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I know, but this has been happening for so long.

How can I live my life - when I'm scared every day.
I'm so sorry, hon. I wish I could help.

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 05:24 PM
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Kureha It sucks that you are going through this stuff. I get anxious because the Govt is monitoring me too. I think what David Cameron is doing to the NHS and people on benefits is despicable!

Newtus: You know deep down what the best thing to do is. It is time for you to be responsible and start taking your meds again, otherwise you WILL end up in the hospital again and they WILL forcibly medicate you, and it will probably be court ordered this time so you can't escape it again. You should talk to your T about your disordered eating behaviours before that gets out of control too

I think I told you guys that I got my notes last week. Well I delivered a letter to the CMHT today saying that I'm discharging myself because of the "many inaccuracies" in my notes. I didn't get into specifics though because I knew that I would never change their minds. Surprisingly the psychologist then rang to see if I wanted to speak to his manager about my issues with my records, but I declined. I did not discharge myself in order to get them to beg me to stay, which is what they probably will think if I agreed to meet with anyone now. I'm actually surprised that someone bothered to contact me: considering that they all think I'm malingering, why do they want to keep seeing me?!

Anyway, I won't be around much on PC, if at all, any more because I feel like I am just attention seeking by being here. Just because I don't have a diagnosis anymore, doesn't mean my suffering has magically diminished! I'm fed up of people thinking that I'm malingering!

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 05:55 PM
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Newtus: You know deep down what the best thing to do is. It is time for you to be responsible and start taking your meds again, otherwise you WILL end up in the hospital again and they WILL forcibly medicate you, and it will probably be court ordered this time so you can't escape it again. You should talk to your T about your disordered eating behaviours before that gets out of control too
i talked to my therapist about my eating habits and she wanted me to tell my doctor. i said no. because i dont want to end up with an ED diagnosis.

im scared they will forcibly medicate me or court order me. believe me im scared.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:02 PM
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its what everyones saying. plus i cant fit into my clothes anymore. my stomach is getting smaller though cause im not eating so im eating less now thankfully. and no its not really what everyones saying but i stopped my meds cold turkey before in 2010 to lose 80 pounds. i did it! i lost it and i know i can do itt again i just gotta get off these meds.


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i dont even know what that is. or how to get it. how do i get it?


im not sure how psychotic episode can kill me. but do you really think i sounded better on injections?
It's prescription you have to get it from a doctor...either a general practionioner or a pdoc. Personally I would bring it up with your pdoc she probably is more aware of how it works along with your meds.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:05 PM
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work was long. i Saw T after work. that made me feel better. i have tomorrow off. ughhh working sucks. i miss not having a job. T said that is my child part coming through. he said he is proud of me for being so responsible, school and work. it makes me feel good but god i wish i didnt have to stand on my feet for 7 hours.
You're in college right? Can you do work study...a lot of those jobs are super flexible and often have educational components like you can do research in a lab or just wash dishes or sometimes office work etc...but you need to qualify for it on fafsa then find a job that will take it. But the pay is high because half your salary comes from the government.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:06 PM
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its what everyones saying. plus i cant fit into my clothes anymore. my stomach is getting smaller though cause im not eating so im eating less now thankfully. and no its not really what everyones saying but i stopped my meds cold turkey before in 2010 to lose 80 pounds. i did it! i lost it and i know i can do itt again i just gotta get off these meds.


thanks yea i need to get on that. i renewed my domain name yesterday.


i dont even know what that is. or how to get it. how do i get it?


im not sure how psychotic episode can kill me. but do you really think i sounded better on injections?
I have to admit, yes.
You did. Your thoughts were clearer and your conversations were clearer.(((hug)))

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:10 PM
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Thanks,

I hate it though, I've tried posting in other forums before and it gets moved here
Well, i guess your stuck with us now....
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:15 PM
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I know, and the last psych nurse didn't even tell me what I was experiencing was akathisia. Then she freaking adds meds I didn't need instead of giving me congentin. I figured all that out on my own. One of my sisters thinks that I shouldn't look up what meds do, side effects and everything.

If she were in my position she'd want to know and if God forbid her son's were in this situation she would be getting them into the best care available.

I hate this, why can't my brain function better.

Punky, what helps with u if ur having paranoia or anxiety?
I guess it depends on how mentally strong I am at the moment.

Art, reading, coming here, pacing, or just huddled on the couch.

Depending on how tired my brain is at the time. Ya know?

Often, making myself do something complicated where I have to hyper focus on it works well.

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:17 PM
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Well I just talked to my psych nurses nurse and they said they won't prescribe metformin bc it hasn't been approved for helping with ap weight gain.

Idk what I'm gonna do. Increasing the latuda is more than likely going to make me get anxiety and insomnia again. But the risperdal is gonna make me even more overweight. If this is gonna be my life, I don't want it.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:17 PM
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Muscle stiffness and akathisia arrrrgghhhhh
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:20 PM
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oh yea. i frgt about that already....

thats what my therapist said. that 4mg wasnt strog enough for me. she wanted me to go up to 20mg. told me to get a release form and let her talk to my pdoc. i said no.

i feel confused. its just...this weight is killing me inside.

i dont even want to leave the house my paranoia is so high
I think you should talk to your dad about it because you trust him. Remember when he didn't want you to go off the injection? You really were doing better but you were also miserable on that. I'm concerned that if you don't get back on the meds you might end up in the hospital and even worse might end up getting forced treatment. You worked so hard to get off the shot...I know getting off the meds entirely is the easiest method to lose weight but why not try the metformin with your meds along with diet and exercise before giving up on the haldol entirely? Also I'm sorry that you feel lousy and are stuck between a rock and a hard place...
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:22 PM
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And newtus u did seem calmer on the meds.

