I can't figure out what to say, and also I don't want to give the wrong advice. Also, I don't socialize just to socialize. Sometimes it goes weeks or even months in between calls to my friends. I don't know if its due to my illnesses or what. Just remember part of having autism is having a difficult time socializing and not knowing how to do it properly.

As for me, however, my life still sucks. Mom is real to the extreme. She is sick.... again. Constant problems. My mom still has to have dangerous life-threatening surgery. Now, the doctor has backed off because of the high risk to her life. We would have to wait until we move. The surgery will still come. My mom is also having Asthma and Bronchitis. My dad had the nerve to tell me, "You don't know what bad is." What? You mean that mom's deadly many health problems isn't bad enough? Having to get rid of a dream house to move into a dump isn't bad enough? having to worry to death about our lack of a future isn't bad enough? I think his definition of "bad" is an actual death in the family, or being on the street at this very moment.

My brother had surgery on Friday and he is incredible pain. He's on the verge of tears. I know with my surgery in January of this year it did hurt. But I didn't cry. I didn't even cry when I had to be hospitalized with my abscessed tooth in 2009. My face swelled up several times its size. If I waited any longer, the infection could have entered my bloodstream.

I hope I'm not bringing anyone down. I am happy about that game I keep on talking about on here. That is the very thing that keeps me from having more severe problems. A very good distraction technique. Seeing the updates daily about this game helps tremendously.

I don't even bother going to forums other than this one. Everyone here is so nice... The other forums scare me.

I'm sorry. People were surprisingly respectful to me when I did mine. I think I may have actually informed some people, which of course is a huge confidence boost. XD

People were respectful of me too. I think people on that subreddit is tired of the whole "I have (insert mental illness here) ama" or "I've been to a mental hospital ama"

Yeah I think the current rules for ama's specifically say no psychiatric disorders unless you do one of the casual ama's because its hard to prove and fairly common...not sure what you did but the reality is people on reddit want novelty so a lot of it is in the timing...if someone else just did one a week ago well you're probably not going to do so well if its been 6 months then yeah...

I did it like back in 2011 so I'm not sure if that rule was there at the time. Lol I kind of want to delete it. It felt like I was complaining and making light of mental illness and not informative at all.