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What I don't understand is why they can't make an ap without all the side effects.

Why does no one believe a word that I say.

This. I'm very suspicious of AP's myself because god the side effects have been horrific for me. It makes me paranoid about being on them because I honestly believe they're poison more than half the time due to side effects like akathisia and stuff.

Thanks,

I hate it though, I've tried posting in other forums before and it gets moved here

I know, and the last psych nurse didn't even tell me what I was experiencing was akathisia. Then she freaking adds meds I didn't need instead of giving me congentin. I figured all that out on my own. One of my sisters thinks that I shouldn't look up what meds do, side effects and everything.

If she were in my position she'd want to know and if God forbid her son's were in this situation she would be getting them into the best care available.

I hate this, why can't my brain function better.

Punky, what helps with u if ur having paranoia or anxiety?

I know what you mean. When I first got akathisia nobody told me that that's what it was, I had to figure it out on my own. It was so bad that when I'd type it come out in meaningless gibberish because my hands couldn't sit still long enough to type out words correctly, it was ****ing awful. It sounds like you get akathisia a lot. The insomnia you keep describing sounds like an akathisia symptom to me since you always talk about it when you're starting on new meds like latuda for instance.

It always seems like the meds that cause the least weight gain cause more akathisia and crap. Totally sucks.

You know schizophrenia, delusional disorder and psychosis, it doesn't exist, it's all fake, it was made up by Dr Cameron for the future of MK Ultra.

See that Dr D Ewen Cameron - D Cameron - UK Prime minister, yeah doesn't take a genius.

I need to get in touch with the prime minister - because he can't keep targeting innocent people.

I need to get in touch with the prime minister - because he can't keep targeting innocent people.

i thought about writing a letter to the president myself.

Is this because of what your mother said about your weight? If she had not of said that to you would you have stayed on your medications?

Newtus you haven't made any videos in a while. Do you think making some would help you?

I just checked your blog and you haven't written there since November.

I'm just wondering if talking about what your dealing with would help you...

You'd probably receive lots of great, helpful advice

Have you ever considered metformin as an add on to your meds....its an anti diabetes drug but its sort of common name is exercise in a bottle because it changes the energy regulation in you cells...here is an article about it. I don't know why its not more commonly used...its like the pdocs want to completely ignore the metabolic side effects...

Fighting Antipsychotic Weight Gain

What do you value more, weight loss or your life?

Getting off medications can result in a psychotic episode that can KILL YOU. You're already on edge and have been on edge even when you were taking your medicine.

Also, I really hate to say this but you sounded a hell of a lot better when you were on the injections. Sure you still had issues but you sounded better.

There's a reason medications exist, they are there to help. I know, I'm a huge hypocrite and need to work on medication compliance myself, but still... you are risking your life here. Also, you don't want to spiral into an eating disorder. That will just make EVERYTHING worse(voice of experience talking here), and I do mean everything. You'll stop sleeping at night because you're starving, which will then make your psychosis even worse. It's not a good cycle.

Sorry for the blunt post, I'm just worried about you and I would hate to see you back in the hospital and then back on the injections that you hated so much. Why not just take the pills and have some control over your life? I know it sucks to take them, but without them you are in trouble. Every time you've gotten off your meds you've gotten into serious trouble.

What would you say?

To the prime minister I'd tell him it has to stop, that I know the government are experimenting on people.
To watch his back and that the truth will come out eventually.

You've been talking about driving your car with the door open. That's dangerous.


And yeah, you did sound better on the injections. I'm not saying you should go back on those but 4mg of Haldol isn't strong enough for your psychosis.