Roll Call 26

I'm sorry sunshine That wasn't a nice thing to say to your son.

I wouldn't feel comfortable at a bbq with them either.

this is such a good song.The pretender - Foo Fighters

I'm so tired. I can't get motivated...

It's so hard to get motivated when you are in pain. I'm really sorry

I'm trying to edit my signature, and its not letting me add pics...ugh!!

I'm tired. Worked with my group today for class but we didn't do much work.

its been such a grey cloudy day today.

Wow! It has taken me AGES to catch up on Roll call!! You guys sure have talked a lot the last few days!

Cracking: Have you heard if your daughter gets to walk across the stage for graduation yet? I'm sorry that she wouldn't listen to you and caused you all that stress, but I agree with Sometimes that she will (hopefully) have learnt a valuable lesson. I take it senior pranks are a US thing cos we never did anything like that when I left school, but then we don't have a graduation ceremony either until we finish Uni.

Also, are you prescribed any meds for your migraines? I don't know what stuff you mentioned, but when I get migraines (thankfully not often) I just take paracetamol and codeine (same stuff as Migraleve) and go to sleep and it sorts it out. My Mum takes a triptan for her migraines cos they're not helped by what I take, and at one point she was taking a preventative med every day cos she was getting them so often (I think it was gabapentin, but not sure).

Medicalfox: way to go on the scholarships and all the As! Did you get onto the programme you applied for (I've forgotten what it was, sorry!)?

*Willow*

well im back. was at my moms for memorial day weekend. i woke up early today and drove back. then i had to work 12-7. it was a hard shift. i worked 4 hours before i got my break. but T was encouraging me during my break and i felt a little better after it. im so worn out. i have to meet T and pdoc tomorrow. we are going to show him the article that SometimesP linked on here about abilify reversing the effects on prolactin.

i was sad i left toby for 2 days but he seems ok. i missed him. i feel much more connected to him than when i first got him. i still think about spook and miss him a lot. its hard not to replay the day they put him to sleep in my head. me hugging him and sobbing while they injected him. his little head falling over and the vet telling me that hes gone. it was soooo sad. i dont like thinking about that moment. i want to think about the good times i had with my babycake. oh i miss him so much.

i just watched Call Me Crazy: A Five Film. with 5 people with mental illness. One girl had schizophrenia and was going to law school when she had her second breakdown. i like how all the stories wrapped together and the girl with schizophrenia saved the woman with PTSD.

Call Me Crazy: A Five Film - Watch Lifetime Movies Online | myLifetime.com

its available on netflix

Hey Willow
Yes my daughter will get to walk thank God
We just went and bought her black dress today. It is a requirement that they wear a black dress under their graduation robe. They also have to wear black shoes. So instead of wearing her nice black heels she buys a pair of low cut black Converse! I'm thinking Converse with a dress? WTH? But it's just her little way of being rebellious! She did agree to take her black heels with her in case the principal refuses to let her walk in the Converse!

As for the migraine I have 100mg Imitrex tablets. I've also tried another medication from the doctor but it's been so long ago that I can't remember the name of it. Anyways both of them make me very sick. I am very sensitive to medications so I try not to take much of anything. Codeine makes me extremely sick. I can't take that at all. So when I do get a migraine I just use over the counter Excedrin Migraine and a heating pad. I try to sleep it off as much as possible.

I enjoyed it too

alcohol tonight. ive been in the house 3-4 days straight in bed. very lonely. slightly depressing. makes the paranoia and voices come back.

Omg I finally got groceries. My back is really killing me...

My son helped put away groceries. If he didn't I swear I was gonna scream!!

I didn't realize it until today, but I'm depressed. I feel like crying all the time and sleeping in because my last semester was so stressful due to my job over working me.

@willow- No I didn't get in because I was missing general chemistry, but I will get in next year definitely. I'm going into the field of pathology which is the study of diseases.

Well that guy called. I didn't answer. I truly don't believe I will find what I want until I get out of this town.

But it's a nice night tonight.

Im not sure if anyone wants too but if you want to add me on my new fb this is the link to my account https://www.facebook.com/vampy.blazer well its kind of new I made it a while back but never did anything with it and deactivated it until recently.I thought it had been deleted but it was only deactivated.

when I am better I plan on making a facebook group to help other people with schizophrenia for teens and young adults so I can give advice and support because I know how hard it is.but I cant help others until I have helped myself.

That is a very good idea I don't do Facebook anymore. I only reactivate my account every couple of months or so to check in on the four people I have on there. They all live far away from me but I'm curious about how they're doing. I don't make posts there because these four people are linked with my ex husband. He is someone I don't want to talk to and I certainly don't want him knowing my business. So for those reasons I won't be adding you to Facebook but I will continue to talk with you on Roll Call

I really wish I could hear from Punky. I am worried about her

I hope everyone is having a great day

I'm having a lot of self doubt at the minute. I get paranoid about what people think of me and what they might be saying about me behind my back. I need to talk to my cpn about it but I don't want to look neurotic

I have problems with that when I'm at work. I'm glad to be on summer break right now. If you have the opportunity to talk to someone about it I say go for it!

My thinking has been really fragmented yet obsessive. I can't seem to keep focused on one thing at a time. I keep jumping around all over. It's annoying. Like even if I try to play a game I'm like in that mode where I want to play a game, watch t.v., and look stuff up online all at the same time... makes it hard to get anything done.

I can't read back too far so to everyone.