Roll Call 21

Yes, I ordered them from a hatchery in Missouri.

It happens all the time. It's not cruel. Chicks don't need to eat for the first few days, because they're still absorbing the yolk.

OMGosh... your not being creepy. I need all the help I can get!!!!!!

I hate when this happens.
Been there Costello and its not fun. Chicks are tricky that way.
Especially when just shipped. Glad the rest made it so far. Sorry for that poor little biddy....

NEWTUS !!!!!!
Your home!!!!!!

This is your cat? What a beauty! And what a great photo!

Do you mind if I copy the photo and share it on my facebook page? Not saying where it came from or anything. I share a lot of cat pictures on facebook, and this one's gorgeous.

That's a good idea. I tend to stop seeing a note if it's been there long enough, so I have to make a point of moving them around or putting up new ones.

I think I'll make some tokens with positive messages in my jewelry class. Just little disks I can carry in my pocket.

I like "This too shall pass" and "Are you sure?" (which is what Thich Nhat Hanh says you should ask yourself before reacting with anger or fear to something someone else has done. Just check to be sure your perception is accurate - Virginia's Voice: Are You Sure ... Thich Nhat Hanh)

Thanks Yes you can copy and share.

Flying doesn't bother me, but I don't fly anymore because of airport security. How bad is it? I've applied for a beginning farmers institute. I probably won't get in, but if I do I have to go to D.C., Minnesota, and Wichita. I can drive to Wichita, and even Minnesota if I have to, but I'm not sure I want to drive all the way to D.C.

Thanks!

ETA: Copied and shared!

ETA: Your cat has a like already on my facebook page. I have a few cat groupies amongst my facebook friends.

ETA: lol... Another like.

ETA: A third like.

For Newtus

well i flew to california. i CAN say that security was NOT as bad as i thought. i havent flown in 7 years.

going to california i had to take off my shoes and put my bag in a conveyor belt and they made me scan my body. but it never felt as scary as i THOUGHT it would.

coming back home i didnt have to take my shoes off. i didnt have to scan my body. just walk through a metal detector.

now idk if the differences in that was because the airport in dallas is bigger and used more than the smaller airport of san jose.

thanks everyone for the warm welcome back.

i goto see my therapist today.

costello ive been wanting to find a place to order some chicks to texas.

After my experience, I think I'll just go to the farm store for chicks, unless I want a specific breed that they don't have.

Glad you're back Newtus! What did you get up to? Did you go to San Francisco after?



Hope they're ok.

Apparently Mum has cirrhosis now and, when she is discharged, she will need to go on the transplant list Hopefully someone in the family is a match and can give her a lobe, but haven't talked about that with the doctors yet.

Also, five and a half months after requesting my inpatient notes, I got them today. I knew they would be bad, but it still upset me reading all the horrible and untrue things they said, not just about me, but my family too. Apparently my Mum is overbearing, so I'm faking my MI symptoms because that's the only way I can get any attention in my family

Eta: Idk if I should go to the GP next week now. I don't want him thinking I'm attention seeking too. I want to cut off all contact with the CMHT. If they think I'm attention seeking, then I should stop going, because that will just reinforce my attention seeking behaviour, surely?!

The noise in my head is really loud now I've read all that

Eta: Also I found no mention of any personality disorder diagnosis, which is one good thing I suppose.

*Willow*

I would not be able to read such things about myself. Horrible.

@willow

san francisco is only an hour away from san jose so my aunt and uncle just drove me on a weekend to there. and then back to my grandmas.

i have a lot of pictures. i shared a few one time but ill share more soon.

Saw my nurse today, then she called me later and said she wanted me to go see the Dr (not my Dr - she is away)
So I freaked out and asked if it was a trick to get me into hospital, but she said it wasn't so she came to take me there.
I had a panic attack in the waiting room, when my nurse went to talk to the Dr.

The Dr did mention hospital and that they are concerned about my safety and other peoples.
He asked me what I knew about schizophrenia - I said just the basics and he gave me a book - it's like a comic, but with pages of information as well and it's about psychosis.

They think I might have schizophrenia, that's a pretty big deal, because I wasn't expecting that and now I'm confused.

Hi everyone sorry I haven't been on in a while been busy with every day life.. I already made a post about this but I experienced this weird thing has anyone ever had something similar? What really happened to me?..It's bothering the heck out of me. see I was laying on my bed I had not taken my medication yet I wasn't asleep yet either I was just staring at my ceiling then I started feeling something build up inside of me I started to writhe back and forth and felt compelled to scream out a little bit but all that came out was a muffled gargle sound I then felt like I lost touch with my mind it was dark and then I came too and I couldn't move any part of my body And my eyes felt locked in place. Then I saw the invisible outline of fingers and felt this fuzzy feeling across my face I also saw the outline of the whole being I was seeing the eyes were light blue transparent they looked very monkey like then it faded away it only showed me its self for a moment then my arms felt HOT inside and out and my feet too like Fire was running through my veins then I was able to actually move and I sat up but felt very dizzy,and sick to my stomach. I thought at first the semi invisible being actually helped me to regain my consciousness and move my body again but I am not sure if that is a delusion and all of this was some weird break from reality or what. I will have to tell my Psychiatrist about this though... But this really bothered me I felt better after taking my meds. I even went as far as to look up different stories about invisible people online but Couldn't find much of what I experienced listed. I know it sounds weird! I don't know what to make of it myself. Anyone else ever have something happen to them like this before?

i got a call from the grocery store. i am hired. im going tomorrow to fill out the paperwork. yay. i meet with pdoc and T tomorrow. hopefully they will get me off the risperdal pills. T is happy about my job. we are starting a new collage project for therapy dealing with my inner parts (the parent, child, and healthy adult parts). i feel positive

Oh good for you Junk! glad to hear it I am still hoping to get an ACTUAL job rather than various part timers.... It's hard to find work.

KUREHA if you do have schizophrenia that IS a big deal. youve been paranoid severely for years now. think about that.

i saw my therapist and she said i look generally ok. she got me in a trap of talking by asking SO many questions that she got it out of me that i smoke weed. and that ive been paranoid and hallucinating a bit. she gets so much out of me and idk how. i feel like i just fall into a trap. or backed into a corner. and i told her basically how i felt it was a trap and she said "your not talking so im just asking questions".