I wish my back wasn't hurt so we could inspire each other to work out.

But I can't do much with my back problem.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:23 PM
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I know, but this has been happening for so long.

How can I live my life - when I'm scared every day.
Im so sorry your scared every day. I really am.
(((hug))) I know....I hug too much. But I mean it.

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:25 PM
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Well I just talked to my psych nurses nurse and they said they won't prescribe metformin bc it hasn't been approved for helping with ap weight gain.

Idk what I'm gonna do. Increasing the latuda is more than likely going to make me get anxiety and insomnia again. But the risperdal is gonna make me even more overweight. If this is gonna be my life, I don't want it.
Is it because they are np's? That's just called off label use and it's totally allowed for full docs to do...
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:27 PM
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Kureha It sucks that you are going through this stuff. I get anxious because the Govt is monitoring me too. I think what David Cameron is doing to the NHS and people on benefits is despicable!

Newtus: You know deep down what the best thing to do is. It is time for you to be responsible and start taking your meds again, otherwise you WILL end up in the hospital again and they WILL forcibly medicate you, and it will probably be court ordered this time so you can't escape it again. You should talk to your T about your disordered eating behaviours before that gets out of control too

I think I told you guys that I got my notes last week. Well I delivered a letter to the CMHT today saying that I'm discharging myself because of the "many inaccuracies" in my notes. I didn't get into specifics though because I knew that I would never change their minds. Surprisingly the psychologist then rang to see if I wanted to speak to his manager about my issues with my records, but I declined. I did not discharge myself in order to get them to beg me to stay, which is what they probably will think if I agreed to meet with anyone now. I'm actually surprised that someone bothered to contact me: considering that they all think I'm malingering, why do they want to keep seeing me?!

Anyway, I won't be around much on PC, if at all, any more because I feel like I am just attention seeking by being here. Just because I don't have a diagnosis anymore, doesn't mean my suffering has magically diminished! I'm fed up of people thinking that I'm malingering!

All the best guys!

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You cant leave because we look forward to seeing your posts every day.
And updates on your family.

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:33 PM
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Well I just talked to my psych nurses nurse and they said they won't prescribe metformin bc it hasn't been approved for helping with ap weight gain.

Idk what I'm gonna do. Increasing the latuda is more than likely going to make me get anxiety and insomnia again. But the risperdal is gonna make me even more overweight. If this is gonna be my life, I don't want it.
Bean was on it and it worked by supressing her appetite. Then suddenly medicaid would not cover it because its not proven to work. Ugg!

Maybe see how much it costs? It may be very inexpensive to pay cash.

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:33 PM
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yea my anxiety is sky high. as tall as the empire state building is.

i dont think i can talk to my dad abuot this. only about my symptoms. he already has a suspicion i stopped my meds. i lied to him and told him i didnt.

ill try to ask bout metaformin.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:34 PM
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how is my conversation worse? i cant tell.

but i feel myself becoming aggressive.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:34 PM
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:37 PM
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Is it because they are np's? That's just called off label use and it's totally allowed for full docs to do...
Well she's a psychiatric nurse practitioner. And it's bs bc she prescribed me an ointment that wasn't med related.

They will have to fight with my insurance over it and I don't think they want to do that. She said to go to my gp but she's not gonna do it I guarantee. She isn't helpful at all.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:39 PM
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i feel so tired. and i even drank a 5 hour energy. now im paranoid. ugh. stupid. shouldnt have drank it. i knew they increase my symptoms. but i wanted to go to bed at a normal hour. isntead of like 5pm. and we decrease the risperdal tonight. so i dont know. maybe i should take a prn.
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:39 PM
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how is my conversation worse? i cant tell.

but i feel myself becoming aggressive.
Just the things you say. Your thinking and beliefs. Anxiety, agression, just thinking about acting and listening to what the voices are telling you to do.

Paranoia..everything right now is very, very increased. You are having a hard time figuring out reality my dear.

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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:42 PM
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Kureha It sucks that you are going through this stuff. I get anxious because the Govt is monitoring me too. I think what David Cameron is doing to the NHS and people on benefits is despicable!

Newtus: You know deep down what the best thing to do is. It is time for you to be responsible and start taking your meds again, otherwise you WILL end up in the hospital again and they WILL forcibly medicate you, and it will probably be court ordered this time so you can't escape it again. You should talk to your T about your disordered eating behaviours before that gets out of control too

I think I told you guys that I got my notes last week. Well I delivered a letter to the CMHT today saying that I'm discharging myself because of the "many inaccuracies" in my notes. I didn't get into specifics though because I knew that I would never change their minds. Surprisingly the psychologist then rang to see if I wanted to speak to his manager about my issues with my records, but I declined. I did not discharge myself in order to get them to beg me to stay, which is what they probably will think if I agreed to meet with anyone now. I'm actually surprised that someone bothered to contact me: considering that they all think I'm malingering, why do they want to keep seeing me?!

Anyway, I won't be around much on PC, if at all, any more because I feel like I am just attention seeking by being here. Just because I don't have a diagnosis anymore, doesn't mean my suffering has magically diminished! I'm fed up of people thinking that I'm malingering!

All the best guys!

*Willow*
Willow I'm not sick and I still hang out here...you do a lot of good helping and supporting other people and we all have issues from time to time on roll call like right now I want to say it's actually snowing pretty substantially outside and that kind of sucks...I had just bought a geranium and a couple of mini roses that have to hang out inside for at least the next week...anyway stick around and do some good...
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Old Apr 14, 2014, 06:46 PM
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