Roll Call 28

It was called short term 12. Really good.

http://www.topamax.com/

"I'm climbing my own mountain without any safety equipment"

i saw that movie awhile ago. really good

I don't know if anyone remembers me,I was on here a few months ago.I think I've gotten much worse.I can't differentiate who is there and who is not.sometimes I even wonder if I am the one who's not here.Maybe I am a ghost or dead or something...maybe everything around me is fiction and this whole world is made up by me,and my mind has imagined this all up.

19-25 hours

oh i was on a lot more than 25mg. maybe ur side effects wont be as bad

gonna drink my coffee then clean out my car. i keep having dreams about the customer service manager at the store i work at. it's really weird.

yea so far i havent had any issues except i had some diarheaa this morning. (tmi sorry).

thank you

jw did you lose weight on topamax?

Today, at every public place I go to, I will spread the truth. Hopefully my mom doesn't stop me, and that I unbrainwash them. Then they can help to unbrainwash everyone else!

Going on cam like live cam to stop paranoia of cameras while not medicated I'll tell you all if it works

Hopefully it works!

yes. i gained a lot of weight in my late teens because of massive doses of seroquel. i lost 60lbs but i also had an eating disorder. but i was on a lot more milligrams of topamax than u are.

omg i cleaned out my car. there was SO MUCH trash in it. but i found some cool things.. like my mp3 player. and a whole pack of cigs that wasnt even open. and a zippo. anyway it took 30 minutes and im sweating really badly right now. BUT I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

how much were you on if you dont mind me asking. i notice people online were on upwards 100mg

250mg a day

oh wow. yea the only side effect im having is diarheaa. right now anyway. i dont notice any tingling in my arms or legs or mental confusion

yeah, that's good. ur on a low dose anyway. so i doubt ur side effects will be as severe as mine were. i take metformin now and it's working to lower my prolactin levels cuz i got my period again, but sometimes it gives me diarrhea. more so when i first started taking it, not as bad now.

I'm on metformin too and it give me diarrhea sometimes too.

So I've been manic, then went to hypomania... then back to mania... now I'm mixed. **** this. Hahahaha. I don't know what to do anymore, what's the point of taking the meds if they don't even ****ing work?

I don't know alot about mood triggers or whether its just considered spontaneous in some people but things like sunlight I know can have impact but possibly also anxiety etc. I'm just wondering if your pdoc gave you any tips for mitigating this outside of meds...

My pdoc doesn't really give me any tips outside of meds, and frankly therapists haven't either. They're just like, "well talk to your pdoc and get your meds adjusted."

It's so frustrating. It's like if you can't take a pill for it then oh well, you're on your own!

I feel thoroughly ****ed over.

I get like this every summer. I don't know if sunlight is a factor or not because I was manic as hell in January this year when as you know the days are very short. It seems just random.

Anxiety isn't really a factor for me so I don't know what it is that's triggering this. It feels completely random, and that doesn't make it any easier.

OK I just wasn't sure I haven't read much about bipolar or the bipolar elements of sza. I'm kind of surprised given that there is cbt for psychosis and they consider things to trigger that, that there is not some equivalent for bipolar type symptoms. Even the genetics of bipolar/mood stuff seem really unknown...I'm not sure why. It may be that there is no pattern to moods and it simply doesn't have a genetic basis but some people have clear seasonal patterns. Anyway sorry that things kind of suck right now....

Atypical, the tips my pdoc has given me for mania are to keep a routine, lie down every night at the same time and get up at the same time whether you sleep or not, exercise but not too close to bedtime, keep in touch with friends, meditation (which is excruciating while manic but can help), set mealtimes.

Hope you get through it soon and things go back to normal.