Roll Call 25

I'm not psychotic right now either and haven't been for a bit now, it feels kind of weird even to post here. I feel back to normal so I don't have much to say about myself or my experiences anymore because well, there's nothing to say! I'm well!

I spend unhealthy times alone to myself in my home and rarely go out anywhere.its probably bad for me but its hard to get motivated to go out.I really only go out when friends invite me somewhere or when I have to go to the store.

ONE IS THE LONELIEST NUMBER THAT YOU'LL EVER DOOOO!

Lol... I think I need to get out of the house too. Shame that I have nowhere to go.

Whoa I think I isolate more than u guys. If I had a car that would help but the bus is a ways away and walking there hurts bc of my back.

good news! i got my refund back today from the college and was able to pick up my xanax just now!

lol I also don't have a car and the bus stop closest to my house comes only every 1 hour 30 mins and it's also 2 miles from my house down a road with semi trucks like to drive down. Not all that safe. I do get out every once in a while thanks to my ex's parents picking me up and staying the night at their house or my dad.

I don't drive but I live in a large suburb so I get around a lot. I can walk to people's houses whenever I want and there's a pool area in the middle of my neighborhood so I can go swimming whenever I please when it's summertime of course.

Yeah I'm trying to get into some groups, but this agency doesn't know what they're doing. It's taking forever...But then I can get some transpo to groups.

I have a question.I was told there is no cure for schizophrenia but yet there are people who got over their symptoms and were able to live a normal life?so does that mean that we never fully recover if there is no actual cure?and what if I recover but then I relapse right back where I started?this has been bugging me for a while now.have any of you relapsed after recovery?I want to recover I dont want to have these problems anymore but will I ever be able to fully recover?

i went out with my mom for a couple of hours or so. but i didnt feel like...happy. i really miss my dad when hes gone. im not happy without him. my sis says its a very unhealthy relationship i have with him. because im so attached to him. but idk. i never thought it was. who knows.

im sorry everyone that i always say im gonna kill myself on here. when i am depressed it hits hard. and idk any real coping skills to get myself off the ground or to ground my life. i have had a few suicide attempts so i know i cant trust myself. but talking it out on here helps sometimes. thats why i come here. i have no one else to talk to. its hard talking to a parent about wanting to kill yourself cuz you already know what they think.

I understand needing somewhere to say that, newtus, but with suicide it's so hard for us on the other computers, because we're not near enough to help. It makes us worry and feel a little helpless. I 100% understand needing someone to say it to, maybe there are people who are trained to help in these situations?

I hate calling helplines when I feel suicidal, because I don't want anyone to hear me talking on the phone. There are internet based services like https://www.imalive.org/

We will understand how you feel when you say you're suicidal, but we won't be able to do anything. None of us want to see you hurt. I know I'm new to this forum, but I really like you.

thanks theatrekid.

i understand that. thanks for the link. i guess next time i should say im just "feeling" this way or that way. but a lot of those times i really want to act on it. the only thing that stopped me apart from those other attempts is my dad. thinking about where my dad would be without me. not even my mom or sis cross my mind.

So 25% of people recover in long term studies however some percentage of those people are thought to have schizophreniform which is more like a 6 month diagnosis so its hasn't been sorted out precisely. Most people experience remission for some period of time often with the help of meds but will relapse at some point and need to be stabilized. Some people do fully recover and go off meds but often there are minor residual hallucinations.

So my psychosis was considered too short for schizophrenia---it was about 1.5 months before I got meds but I still had intermittent hallucinations for I think like 6 months and then again briefly like a year later. Never got the sz dx but instead docs said I'll be fine and went off the meds 6 months ago no hallucinations. So people do get better... some though need meds to stay better. In that regard you commonly hear the comparison to diabetes where you aren't cured but you will live a normal life if you take insulin/meds. Its really variable and the long term studies are very few....

yesterday when i told my dad how i feeling so down he told me to read my bible. i just couldnt bring myself to do it. like i figured it wouldnt help me. idk.

how is everyone feeling today?

Excellent! Thank you for asking.

I have a stupid blood pressure monitor on for 18 more hours. Can't wait to get that thing off.

I just got home. I've been out of the house for five hours. I'm glad to be back home. Too many people out today. I feel nervous and have a headache. I know it's better for me to force myself to get out of the house but when I do get out my kids always have a million places to go. It makes me irritated but I try to hide it. But I HATE running from place to place.

Meh still cleaning up from that scammer guy making me a little short tempered...

And Daisy misses me so much when I'm gone. I feel so guilty when I leave her.

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Ever climb through one of them drainage tubes under the road? Yea......

punky

i keep thhinking im pregnant but theres no possible way.

did you do that? ive always wanted to theres one by my mailbox but it looks too scary.

glad to hear a comment from everyone btw